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The Right Girl !


Just Not the Right Girl for you!

As I smoke & Drink sometimes , and you don’t,

Just not the Right Girl for you ,

As I Don’t Pray much,

Just not the Right Girl for you ,As I laugh Louder than any other girl,

Just Not the Right Girl , as I wear Some Clothes which are short and you don’t like such clothes,

Just Not the Right Girl , as I Care for others more than me, and you don’t ,

Just Not the Right Girl , as I Don’t share my problems and Pain , as you want it to be,

Just not the right Girl , as I Am a free Bird , and you want to have a puppet for you,

I can’t be that Girl with Limited Words as I speak a lot at times,

I can’t be your Miss Right all the time.

As I want to fly and you want someone without wings.

So Dude, You are free to have such Puppets more and more ,

I am not the Right choice for you.

Not CREDIBLE !


Hello Friends,

Hope you all are doing good in your life , as i really want you all to be in the best of your health and mental state.

Guys today i have been thinking about the stature and the credible status of Bollywood , and i really feel sad for the circumstances it has been , the recent suicides of some of the most adorable and talented actors and the drama around their demise has been very strange and shameful, which is very sluggish with the best of my knowledge.

but when i see the last one and half years of entertainment world , i only feel cheated and betrayed by the so called actors and their closed ones, we have seen the involvement of Mr. Raj Kundra in the pornography case and also in the IPL Betting case.

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And then the never ending list of involvement of bollywood actors in drug peddling and consumption , we have seen the actors like Deepika Padukone , Sara Ali khan , Shraddha kappoor, Rakul Preet singh, Rhea chakraborthy along with her brother and yes Aryan Khan the son of famous bollywood actor shah Rukh Khan. Of course few of them have been are behind the bars but most of them are still in the process of investigation or may be the investigation agency could not have found any evidences or they were not enough to prove them guilty,

we also heard the noise of involvement form the televison industry with some big names from the business like Bharti singh and her husband. with due respect we have also some references of the south Indian film industry but they were are not as it has been form the bollywood,

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although with Aid of some of the most reputed lawyers they are safe and they are still working in the same field but as an audience we have to think do we still trust them ?

do we really feel them are someone who have been asked for investigation without a purpose.

do we really think that they have been targeted by some of the people for their political or ideological benefits ? which we usually get to listen who are supporting these actors or who defend the bollywood,

we do have our own brain we can sense that everything is not for an political agenda as some forces are there to destroy the youth of our country and by availing drugs in the streets by small kids or by some unconventional means they are trying to make our country weak and addictive to the drugs which could hamper us like never before,

it is sad that few still there political interests in the entire investigation and raids.

but i feel that the term called bollywood has lost its charm and attraction, people have slowly developed hatred which we usually hear in the general discussions in our local gardens, this hatred is also very reasonable not at all objectionable as they are the so called reel heroes they have extra responsibility for being what they are there many followers to them who follow them blindly, they are worshiped in some places, but if this is what the truth is then i think it is the common people who have been cheated the most for believing everything what there favorite stars said,

but the broader picture is that there are many families who are completely dependent on the film industry for their survival if this how we all are going to create a kind of rejection and question for all the valid reasons where and what they will do to survive. i can only feel bad for everyone who followed them and who is associated from the industry and have to face some hatred for things they have done wrong somewhere .

Thank you

Option / choice.


I wish I could have stopped her , a bit more,

I tried my best,

but she had priorities,…

And many more reasons to leave.

I wanted her to stay ,

Sit and talk more About she and me.

But she went as she felt going is a better option,.

Then talking to me.

Or she may have better things to do than talking to me.

I felt like ,

I am an option,

not a choice

Not a serious aspect,

Just a time pass Material!!

Who has been played,

And left after sometime.

Hell is the Better place to live…


Hell is the better to place to live the rest of my life,

As it won’t give me these breathe taking pains on instalment basis,

As it won’t give me the sadness of being cheated again and again,
As it won’t insult me for loving you blindly every now and then,
Yes Hell is the better to live my life.

You are the reason for all these conversations,

You are the reason for all the instigations,

You are the reason for my helplessness,

You are the reason for every time i cry,
You made my life irresistible,
Hell is better place to live,

I can’t live with this shame,

I can’t live with this humiliation,

I do have words,
I don’t want to stay with it,
Yes I am frustrated,

As Hell is the better to place to LIVE.

Hell is the better to place to live the rest of my life,

As it won’t give me these breathe taking pains on instalment basis,

As it won’t give me the sadness of being cheated again and again,
As it won’t insult me for loving you blindly every now and then,
Yes Hell is the better to live my life.

