The Sunshine Blogger Award.

Hello Everyone,

I wish and hope you all are safe and fine, Please take care of yourself and of everyone around you.

Okay, so I have been nominated by a good friend , and a very active blogger, Rachana Dhaka for “The Sunshine Blogger Award” , and I Am very thankful to her for the nomination,

she is very good at her work, though I am very late to write about it for which I feel bad, but writing through this Thanksgiving for award nomination.

And yes this is my second nomination for this award. So, Thank you again.

My Answers :-

1. If you could be any animal, what would you be and why?
May be A Dog, as it is considered as the faithful one, but I won’t prefer to be a cat as I don’t like them.

2. What was the first ever creative effort that you remember really being proud of?
I think the first time I gave speech in my school in front of many students, teachers at very young age (May be 10years), without any preparation has given me confidence, and later it became a habit and soon I have been approached for anchoring, debates at school, college,social events,etc and also coming here at WordPress makes me feel good if not proud about myself for the creativity involved in it to be here and appreciation I received in return.

3. If you could choose between true happiness, or a greater creative skills, what would you pick?
I would be a fool to pick skills over happiness, I am always going to pick happiness even with least skills as end of the day you search satisfaction and that’s only available with happiness.

4. Does politics have a place in the arts?
Yes it has, Though it is a need still to cultivate good politics not the bad one,

5. What gets you out of bed in the morning?
a bad dream, a power cut,and of course responsibilities.

6. Where and how do you do most of your writing?
Always at home, when I have some issues, topics, stories to tell and discuss.

7. What famous work do you wish you had created?
Let’s not discuss it to make famous, let’s do it and make it famous.

8. Is there anyone in the world that you actually hate?
We as human, have different emotions we have love for some and for some we have hatred, its a natural process unless you are a saint or kind of creature, which I am not yet. So yes I have hate for few and don’t feel bad about as they deserve my hatred, though I am not seeking anything bad for them but yes I don’t like them at this phase of my life not sure about future. And yes one more thing, I hate very few but there are many who hate me, but I don’t care 🙂 .

9. Where is the furthest you have been from home?
I just love my home, but yes Delhi, Hyderabad .

10. Would you prefer to wake up early, or stay up late?

🙂 Unsure , As it depends Whether I have some work at night or in the morning. I can do both.

11. Who has been your greatest inspiration?

Anyone and Everyone who are good at what they do could inspire me,

12. If you could give a new writer who was setting up a blog one piece of advice, what would it be?
Just express the instincts, It could be raw , different and unpleasant to some. But it would what you have in your mind, just try and write the original thoughts don’t worry about the people, express yourself make people see your work in the way you want.

13. What is your favorite sport?

Cricket always.

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My Questions : –

1. Mention the names of any five bloggers along with their site links who are your favourites and why, explain each individually.

2. What makes you or anyone beautiful human being, ?

3. What could be your second choice as a profession?

4. The Dream You have seen but you failed to accomplish?

5. Your Insecurities.

6. What is the hidden story which is yet to tell to your very own family.

7. How do you relate your life with Bollywood’s characters?

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Okay so I nominate everyone of you as I hate picking people, you all can make a formal post or even answer through comments, yes you may answer all the 20 questions.

Guys I am waiting to see your answers.

Thank you

To You With Love…

To You With Love,

Thank you for being there as someone who looked like a family more, being a stranger from day one,

Thank You for the lovely moments with which I could smile back again. Even if i see them as a mistaken excitement or as an unreal expectation,

I still like the answers you gave and the questions which were inherent, the answers were more easier to understand than self raised questions,

Looking something for some purpose is not good, but looking something as source of satisfaction is not bad,

Yes you have been a source,

A source to do good, and aspire good things in life,

You have been the source of fun , anger, worries, happiness and of course inspiration.

Rather say a source of liveliness

Sometimes it is not that easy to accept the outcome if it is not favouring your life ,

It’s painful and disheartening to withstand with what we Haven’t expected.

