Well most of my friends are unhappy with me,
They find me Annoying,
They call me everything what they hate,
They say I am unavailable being available to them,
They say you can’t be like this to us,
I try to convince them,but they don’t listen,
They are Right in their ways, I have to be with them if I am with them,
But I am with my love interest,
If not being next to her always then through my phone,
I feel good for the fact that she feels good when I am connected to her either next to her with holding a hand or through calls or even chats,
My friends don’t like my life style and priority,
But I don’t want to see her sad, as she feels sad and bad when I don’t message or call her and don’t lift her call,
I lie her sometimes that yes you wished me the first birthday wish, though sometimes she is second as my mother wishes before than her may be a fraction of second earlier,
Even if its a lake or I am at some public place I text her, as she wants to feel the ambiance with me and my words. I like it, its not that I am not enjoying it.
But its a cheat with my friends.
She enjoys everything of my talks ,
Even my sick poor cheap jokes, at which no one can laugh.
And of course my way of care,
She just love talking to me,
She says ” I will be fine I don’t need a doctor, you are the doctor and the medicine is our conversation.” When she gets sick.
I Remember that ,
I talked to her through calls and texts for around 20hrs continuously with a charger plugged in, whenever needed.
She loved the gesture, and even felt good to be with her when she needed me.
I have to talk as she my love and I can’t see her sad,
After knowing that her sadness is my unavailability and lesser communication.
But what to do with my friends ,they are not wrong either.
They want me as their friend as I have been,
She asks me to pick one sometimes,
somehow I skip the question with an ice cream or some deep discussion about my career, but i am worried with the picking of one.
I may pick her over them by being a selfish lover but I wouldn’t be Happy with that, I know as my friends are also important .!
Love them and Love her also. Both have their importance but yes one priority is not happy when I am with the another priority.
***We can’t decide who comes first and who is second, of course it’s both which make us what we want to be, so its important to make them understand their importance in our life, one can’t be another and vice versa. Both are differently important in life. It’s harsh and unfair to pick and choose.