You are the reason for all these conversations,

You are the reason for all the instigations,

You are the reason for my helplessness,

You are the reason for every time i cry,
You made my life irresistible,
Hell is better place to live,

I can’t live with this shame,

I can’t live with this humiliation,

I do have words,
I don’t want to stay with it,
Yes I am frustrated,

As Hell is the better to place to LIVE.

Leave me with a smile on your face..


And then she said…

“I Love you …

But my family does not want me to live with you as they have other dreams for me and you don’t fit over there according to them…

And i can’t leave my family for you….. As they came earlier in my life then you……

So i have decided to live without you for them as they cannot understand my situation as you can do.

I am sorry for this

but I am helpless

I just want to say that you deserve a better person than me …

I know its tough and painful but this the last thing I am asking you for this life if you really love me please leave me with a smile on your face and don’t meet me again..

I can’t face you

But don’t hate me I can’t see that for me.

I am sorry I know its a kind of cheat with you but I know you will understand my situation better then anyone else.

Please forgive me..

Please Go …“

The Last Love Letter…


27.06.2017 Tuesday

Dear Love ,

This Letter is for the Unconditional Love we had for each other…

May you read it with the same spark in your eyes as you had in your eyes for my Messages.

May be I am not your love anymore but you will be my love forever as I can’t have a replacement for you ever in my life.

May be your priorities have changed but it is still enough that you gave me the first priority in your life which is undeniable.

May be I am not good enough to have you in my life but it is a fact that you have been in my life for years which will stay with me.

May be you will not look at me but I still love that look of yours which imbibed with flying notions.

You may have gone.

You may have moved on.

You may have separated ways.

You may have decided to leave me alone.

But you cannot take the memories of yours from my heart&soul.

You know that My Love is immortal .

You have been special and you will remain the same till the last breathe of my life though you think that
loving me was a mistake.

Yes it is not easy for me to live this life

but I am living to prove that

Leaving me was your Biggest Mistake.

When we will be at our old ages if somehow we meet somewhere I will be happy if you remember that first emotion of love which we had.

Once upon a time we both have stated that we are soul mates ..and we are made for each other and I still feel the same

We are Made for each other…

Remembering you is my source of Liveliness.

God Bless You My Sweetheart.

I Love You

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S Y S T E M !


Hello Everyone,

Today I thought Just to Put a glare on the Various Systems ( Functionings), With which we usually deal in our daily life, with And without our choice,

Guys , we often see People complaining about the things with which they felt Discarded ,Also toxic and end up Leaving it for their own good, as It becomes suffocating to withstand with something which is not Productive and also Unworthy,

And If You find it decent than the people who are running it make it terrible, Like I Work in Private Sector and it has been said that everything what we have in the private sector is Very Professional and You may get paid as per your output,

it was also stated that the People are being associated with multiple Job responsibilities , so that one could learn more than One thing if he is actually happy in learning,

And yes we all have been said that Growth of An Individual is Very Good, With Job satisfaction and Productive Involvement.

But later I Have Observed, that People are having negative mindsets, they feel that “even if we put our Life for the respective organization we are not going get to recognized,”

“we will never get any monetary gains,”

“we will never ever get appreciated,”

they are just scared to do new things,

they just don’t want to learn and grow,

even of they know it,they would say

we don’t know,

we can’t do,

this is not our cup of tea etc.

They Even divert the job responsibility,

They are so Negative in thoughts that , they don’t Even ready to share the knowledge or even help their juniors if they seek help from them,

it is so disturbing to me, even the Paper works are very slow and cumbersome,

In fact I gave an interview Recently and in which I cleared the technical interview and it was the salary part which was about to be discussed, I gave my expected salary to the HR department and then they haven’t called me for 10 days and I have to call them for the same, then they said we can’t pay lesser than the half of what you have mentioned as your expected salary,

I was not happy with the Fish Market Bargaining,

As I was Very Much in the market Rate. I said It is not about what you can pay and what not, but what it took to make a call on the very next day or a day after or even 3/4 days post interview.

as I was happy about my interview and the feedback, and was serious about your Organization, They Said We Thought You will Understand it yourself, that we can’t pay. I replied your organization is one of the reputed ones and I never thought you people can’t pay the nominal market salary , and above it this approach is something which I never expected from your end. Even if I have asked more than what you kept as salary for the job, you people have conveyed me the same, and at least informed me about it, there is always a scope of negotiations, but I think Your company can’t even afford a phone call, I replied and disconnected the call.