But we can’t have everything what we want in life .

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Living it and Leaving it.

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HELLO 2020

Hey, Hello 2020 …

Welcome,

Welcome to this beautiful world …

Okay , so here I wish you all a very happy new year, may you all live your life with utmost happiness , health and satisfaction.

May all the goals and aspirations get accomplished, may you all find the ways to grow more in every prospect of life.

Also i welcome and greet the brand new year i.e 2020 to our lives,

As we all want to grow and make 2020 a benchmark year.

Let’s leave the bad memories behind and carry forward the positives from the previous year.

Let’s believe in our abilities more than counting excuses,

let’s stay and stick with positivity, purity and persistence.

Let’s smile More than yesterday and plan tomorrow, with living full of life today…

All The Best, keep smiling , Have Fun. 🙂

Happy New Year to all.

There After a Decade..

Okay ,Good Evening Guys !

so I visited the same place. Same temple and clicked the photograph with the same pose. Which and where I was exactly 10 long years ago,
this time to celebrate the 5th birthday of my niece, Janvi.

But now, it has been me and only my family not the one who was with us 10 years ago with unofficial permission.

Like everyone says time flies.
I accept it. Time flies and the situations do change.
Smile remains there but question is about the genuineness of it.

It was not easy to do but did to show to the world and the people around that everything is fine to me now. And I am above such sentiments.

Deep down, silently my heart being the usual human heart was pumping at a speed more than the usual sprint of a horse.

I  Asked to click images randomly so that I could have the best one in the gallery.
But not even a single PIC was good to have. As the smile was fake and my eyes where not ready to face camera, may be heart was not liking it and the face was not supporting my forced Instincts.

Everything there was same to same and I recalled every single moment of mine there a decade ago.
Be it roaming everywhere around there with wheels on my legs, playing stupid pass time games or even captivating energy for some useful work and some how bringing out that WE moments in between.

The roads,The people, the ambiance, the staying rooms, the Temple and of course the God.

Yes I have been a teenager by then and very very care free monk.,with some good etiquettes which I still have,by being real and raw sometimes at heart.

But this time. I have been quite silent  matured rather say changed version of mine,
silently observing everything what was there then and now, also my little eyes went for some tearful ride as well when was alone as I have been mostly by being with many with a reason and with a purpose more personal.
10years ago, never thought about this visit nor the circumstances I am around with, never felt that I have to face such realities in love with hate and cheat.

Forget about it.

I really feel that it has been heavy on my heart at that moment but when I rethink about the same I feel good about it. That overcame my very own created barrier. And surpassed this hurdle.

Anyways ,
Happy Birthday Janvi(Niece).

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Thank you

At a coffee shop…

After a long day,

Me at a coffee shop with a coffee on my table.. and literally no one to accompany me.. Looking everyone with a story in mind about their conversations..

In between this, just swallowed the unbearable coffee sips..

And my vulnerable eyes started looking at everyone and everywhere..

Then I saw a table where three girls were sitting and gossiping about something with shouts, giggles and laughter..

I just changed my seat.. And sat next to their table so that I could listen what they were talking about..

Ok so now they were audible..

As I raised my listening skills by few more decibels..

So the coffee was quite entertaining now, and I asked one more to look engaged to the waiters.

These girls were clapping and doing high fives in between them.

The three girls were talking about their respected boyfriends, and how they have been pampered ..

actually they were saying that , they literally play as per their will with the boys.. Be it a movie going or some expensive purchasing.

They compared who is better among the three and how they are planning more expenditure from their boyfriends. As Diwali is on the cards now,

I was actually liking this, as it is something new to know..that everything is as per planning and plotting.

In between this they have realized that I am listening their talks..or observing them.. They may have thought that I am interested in one of them..

So they actually started looking at me with a smile..which was even more hilarious.

