I never loved you.

That day with some tears , she came to him and said, I feel sorry to you for being so helpless , I am sorry, I know you love me a lot and i really don’t need any evidence as I can feel it,

but I never loved you dear ,

yes this is what the truth is, I just wanted to be their with you till my parents search someone for me to get married,

yes I never loved you, I just acted to be in love with you, I loved your company and everything you did for me ,

yes I never thought About this day, but I should have thought about it,

I am very bad I know,

but this is what the truth is,

I just wanted to get along in a busy status of relationship till my marriage as my friends were teasing me for living a life without boyfriend,

so I did all that for which I am feeling sad.. I know I played with your emotions… But I am sorry..

As I know you have been serious for me and I was just doing it for fun and showoff. I am sorry ,it is really bad and embarrassing…

And the guy was listening without believing….

With some tears and confusion.


***Don’t Play with Emotions..

***How should the guy react to it ? And what would be your reaction if you find yourself at such situation?

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Even I accepted their lies.

They asked me few things about an issue, actually they wanted me to answer it either in a spicy way or they wanted to put me in some troublesome state,

I smilingly said why you people are asking me this.? Don’t you believe their stated truths, Or you feel that I need to say my version.

They said we want to know your side.

I replied, There is no my side or their side, there is truth and their false.

So you have to see what you take from their talks,

We don’t believe them, they said.

I answered I believe them, as I don’t care about anything now , I have nothing to loose. And they may be putting the right things forward, I don’t know what they are saying though, but even I accepted their lies, I can’t do much either.

As even don’t know the real truth. And I have nothing to do with the truth now, as they did what they wanted to, and the damage couldn’t be recovered ever, but yes they have been good in chopping and presenting things in their suited way.

But, I don’t have any interest in giving justification to anyone, or to put my side on the issue. As I am not here to prove Anything to anyone, I know my side I am right by best of thoughts, and deep down they also know what is right and what is not right, who is culprit and who is not, and above all there is someone who knows everything and he is looking at everything, to whom we call Almighty, The God,

Moreover I heard that, they are too good and the world is too bad ,and I am too bad and the world is too bad , as per the talks what I came to know from the people in between me and them.

Anyways We all are going to pay for the deeds we do , if not today then tomorrow for sure.

if you are good you will receive good things from god , if bad then you have to be ready for the outcome, you can’t get away from your punishments.

So , I don’t care what they are saying as I am only answerable to the god , but in my case it’s God who has to answer me, as he may don’t have any question and I have many to ask him. And it would start from Why me? ?

I hope i will get the answer,!!!

Anyways you are free to think and consider me anything you want as liberty is there for everyone.

But my identity is best known to me and god. Likewise truth is better known to God , culprit and victim.

But if they say I am culprit , then yes I am culprit . nothing to objectify or even feel bad. As they are not the decision makers . so why to think or care about it.

Then they smiled and said you said nothing in particular but said everything.

And I smiled back.

Thank you for reading.

Pray 4 Kerala…

Good Morning friends,

We all are quite aware of the issues Kerala is facing now, with heavy rains and flood kind of situations ,in fact many portions of southern India is dealing with it,

Kerala is in deep trouble, they face it every next time and I read this on s portal that it happens because of unplanned development, landslides and floods occurs mainly because of poor decisions taken for having developments, they discard the demands of nature, they opt for deforestation,rock cuttings, poor water harvesting etc

Anyways, we need to stand by them in their tough situations, let’s stick together and help them , we could help them in any possible manner like offerings charity, donating essentials like food and basics.

If you are good enough then I would request you to share your bit for them. And it could be anything they need food ,clothes, water, raincoats ,medicines etc you may Google it to do it.

I have been following news about it 8 districts have been declared as red alerted. 150+ individuals are missing ,20+ people are died, (Numbers may vary)

Imagine abundance of water everywhere you see and its still raining, you desiring for life to live with your family, but don’t how to survive. Being unsheltered,sick ,and hungry.

It is horrible and tragic.

Same is with Karnataka and Maharashtra, the people who are there are facing trouble as well, in fact the States residing next to the Western Ghats have been declared to have heavy rainfall and may face severe landslides .

Our Govt. is trying their best but don’t why they do it after the occurrence, as I believe “preventions is better than cure”. Anyways hoping for the best.

But Kerala has been the most affected state so far by being the most green and beautiful. And of course my favourite.

Lets do it as a human being. let’s pray for them, let’s pray for Kerala, and urge god in our prayers about all the Kerala people, as praying for the person next to you is also a kind of concern.

Thank you.

They say…..

They say I am too good for this,

And they say I am too bad to be here,

they say you may think that way or even this way,

they say you can’t do this,

And they say only you can do this ,

they say you may have think so, And they say you may have thought that,

they say you have mood swings,

Also, they say you have overconfidence,and rash attitude,

they say you can’t do much,

As you are sick with your actions,

Also you are carefree,Negligent and over rated.