Even many of my friends have also mentioned the same that some of the Interviewers are not at all Sensitive, they neither inform about your selection not even about your rejection, they just call and take the interview and Collect the database,

I have observed that people usually leave their job after 1 or 2 years,

I felt that may be the individuals are not mentally stable, or even got better package, I later came to know the reason of it, that The people who have performed well, did the extreme hard work and expected an appraisal , increment,and even promotion has never got it, instead had been asked to do Overtimes without any pay for a constant time, and they left the job once they find a better one,

I feel that The people who are recruiting individuals have the responsibility of Finding Performing individuals and preserve them for a long time, as they have to be given respect for bringing the best from the rest,

Recruiting individuals is not the only modern day thing of HR Department, it is about Finding the best team and making them stay with you to have the best output . Just for A little lesser Amount Organizations compromises with their proven Individuals and find someone new as we have pool of Unemployed People and that individual takes time to understand things,and even they may not fit in the same place, then they face severe Loss of output, Quality of work and a team of Performers,

There should be a Policy to Find, Nurture and Sustain with the individuals.

Think About it.

Thank You

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Read Before You React.


Hello People,

Well I am writing about it today , but I actually wanted to write even before, I don’t know how many of you agree with me and what are your opinions about it,

but i really feel sad so sharing my views

Guys , Nowadays the WordPress readers are not readers any more, they are doing their formalities , why I am saying this because, I have observed it from a long time,

The readers are reading a full length 3500+ words story in just 4 seconds of being published,

I still don’t know what sort of talent it is and how they read it ,

if they actually read it in that particular duration of time , then it’s more than a miracle for me, and I would like to learn that special power what they have ,

but if they don’t read (Obviously they don’t Read) and like it without reading a single line with the reasons better known to them, is very disheartening to me,

I always want people to read it regardless of their choices of likes or feedback, but they should read it first.

It may be satisfactory to some, but not to me, I don’t have any fantasy for Number Of likes , comments etc

I want to make it clear please don’t like without reading it,

This is a cheat to yourself first, Then to the Writer.

And yes I want to add one more thing , this is not with everyone , but yes many of us are of such mindsets who have a knack of pleasing people for their choice, or revert . (like to get a like back.)

Which I hate the most, The process should be read then react if needed,

and we all know how much time it takes to read 500 words, 1000 words, and 4000 words for any human being, you can’t complete it in just seconds.

please avoid this practice if you are of such kind.

And enjoy this space for knowing perceptions, observations, opinions, thoughts, stories, and creations etc.

Don’t contaminate it like any other social networking platform. The uniqueness of this platform makes it what it is.

And If they think they haven’t been noticed than they are making mistake.

We all know who is genuinely reading and reaching towards our posts, and who is not.

Please this is my sincere request to read my posts, with your interest of reading, not for anything else,

and react after reading even if you haven’t liked it just put your words in the comment section and help Me to learn more and write even better.

I hope my words are making sense to all. As I feel my concern is not wrong.

Thank You ,

You all are beautiful. But Be a Good Reader 🙂

Take care.

Aside

Please Don’t Read !


Please Don’t Read,

Don’t Read it Please,

It’s Not Good,

Not Good for Anyone.

You may feel bad.

You may curse love.

You may hate god,

You may start crying,

Because It’s filled with Pain.

And Decorated with cheat.

It is layered with Greed,

And poured with selfishness.

You may find Questions ,

But You can’t find The Answers.

And You may need some Fresh Air to breathe,

it’s really very Toxic.

It’s terrible for your heart and also for mind.

You may Not love .

You may never trust .

You may hate the Emotions .

Yes it is Negative.

Please Don’t Read,

Yes Please,

I Request You My Friend,

Don’t Read My Story,

Please Don’t Read My Story.

There After a Decade..


Okay ,Good Evening Guys !

so I visited the same place. Same temple and clicked the photograph with the same pose. Which and where I was exactly 10 long years ago,
this time to celebrate the 5th birthday of my niece, Janvi.

But now, it has been me and only my family not the one who was with us 10 years ago with unofficial permission.

Like everyone says time flies.
I accept it. Time flies and the situations do change.
Smile remains there but question is about the genuineness of it.

It was not easy to do but did to show to the world and the people around that everything is fine to me now. And I am above such sentiments.

Deep down, silently my heart being the usual human heart was pumping at a speed more than the usual sprint of a horse.

I  Asked to click images randomly so that I could have the best one in the gallery.
But not even a single PIC was good to have. As the smile was fake and my eyes where not ready to face camera, may be heart was not liking it and the face was not supporting my forced Instincts.

Everything there was same to same and I recalled every single moment of mine there a decade ago.
Be it roaming everywhere around there with wheels on my legs, playing stupid pass time games or even captivating energy for some useful work and some how bringing out that WE moments in between.

The roads,The people, the ambiance, the staying rooms, the Temple and of course the God.

Yes I have been a teenager by then and very very care free monk.,with some good etiquettes which I still have,by being real and raw sometimes at heart.

But this time. I have been quite silent  matured rather say changed version of mine,
silently observing everything what was there then and now, also my little eyes went for some tearful ride as well when was alone as I have been mostly by being with many with a reason and with a purpose more personal.
10years ago, never thought about this visit nor the circumstances I am around with, never felt that I have to face such realities in love with hate and cheat.