One of them has loosened her hair and started swinging her hair with a confident swag ..

And looked at me with even more nuances .. With fixing her messy Red t-shirt near her waist.

And looked at me for while trying to say Hey or Hello, with a smile filled with fakeness,

I just turned my eyes and shakedown my head.

She along with her friends left the place

Reasons better know to them.

But yes she had her flair.. 🙂

And I turned off the signals and shifted focus on the right hind side of the table,

Where I saw An lady around 85years was there with a kid may be her grand daughter..

She was in a state of confusion as she don’t know what to order and how,

Then a suspicious man with a very suspicious look came , could be her servant or a known fellow..

Even he was unsure about the things so , I helped them to make their order

He came and asked me to click a picture of him showing his Rudraksh and also asked my name,by saying I will be helpful to you sir, I am the one to whom you pray daily.

I said, look I am helping just for the sake of kid and the lady ,not for being asked for clicking your PIC.

He said ok sir, and obliged for the help in placing order,

He was a bit different from normal, like mentally instable and heavy in voice, his actions were strange, though they enjoyed their coffee.

but I still don’t why he asked me to click his picture though I deleted it.

Then i recived a call from my home,left the place.

Thank you

***P.S – I wrote this post by being at the coffee place.

I never loved you.

That day with some tears , she came to him and said, I feel sorry to you for being so helpless , I am sorry, I know you love me a lot and i really don’t need any evidence as I can feel it,

but I never loved you dear ,

yes this is what the truth is, I just wanted to be their with you till my parents search someone for me to get married,

yes I never loved you, I just acted to be in love with you, I loved your company and everything you did for me ,

yes I never thought About this day, but I should have thought about it,

I am very bad I know,

but this is what the truth is,

I just wanted to get along in a busy status of relationship till my marriage as my friends were teasing me for living a life without boyfriend,

so I did all that for which I am feeling sad.. I know I played with your emotions… But I am sorry..

As I know you have been serious for me and I was just doing it for fun and showoff. I am sorry ,it is really bad and embarrassing…

And the guy was listening without believing….

With some tears and confusion.

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***Don’t Play with Emotions..

***How should the guy react to it ? And what would be your reaction if you find yourself at such situation?

Pray 4 Kerala…

Good Morning friends,

We all are quite aware of the issues Kerala is facing now, with heavy rains and flood kind of situations ,in fact many portions of southern India is dealing with it,

Kerala is in deep trouble, they face it every next time and I read this on s portal that it happens because of unplanned development, landslides and floods occurs mainly because of poor decisions taken for having developments, they discard the demands of nature, they opt for deforestation,rock cuttings, poor water harvesting etc

Anyways, we need to stand by them in their tough situations, let’s stick together and help them , we could help them in any possible manner like offerings charity, donating essentials like food and basics.

If you are good enough then I would request you to share your bit for them. And it could be anything they need food ,clothes, water, raincoats ,medicines etc you may Google it to do it.

I have been following news about it 8 districts have been declared as red alerted. 150+ individuals are missing ,20+ people are died, (Numbers may vary)

Imagine abundance of water everywhere you see and its still raining, you desiring for life to live with your family, but don’t how to survive. Being unsheltered,sick ,and hungry.

It is horrible and tragic.

Same is with Karnataka and Maharashtra, the people who are there are facing trouble as well, in fact the States residing next to the Western Ghats have been declared to have heavy rainfall and may face severe landslides .

Our Govt. is trying their best but don’t why they do it after the occurrence, as I believe “preventions is better than cure”. Anyways hoping for the best.

But Kerala has been the most affected state so far by being the most green and beautiful. And of course my favourite.

Lets do it as a human being. let’s pray for them, let’s pray for Kerala, and urge god in our prayers about all the Kerala people, as praying for the person next to you is also a kind of concern.

Thank you.

They say…..