Wait,

How do they say so, ?

Do they have any clue about me?

how could be they saying so,

how they can be presuming about my mind, and heart, ?

how they are so judgemental!

And why?

Who are they to think that I may think or may have thought so,

Why they consider me so...?

What gives them that courage to be so considerable about me.

Literally What ???

Look & Listen

I am not like what you presume or consider ,

I am just way beyond your imaginations.

I love being Me,

I won’t mind if you think I have attitude or I am carefree.

I have something about which you can only dream to have.

And that’s my originality I am not fake,

I am Rude ,or care free.

I have my head high for everything I do.

And I don’t need a certificate for being selfless from you.

I am not this or that,

I don’t think this way or that way,

I am Too Good for your mind to pick or presume.

And it’s only me who know it better that what I can do and what I can’t, Got it .

Take care!


**Don’t be Judgemental about anyone, as they know themselves better.

Both are important.

Well most of my friends are unhappy with me,

They find me Annoying,

They call me everything what they hate,

They say I am unavailable being available to them,

They say you can’t be like this to us,

I try to convince them,but they don’t listen,

They are Right in their ways, I have to be with them if I am with them,

But I am with my love interest,

If not being next to her always then through my phone,

I feel good for the fact that she feels good when I am connected to her either next to her with holding a hand or through calls or even chats,

My friends don’t like my life style and priority,

But I don’t want to see her sad, as she feels sad and bad when I don’t message or call her and don’t lift her call,

I lie her sometimes that yes you wished me the first birthday wish, though sometimes she is second as my mother wishes before than her may be a fraction of second earlier,

Even if its a lake or I am at some public place I text her, as she wants to feel the ambiance with me and my words. I like it, its not that I am not enjoying it.

But its a cheat with my friends.

She enjoys everything of my talks ,

Even my sick poor cheap jokes, at which no one can laugh.

And of course my way of care,

She just love talking to me,

She says ” I will be fine I don’t need a doctor, you are the doctor and the medicine is our conversation.” When she gets sick.

I Remember that ,

I talked to her through calls and texts for around 20hrs continuously with a charger plugged in, whenever needed.

She loved the gesture, and even felt good to be with her when she needed me.

I have to talk as she my love and I can’t see her sad,

After knowing that her sadness is my unavailability and lesser communication.

But what to do with my friends ,they are not wrong either.

They want me as their friend as I have been,

She asks me to pick one sometimes,

somehow I skip the question with an ice cream or some deep discussion about my career, but i am worried with the picking of one.

I may pick her over them by being a selfish lover but I wouldn’t be Happy with that, I know as my friends are also important .!

Love them and Love her also. Both have their importance but yes one priority is not happy when I am with the another priority.


***We can’t decide who comes first and who is second, of course it’s both which make us what we want to be, so its important to make them understand their importance in our life, one can’t be another and vice versa. Both are differently important in life. It’s harsh and unfair to pick and choose.

Me Versus mE

I’m fighting within me.

My Mind And Heart is Dealing with Duality,

The Writer,

And An Engineer,

Both are Right and Both are Mine

Both Sleeps with me,

And Wake with me as well,

Both Fights Within Me.

Both Dominate The Other.

Both put my in trouble.

As I don’t know which way to Go.

I love writing and expressing my thoughts.

I Love to be in the charge with the tag called Engineer.

One is my hidden Pleasure,

Another is my portrayed obsession.

One is my Expansion to the Dream,

Another is my source of existence.

Can’t Pick One

Can’t settle with one.

I am Both,

And I want Both.

But It is Tough to be Both.

I feel Like it is Me Versus mE.

Die with a smile

Yes I am breathing,

My Portion of Oxygen is Bad

Its Poisonous,

Enriched with impurities,

I don’t want to Inhale it.

I would prefer to Die.

My Blood is not Red ,

It looks like Violet in color,

I don’t bleed at all

Even if I cut my hand with a knife.

It makes me feel that,

I am not the same human

I would prefer to die

My world is Dark and silent

My heart Cry every night and day,

I can hear the audible wipeouts of tears.

My few working parts of body has started abusing me,

For my existence.

They pray for my death as they feel its enough,

Of what I have seen

They say I am too good for the society.

I should die,

they can’t see me dying everyday,

My left hand wrote a pleading note for my death to god, without my knowledge

Yes I am naturally Right handed,

But paralyzed from many years,

And living my life,

I am strong ,

Yes I am strong at my head

I am strong enough to live my life with a will to live.

Look I I would prefer to Live and get Better.

I am a warrior , I would prefer a fight ,

A Tough Fight!

And Then I may prefer to die,

I don’t want to have tears in my eyes, before I die,

I want to Die with a smile.


***Fight and Conquer you may loose but Don’t surrender.