Forget about it.

I really feel that it has been heavy on my heart at that moment but when I rethink about the same I feel good about it. That overcame my very own created barrier. And surpassed this hurdle.


Anyways ,
Happy Birthday Janvi(Niece).

Thank you

What I feel.


Good Morning Friends,

Hope you Guys are doing Good, This Sunday morning has been quite Different so far, not like the regular ones ,

As I woke up early in the morning and went for having a good inhale of oxygen , around 6kms of brisk walk with headphones & quality music has been really nice.

And then sat for more than 2 hours in direct sun light, it really feels good. And in between this, I thought to write to share my views about the current state of world cricket and also know your views about the same if any.

Guys Don’t you think Cricket is not at it’s very best as it has been over the years, though the different boards are trying hard to bring back the old cricket excitement back,by bringing Day & Night test matches, Pink Ball Test Matches , T10 Cricket ,100 Balls cricket etc, But still we can’t find the same what we observed during the days of early 90’s, 2k’s etc when we had the likes of super stars in every game, be it Australia ,India Pakistan or even West Indies, etc though it is always been team game but we can’t discard the personal rivilaries of the individuals, though it may be dramatically conceptualized by the media.

Even in this generation of Cricket we have superstars but the quality of cricket is not the same in all the teams,

teams like Srilanka South Africa , west indies, Pakistan, Bangladesh etc are not in their best phase of cricket they don’t have proper teams to compete in global tournaments, no matter what we bring to Cricket but it is always the players who bring the excitement, world cricket is struggling to bring the best competitive cricket only few teams are good and looks like an even teams on paper whereas remaining teams are not even good of the opponent’s B- team .

And yes we are having too much of cricket through out the years, we have T20World cups, 50Over world cups, IPL ,CPL,BPL,BBL etc with so many bilateral series which even make it overdose of cricket .

Also we don’t have Lara ,Sangakara,Murali, Akhtar,ABD,etc’s in cricket nor we have their so called replacements, as we do even watch for stars , it is not good for the world cricket as we have selective matches to watch as non one would prefer to watch a match which don’t have any contest.

And their is no other team than Afghanistan who looks prominent from the new test playing nations. Though they also need to get better, and their are only 10-12 playing nations out of which only few are good to be on head to head clash.

I strongly feel that it’s slowly loosing it’s charm though we all want it to prosper more but we can’t stay unaware of the current state of cricket.

Teams like Srilanka , south Africa, West Indies, Pakistan, Bangladesh, Zimbabwe, Kenya , etc should come back harder and raise their level of cricket to have the excitement back.

Take Care

SHAME!


Seriously this is shameful to be around such coward people.

Stunned, Saddened , and Disturbed with the offense.

why we are in the society were we are so helpless .

Why we can’t stop the constant injustice, and crime happening to the women around us.

Another day another girl, another rape another murder and another life of an individual has been buried.

What we are doing , !

Shame.

Just too tiny I am to say but yes we are helpless and we are actually careless, no remedies , no rule and no control over the crimes in India so far.

A girl named Dr. Priyanka Reddy (Age 26) has been Gang raped , Murdered, and buried brutally by wrapping her in a blanket with kerosene oil near the toll post outside area,

she was seeking help as her scooty was out of order.

They punctured her scooter , they trapped her by offering help, they did everything bad what they should not have done.

She called her sister and told about the vehicle’s status, the parents reached the same area from where she called but they already took her to somewhere else .

It’s not about Delhi, Mumbai or Hyderabad.

It’s not about short dress or love affairs,

it is about the bloody criminal mentality,

It is so sick to be around such cowards.

SHAME.

#RIPDr.PriyankaReddy

Prince Charming!!


Oh the thick big glasses on my eyes don’t look good to the girls,

They say I look like an uncle..

Oh the dark skin tone of mine don’t attract to the girls ,

They say, they can’t even see me sometimes..

Oh the lean and thin body of mine , more like a Skelton , don’t get appreciated by girls..

They say , They want muscular guys..

They want Prince charming but with more the looks of the Prince ..

That’s it !!

Do I look like a Prince ? ,

Yes of course ..

But to me, and to my mother and sometimes in my mirror…

They all want someone with good physique, and handsome looks..

They treat me like a tree, as they don’t even notice when I stare at them.

They laugh at my walk, also at my talk.

They make fun of my clothes .

They are good in fact better than good..

But they should treat me at least a human..

Human with all the feelings, and flaws..

The Real Prince doesn’t require all the attributes , to get liked they get liked for being what they are.

Oh they don’t even know that Thin, Lean, Fat, Short, Tall,Dark,Ugly, or weird are not what we can demand but yes we can diminish these tiny things of appearance with our nature , character and humanity.