They say I am too good for this,

And they say I am too bad to be here,

they say you may think that way or even this way,

they say you can’t do this,

And they say only you can do this ,

they say you may have think so, And they say you may have thought that,

they say you have mood swings,

Also, they say you have overconfidence,and rash attitude,

they say you can’t do much,

As you are sick with your actions,

Also you are carefree,Negligent and over rated.

Wait,

How do they say so, ?

Do they have any clue about me?

how could be they saying so,

how they can be presuming about my mind, and heart, ?

how they are so judgemental!

And why?

Who are they to think that I may think or may have thought so,

Why they consider me so...?

What gives them that courage to be so considerable about me.

Literally What ???

Look & Listen

I am not like what you presume or consider ,

I am just way beyond your imaginations.

I love being Me,

I won’t mind if you think I have attitude or I am carefree.

I have something about which you can only dream to have.

And that’s my originality I am not fake,

I am Rude ,or care free.

I have my head high for everything I do.

And I don’t need a certificate for being selfless from you.

I am not this or that,

I don’t think this way or that way,

I am Too Good for your mind to pick or presume.

And it’s only me who know it better that what I can do and what I can’t, Got it .

Take care!

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**Don’t be Judgemental about anyone, as they know themselves better.

Both are important.

Well most of my friends are unhappy with me,

They find me Annoying,

They call me everything what they hate,

They say I am unavailable being available to them,

They say you can’t be like this to us,

I try to convince them,but they don’t listen,

They are Right in their ways, I have to be with them if I am with them,

But I am with my love interest,

If not being next to her always then through my phone,

I feel good for the fact that she feels good when I am connected to her either next to her with holding a hand or through calls or even chats,

My friends don’t like my life style and priority,

But I don’t want to see her sad, as she feels sad and bad when I don’t message or call her and don’t lift her call,

I lie her sometimes that yes you wished me the first birthday wish, though sometimes she is second as my mother wishes before than her may be a fraction of second earlier,

Even if its a lake or I am at some public place I text her, as she wants to feel the ambiance with me and my words. I like it, its not that I am not enjoying it.

But its a cheat with my friends.

She enjoys everything of my talks ,

Even my sick poor cheap jokes, at which no one can laugh.

And of course my way of care,

She just love talking to me,

She says ” I will be fine I don’t need a doctor, you are the doctor and the medicine is our conversation.” When she gets sick.

I Remember that ,

I talked to her through calls and texts for around 20hrs continuously with a charger plugged in, whenever needed.

She loved the gesture, and even felt good to be with her when she needed me.

I have to talk as she my love and I can’t see her sad,

After knowing that her sadness is my unavailability and lesser communication.

But what to do with my friends ,they are not wrong either.

They want me as their friend as I have been,

She asks me to pick one sometimes,

somehow I skip the question with an ice cream or some deep discussion about my career, but i am worried with the picking of one.

I may pick her over them by being a selfish lover but I wouldn’t be Happy with that, I know as my friends are also important .!

Love them and Love her also. Both have their importance but yes one priority is not happy when I am with the another priority.

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***We can’t decide who comes first and who is second, of course it’s both which make us what we want to be, so its important to make them understand their importance in our life, one can’t be another and vice versa. Both are differently important in life. It’s harsh and unfair to pick and choose.

Die with a smile

Yes I am breathing,

My Portion of Oxygen is Bad

Its Poisonous,

Enriched with impurities,

I don’t want to Inhale it.

I would prefer to Die.

My Blood is not Red ,

It looks like Violet in color,

I don’t bleed at all

Even if I cut my hand with a knife.

It makes me feel that,

I am not the same human

I would prefer to die

My world is Dark and silent

My heart Cry every night and day,

I can hear the audible wipeouts of tears.

My few working parts of body has started abusing me,

For my existence.

They pray for my death as they feel its enough,

Of what I have seen

They say I am too good for the society.