And The Real Prince is always about character, Humanity, Humbleness etc. Hope they learn before falling and failing in life..

#BeTheRealPrince

P.S : Just A Random Writeup.

I never loved you.


That day with some tears , she came to him and said, I feel sorry to you for being so helpless , I am sorry, I know you love me a lot and i really don’t need any evidence as I can feel it,

but I never loved you dear ,

yes this is what the truth is, I just wanted to be their with you till my parents search someone for me to get married,

yes I never loved you, I just acted to be in love with you, I loved your company and everything you did for me ,

yes I never thought About this day, but I should have thought about it,

I am very bad I know,

but this is what the truth is,

I just wanted to get along in a busy status of relationship till my marriage as my friends were teasing me for living a life without boyfriend,

so I did all that for which I am feeling sad.. I know I played with your emotions… But I am sorry..

As I know you have been serious for me and I was just doing it for fun and showoff. I am sorry ,it is really bad and embarrassing…

And the guy was listening without believing….

With some tears and confusion.

***Don’t Play with Emotions..

***How should the guy react to it ? And what would be your reaction if you find yourself at such situation?

Even I accepted their lies.


They asked me few things about an issue, actually they wanted me to answer it either in a spicy way or they wanted to put me in some troublesome state,

I smilingly said why you people are asking me this.? Don’t you believe their stated truths, Or you feel that I need to say my version.

They said we want to know your side.

I replied, There is no my side or their side, there is truth and their false.

So you have to see what you take from their talks,

We don’t believe them, they said.

I answered I believe them, as I don’t care about anything now , I have nothing to loose. And they may be putting the right things forward, I don’t know what they are saying though, but even I accepted their lies, I can’t do much either.

As even don’t know the real truth. And I have nothing to do with the truth now, as they did what they wanted to, and the damage couldn’t be recovered ever, but yes they have been good in chopping and presenting things in their suited way.

But, I don’t have any interest in giving justification to anyone, or to put my side on the issue. As I am not here to prove Anything to anyone, I know my side I am right by best of thoughts, and deep down they also know what is right and what is not right, who is culprit and who is not, and above all there is someone who knows everything and he is looking at everything, to whom we call Almighty, The God,

Moreover I heard that, they are too good and the world is too bad ,and I am too bad and the world is too bad , as per the talks what I came to know from the people in between me and them.

Anyways We all are going to pay for the deeds we do , if not today then tomorrow for sure.

if you are good you will receive good things from god , if bad then you have to be ready for the outcome, you can’t get away from your punishments.

So , I don’t care what they are saying as I am only answerable to the god , but in my case it’s God who has to answer me, as he may don’t have any question and I have many to ask him. And it would start from Why me? ?

I hope i will get the answer,!!!

Anyways you are free to think and consider me anything you want as liberty is there for everyone.

But my identity is best known to me and god. Likewise truth is better known to God , culprit and victim.

But if they say I am culprit , then yes I am culprit . nothing to objectify or even feel bad. As they are not the decision makers . so why to think or care about it.

Then they smiled and said you said nothing in particular but said everything.

And I smiled back.

Thank you for reading.

Bad at Response.


Good Afternoon Guys,

Today I am here with something to discuss which you may like , or may not but let’s discuss it.

Guys, we often see such people in our daily life who have the tendency of speaking more and also speaking less, and it actually varies from individual to individual as per their own choices,

But there is one other kind of people who speak relevantly good but have the tendency of showing disinterest to your talks, they will be available to you but with half of their heart, even if they are not half hearted but there traits will make you think so,

they will give smiles, as reply, they may give you one liners sometimes even one words, they make reaction with expressions, they may listen but pretends to not listen, or they will change the topic at their will, which is actually disheartening to the individual who is eagerly waiting for a respected response,

It actually makes you think that this man/woman don’t want to talk or may be not interested to talk or may have some attitude issues. Which is very much okay by their observations, as they are receiving such vibes from the other end so they may presume that,

Even I don’t want to be in a conversation where the individual is finding words on instalments, I speak with my heart and also with a reason, and want the partner to speak well, and react whenever needed, not sure how you people think about it,

But my opinion is this , and to have a healthy conversation, the two individual should have enough interest to speak and listen, one should not speak alone and vice versa.

And it has nothing to do with the choice of context or with the subject of talks, they have the tendency of speaking in that way as they prefer it, regardless of the subject of talks.

Of course I am not saying that everyone is blessed with good speaking skills or talkativeness, but it is not about the limited skills or the other, the individuals who act unavailable or who react late or selective with responses are actually Bad at listening skills and of course with the speaking skills, even with the reactive skills ,

they should learn and improve, as it is actually a graveyard for themselves, as they are actually creating barriers between their loved ones with bits and pieces of words.

Like they sound RUDE,FAKE,And ANNOYING!

And someone with really bad Etiquettes,

And no one prefers to talk with a person who has 3-4 words for every single thing you say, or may prefer to talk when it is needed the most with some sadness.

This is what I feel , Don’t know Right or wrong,

Do share your opinions if you feel so.

Thank you

Loving Ghost


Yes he kissed her as she sleeps next to him every night,

And in the morning he takes his breakfast with her.

As she loves to cook for him and watch him eating,

He make few cups of coffee which they enjoy with a kiss .

She comes and goes,

she is not scary but yes she is the ghost who thinks and treats him as her boyfriend,

though he told her that I am not the one but she says let it be I like you as i used to like my boy friend,

Also he asked about her that why she is ghost now, and what went wrong with her,

she said she murdered her boyfriend and committed suicide as she caught him with another girl,

And she had been brutally betrayed by her boyfriend.

She likes him because he looks like him ,

but he is single and lives just next to the room where they lived.

And more ever he also failed in love with same kind of situation though he preferred to let her live with him,

So there is a connection of being cheated by their loved ones but both had different approach to it.

Anyways,

She just wears the normal clothes like jeans T – shirts, etc like any other young girl not like the ghosts of the movies,

yes her voice is dual and of course she has some amplitude at it.

And She could smile and cry at the same time,

She likes romantic movies. And prefer playing carom.

She has the most beautiful eyes and even more beautiful smile.

She is friendly to him but he don’t know how to tell her that she is a different spirit now,

he can’t love her like she wants,

Ghost and human can’t be the lovers,

she says one day when the god would be kind enough on her she would happily leave the world but by then he has to be her love interest,

He thinks he don’t have any other option as he can’t find a way to escape also he has generated some kind of sympathy for her.

May be because of her love failure And the betrayal.

That’s it.!!!

Virgin…


After 2 years of her marriage ,

Pia came back to India to stay with her family, so many of her friends came to meet her,

they asked her many random questions about her and husband,

like,

how is your marriage,?

You both are happy ?

How you have been these days etc.

she said yes I am happy as I look. And we are living with all possible happiness.

Her friend (Nisha) said , all good !that’s enough as you have been the most reserved girl from our group! And went to abroad all of a sudden .

Pia replied ‘ yes i have been very shy and reserved.,

Pia asked – What about you, are you still flirting with all?

Nisha replied- yes sometimes for fun and sometimes for seriously nothing.

But tell me about you how good is your life, you are looking different, he is nice to you right?

I mean why you came alone where is he?,

Pia replied ‘ of course he wanted to come but he had some commitments.

yes I can’t tell you about it in details but I feel so lucky to be his wife.

Her friend was not convinced as she can observe that her eyes were saying something else.

She again, asked her the same question in a different way,

” hey your husband is a rich guy , I saw his profile has some good money in the bank and also have a lot of property etc right?.”

She replied ‘ yes so.

Her friend puzzled pia ” are you not excited with that, like money ,property cars etc.

pia replied “yes if it excites you then I am also excited.”

Her friend could sense that pia is missing something, she asked her again and again by some promises and all.

Pia replied ” yes I am married I love him and he loves me, yes he is rich and talented that’s it,

but you know what I feel like i am still partially virgin,

Yes we travelled everywhere but not like a couple , he was there with some work and consignments.

And I was there to make him feel stress relieved whenever needed.

He has been there with me, but not there for me, more for status showoff. To show it to the world through social networking sites.

And you know how we love, it is more like robots following some of the mating commands.

Yes He is a proper straight man and i am also proper straight girl, nothing odd as it sounds.

but the fact is that, he only touched my body and not my soul, and never allowed me to get in his zone of privacy.

We are not connected to each other like we should have.

My body is not virgin my friend but yes my emotions are , my heart is not there when I am with him because he is not also there with me, its more like a task to him or an activity to loose stress for him, that’s it,

he is busy with his cigars and phone ,

he is there but he is not there with me actually ,

he loves his work more than himself. He love me but his style of love is not what I like may be he don’t even know how to love.

He has a time for everything like 10mins for breakfast , 5mins for getting ready etc,

he is a big time management insect.

It’s good professionally.

but not for the layers of love to get unfolded.

But I am happy as I can’t be sad.

***Love is beyond the materialistic happiness. Love them with everything you have,not just posting pictures and buying gifts.
Aside

What A Match !


Guys , I would be lying if I would say I watched a better match than that, Drama at it’s very best, everything was so close yet so far, may be the best match of my life so far.

England .. the new world champions!!

But New Zealand would be still thinking why and how , I strongly feel that the winner should be in a convincing manner , this is so unfair they tied the game and then tied the super over as well, then why and how they lost, this so sick that no. Of boundaries came in to play and england became the champion, on other side I feel that there should have been the joint winner formula like it was in 2000 champions trophy India – Srilanka.