I should die,

they can’t see me dying everyday,

My left hand wrote a pleading note for my death to god, without my knowledge

Yes I am naturally Right handed,

But paralyzed from many years,

And living my life,

I am strong ,

Yes I am strong at my head

I am strong enough to live my life with a will to live.

Look I I would prefer to Live and get Better.

I am a warrior , I would prefer a fight ,

A Tough Fight!

And Then I may prefer to die,

I don’t want to have tears in my eyes, before I die,

I want to Die with a smile.

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***Fight and Conquer you may loose but Don’t surrender.

Virgin…

After 2 years of her marriage ,

Pia came back to India to stay with her family, so many of her friends came to meet her,

they asked her many random questions about her and husband,

like,

how is your marriage,?

You both are happy ?

How you have been these days etc.

she said yes I am happy as I look. And we are living with all possible happiness.

Her friend (Nisha) said , all good !that’s enough as you have been the most reserved girl from our group! And went to abroad all of a sudden .

Pia replied ‘ yes i have been very shy and reserved.,

Pia asked – What about you, are you still flirting with all?

Nisha replied- yes sometimes for fun and sometimes for seriously nothing.

But tell me about you how good is your life, you are looking different, he is nice to you right?

I mean why you came alone where is he?,

Pia replied ‘ of course he wanted to come but he had some commitments.

yes I can’t tell you about it in details but I feel so lucky to be his wife.

Her friend was not convinced as she can observe that her eyes were saying something else.

She again, asked her the same question in a different way,

” hey your husband is a rich guy , I saw his profile has some good money in the bank and also have a lot of property etc right?.”

She replied ‘ yes so.

Her friend puzzled pia ” are you not excited with that, like money ,property cars etc.

pia replied “yes if it excites you then I am also excited.”

Her friend could sense that pia is missing something, she asked her again and again by some promises and all.

Pia replied ” yes I am married I love him and he loves me, yes he is rich and talented that’s it,

but you know what I feel like i am still partially virgin,

Yes we travelled everywhere but not like a couple , he was there with some work and consignments.

And I was there to make him feel stress relieved whenever needed.

He has been there with me, but not there for me, more for status showoff. To show it to the world through social networking sites.

And you know how we love, it is more like robots following some of the mating commands.

Yes He is a proper straight man and i am also proper straight girl, nothing odd as it sounds.

but the fact is that, he only touched my body and not my soul, and never allowed me to get in his zone of privacy.

We are not connected to each other like we should have.

My body is not virgin my friend but yes my emotions are , my heart is not there when I am with him because he is not also there with me, its more like a task to him or an activity to loose stress for him, that’s it,

he is busy with his cigars and phone ,

he is there but he is not there with me actually ,

he loves his work more than himself. He love me but his style of love is not what I like may be he don’t even know how to love.

He has a time for everything like 10mins for breakfast , 5mins for getting ready etc,

he is a big time management insect.

It’s good professionally.

but not for the layers of love to get unfolded.

But I am happy as I can’t be sad.

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***Love is beyond the materialistic happiness. Love them with everything you have,not just posting pictures and buying gifts.

love her!

I want that Tight Hug from you..

Just a Gentle Push towards the wall,

And Hold me Hard,

Yes, Harder than an air lock,

I have been waiting for you with all my heavy breathes..

Yes I am sick , & Uncomfortable,

the doctor advised to sleep and sleep for at least a week,

Look I painted my nails with Red colour…

And coloured my hair as well,

Similar to your favorite Hollywood Girl,

You may like it, and love me more.

Please Love me .. I want your love.

Show some care ..

I haven’t ate from yesterday,

I want to eat from your hands,

I don’t like those pills..

I need you, and your love..

Not those pills..

They can’t cure me..

Love me with all the passion ,

You may like the body temperature,

Yes my eyes look a bit sleepless,

But I will sleep tonight ,

I swear, just love me please…

Show some care….!!

Stay with them more , they need you in their tough times more than anything else.