But cricket is unexpected as they say it proved again, new Zealand have been unlucky they could have been the champion if the throw from Martin Guptill was not gone for an extra six.

Of course Ben Stokes was exceptional.

But never the less, the New Zealand has won our hearts. And I am happy with their hardwork and effort. They are the champions for me along with England as neither they won nor New Zealand lost.

Thank you

Sleep Again ! – An Erotic Poem


I want to sleep again, as you disturbed me in between,

yes you rang ,

you stupid alarm,

we were at the peak of our love, yes you rang , you stupid alarm.

let me tell you what the dream was,

I can remember that it was very dark and he hugged me tight,

we were tumbling this and that way of the bed,

Yes he kissed me with some lusty passion ,

sometimes at my lips & sometimes at my hips,

I really love that noisy smooches,

like I swallow my long sized noodles,

Love that chocolate coated over my lips, which he tasted with some bites.

yes I wanted it again and again ,

Of course I love that sheer passion, as i was about to die with pleasure and pain.

Yes I want to sleep again to watch the same dream again,

And this time I don’t want you to disturb,

As i want to finish the remainings.

***And then she switched off her alarm and slept again.

S H A D E S


It was around 2 am , he reached his home, which was at 4th floor of the famous apartment in that city.

He was extremely tired with the stress and strain of the day, as finding job is more tougher than doing the job,

some how he managed to change the formal wears with shorts and took his sleep.

he was an aspiring actor who was searching opportunities.

But yet to get a call for acting,It has been 3months of joblessness.

So he was frustrated in a way, but he was there to prove the people wrong who discarded him and his talent in the auditions he gave so far.

So, the next morning he woke up with the same fighting spirit and gone for many more offices for auditions,

And again no one even looked at his portfolio and rejected him,

Now , it was around 3pm, he was about to feel sad and hungry at the same time, he received a call from a reputed ad agency, he ran and reached the agency with some nervousness ,he was asked to sit, then he was about to face the owner,

But she lefts the place.

He was stated by the manager that he has to do AD of some detergent, he was ready with the incoming and accepted it,

Next Day, he reached the place and he saw the other side of acting world,

he saw that there are many guys and girls are being asked for audience for the same AD in which he was already part, he was confused that why this audition is going on,

before he could now he came to know that they are doing it as preventive method, as they may replace him if he does not do good

Some how he managed to impress and did a good job, now in the same set he met the owner,

she is beautiful with some temper issues he observed, she cleared his amount for the ad and asked him to meet again in the evening by sharing her card.

He agreed and left.

In the evening he called the no. Printed on the card,

She didn’t lift and dropped a message in which she shared her address of farm house .

He manages to go there. It is 7pm now

He again calls. This time her phone is in a silent mode. Some how he enter the house.

He could hardly find the purpose of calling him there.

Then he enters , he is still not sure what’s going on.

And suddenly he finds a weird thing of being locked from outside. He is scared now, who is there ? He shouts.

She smiles and says relax , and in between this she offers him some drink and it was not tea or coffee .

he says madam I am OK may I know what’s the reason to call me here. Is there any big project,

she says yeah. It is bigger than you thought,

As You have to impress me, or Should i say satisfy me! By sitting over a couch in a navy blue dress with some alcoholic eyes and unconditioned hair falling over her shoulder she says..

He is shocked now. And says excuse me! What?

She smiles again and asks him to come closer,

And says look, I am searching fun and you are searching success,

so should I say that you are the next star of the country. But for becoming the star you have to go with what I prefer for you.

Look I know that you are from a small town and these things are new , but you may have seen the amount of aspirants near my office and you may be in a confusion that how and why you have been selected. And I hope you are by now quite clear with your doubts.

And Pulls him towards her with showing some of her visible body parts,

I saw your photographs in the portfolio and I decided that you will be in the ad, now I want you to be in the next project but for that you have to impress me in every prospect.

I know you are good at work as you are very hardworking as told by the director ,

Let me check whether you are equally good at other works or not she whispered.

He replied I am good enough to earn money I think I don’t need to do this or that to become a star so thank you I am happy with it. I would like to go now, let the doors get open. He removes her hand over his neck.

She smiled and says ,

you know what the small town people are so poor they can’t take life smoothly, I am beautiful rich and also successful and u need opportunity which only I can provide but you are saying no to me. Do you know how fool you are ! Again she snatches few buttons of his shirt and pulls him towards her.

He says yes I am fool , and happy with it and I don’t want to become star as well.. You are beautiful and also i need opportunity but it does not mean that I would do something which is not good ,

I am not here for sale. Let me go! He slaps her and firmly looks her with anger,

He Breaks the door and left the place. But she was not happy with what happened. As she had other ideas for him, and felt like rejected.

Next Day,

He was saddened now with the side effects of his dream and decides to leave the city. But in between the rush he has been called from another production house , they were seeking some one who is new and talented and found him as the perfect choice through his previous audience.

Six Months Later,

He is the star by his own merit without any comprises.

And finds the same lady in every other business parties and looks her like he saw nothing.

And one bad day he came to know that the lady has been killed at her own farm house from one of her longtime victim.

Good Day!

They are actors…


Do you know how it feels,

When you enter a place where everyone is an actor,

They all are acting in their own way ,

And you find that some play is going around you

Around you, near your surroundings some kind of play is going on,

In which you don’t know the act of acting, you’re real but everyone is acting ,

In the play , you find yourself in the center of stage but you don’t know how to cope up with those super talented actors ,

In your own life you are being played for being so natural and real as you treat it life and they treat it like a play,

The entire play is so dictating that you being the hero of it, sinks as the actors want you to be.

This play is about life where you are real and the surrounding is surrounded by actors.

In the end you find yourself in an awkward position as you can’t act as they do.

They laugh at you ,

they may make fun of you ,

They shout and scream,

You may find some versatile performance as well.

And you take all that smilingly with your head down and still not sure about what it is actually.

Thank you

RPR : Don’t be so real in life my friends

Justice


Hello people hope you all are doing good .

okay so finally it happened though it could not bring the girl back..

but at least her soul will feel good that her murders and the rapists are being sentenced for lifetime imprisonment, and respective punishments by the Indian Court.

I don’t know why they were not given the death sentence as I find it is not a crime for which you can have an imprisonment, this needed more tough decisions, as they were so harsh on a girl who was there to live the life with smile . they did every wrong thing to her which was was not at all acceptable only the people with evil mindset can do such cruel offence,

As we can find the charge sheet prepared by the cops who investigated, one of my fellow blogger as explained the entire offence in the blog, https://wp.me/p7FFpK-4a , and it is really shocking to read what the girl has gone through,

but I think we all need to accept what the court has decided for them,

2018 was the year, when it happened and I was the one who really saddened with the news.. I couldn’t control myself to stand for her ,besides the fact that few were trying to make it a political agenda..I wrote a post on my blog ‘This is not acceptable’ in which tried to put my views about the cruelness and the wrong way of furnishing it by some people – https://rprakashrao.wordpress.com/2018/04/15/this-is-not-acceJustice

And i am here with her now again, with decision she may like if she could know somehow,

But as everything came in her way though she is not here,but her parents will be feeling good about it as I am feeling for who just tried to make people feel her,

But the responsibility is bigger now, do we want more such offence? Or we can control and chop it from here on,

if I am the one who has to look at it I would bring out a strong law of live death sentence in front of public without any lifetime imprisonment sentences, as it would set the example to the individuals who have such mindsets, and would think twice before proceeding,

Also I urge the Govt. Of India to be more cautious towards women empowerment and women safety, as it is as important as any other thing is…we can’t blame anyone after the damage has done, I think we need to accept the administrational mistakes and rectify it,

Also we all need to step up and understand our roles we are the ones who are representing society, so we should be thinking of diminishing garbage around us, yes I feel that kind of people are garbage..

I hope their family members are feeling some sort of satisfaction as I am feeling yes it won’t bring their daughter back..

And nothing can bring her back to them but atleast the people are not breathing with ease is what satisfying,

Something is better than nothing..

#Justice

Thank you

Original Ones – People


Few Learn with age,

Few Learn with Experience,

Few learn with Mistakes,

Few Learn with Education,

Few don’t Learn with any.

Anyways this world is imbibed with mean and manipulative people. They may use the best of you before you realize and leave you without your choice.

BEWARE

The more I think about it ,the more I feel like biting some Red Chillies.

Yes it is painful , yes it haunts

and yes it hurts.

They may learn with what they do with their life.

They may grow ,

They may become wiser,

They may become HumanBeings

Om Namah Shivaya…

Har Har Mahadev …

Jai Gauri Shankar.

LoVeAndOnlyLove.


The Story of my love started with your smiles…

Strengthened with my anger..

Grown with your promises..

Nurtured with my beliefs..

Affected with the people around us…

Spoiled with the insecurities….

Ruptured with the traps of your loved ones..

Finished with your decision..

Separated by the society..

Not ended with my loneliness..

And

ReLiving Love with WordPress..

Don’t make fun of me.


You are someone

I loved the most …

You are someone

I trusted the most…

You are someone

I wanted the most…

You are someone

I needed the most…

You are someone

I Believed the most…

You are someone

I Looked the most…

You are someone

I cared the most…

You are someone

I Remember the most…