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The Right Girl !


Just Not the Right Girl for you!

As I smoke & Drink sometimes , and you don’t,

Just not the Right Girl for you ,

As I Don’t Pray much,

Just not the Right Girl for you ,As I laugh Louder than any other girl,

Just Not the Right Girl , as I wear Some Clothes which are short and you don’t like such clothes,

Just Not the Right Girl , as I Care for others more than me, and you don’t ,

Just Not the Right Girl , as I Don’t share my problems and Pain , as you want it to be,

Just not the right Girl , as I Am a free Bird , and you want to have a puppet for you,

I can’t be that Girl with Limited Words as I speak a lot at times,

I can’t be your Miss Right all the time.

As I want to fly and you want someone without wings.

So Dude, You are free to have such Puppets more and more ,

I am not the Right choice for you.

That Junk Yard


The people around me are very beautiful but I think it’s just the thinking of the individuals which has gone very cheap and sluggish…. I have gone through few nasty phases of my life and every next time its the most trusted person who has led me down …

I have done all sorts of things from my end to withstand by the individual but when I wanted the same from the person it has been a complete disappointment…. I feel how one could be so selfish…these kind of negative persons just use us for their own good and ruin our life… Has I did wrong by trusting ?…but trust and respect are something which gets increases and get back more you give ….! or it’s just the ‘karma’ of the individual which will give the punishment whenever the time comes…. ..

Never the less I wish that individual for better thinking abilities….as you cannot survive in a longer run by making people fool or by cheating..

Cheap tricks are not worthy all the time.. It’s just the good job and clean mind which stands by us even the moment we loose our sin.

God Bless you fool…

we all are here to live our life …some live with good work so that people remember them even after their death..

and some live with bad work so that people wonder when and how this person is going to die…they have been hated even after their death..so its our choice completely to what and how we want our life to be.

It really takes a lot of time to gain respect,faith and trust on someone but it takes a single second to loose the same faith respect and trust.

Thank You

To You With Love…


To You With Love,

Thank you for being there as someone who looked like a family more, being a stranger from day one,

Thank You for the lovely moments with which I could smile back again. Even if i see them as a mistaken excitement or as an unreal expectation,

I still like the answers you gave and the questions which were inherent, the answers were more easier to understand than self raised questions,

Looking something for some purpose is not good, but looking something as source of satisfaction is not bad,

Yes you have been a source,

A source to do good, and aspire good things in life,

You have been the source of fun , anger, worries, happiness and of course inspiration.

Rather say a source of liveliness

Sometimes it is not that easy to accept the outcome if it is not favouring your life ,

It’s painful and disheartening to withstand with what we Haven’t expected.

But we can’t have everything what we want in life .

Living it and Leaving it.

There After a Decade..


Okay ,Good Evening Guys !

so I visited the same place. Same temple and clicked the photograph with the same pose. Which and where I was exactly 10 long years ago,
this time to celebrate the 5th birthday of my niece, Janvi.

But now, it has been me and only my family not the one who was with us 10 years ago with unofficial permission.

Like everyone says time flies.
I accept it. Time flies and the situations do change.
Smile remains there but question is about the genuineness of it.

It was not easy to do but did to show to the world and the people around that everything is fine to me now. And I am above such sentiments.

Deep down, silently my heart being the usual human heart was pumping at a speed more than the usual sprint of a horse.

I  Asked to click images randomly so that I could have the best one in the gallery.
But not even a single PIC was good to have. As the smile was fake and my eyes where not ready to face camera, may be heart was not liking it and the face was not supporting my forced Instincts.

Everything there was same to same and I recalled every single moment of mine there a decade ago.
Be it roaming everywhere around there with wheels on my legs, playing stupid pass time games or even captivating energy for some useful work and some how bringing out that WE moments in between.

The roads,The people, the ambiance, the staying rooms, the Temple and of course the God.

Yes I have been a teenager by then and very very care free monk.,with some good etiquettes which I still have,by being real and raw sometimes at heart.

But this time. I have been quite silent  matured rather say changed version of mine,
silently observing everything what was there then and now, also my little eyes went for some tearful ride as well when was alone as I have been mostly by being with many with a reason and with a purpose more personal.
10years ago, never thought about this visit nor the circumstances I am around with, never felt that I have to face such realities in love with hate and cheat.

Forget about it.

I really feel that it has been heavy on my heart at that moment but when I rethink about the same I feel good about it. That overcame my very own created barrier. And surpassed this hurdle.


Anyways ,
Happy Birthday Janvi(Niece).

Thank you

SHAME!


Seriously this is shameful to be around such coward people.

Stunned, Saddened , and Disturbed with the offense.

why we are in the society were we are so helpless .

Why we can’t stop the constant injustice, and crime happening to the women around us.

Another day another girl, another rape another murder and another life of an individual has been buried.

What we are doing , !

Shame.

Just too tiny I am to say but yes we are helpless and we are actually careless, no remedies , no rule and no control over the crimes in India so far.

A girl named Dr. Priyanka Reddy (Age 26) has been Gang raped , Murdered, and buried brutally by wrapping her in a blanket with kerosene oil near the toll post outside area,

she was seeking help as her scooty was out of order.

They punctured her scooter , they trapped her by offering help, they did everything bad what they should not have done.

She called her sister and told about the vehicle’s status, the parents reached the same area from where she called but they already took her to somewhere else .

It’s not about Delhi, Mumbai or Hyderabad.

It’s not about short dress or love affairs,

it is about the bloody criminal mentality,

It is so sick to be around such cowards.

SHAME.

#RIPDr.PriyankaReddy

Prince Charming!!


Oh the thick big glasses on my eyes don’t look good to the girls,

They say I look like an uncle..

Oh the dark skin tone of mine don’t attract to the girls ,

They say, they can’t even see me sometimes..

Oh the lean and thin body of mine , more like a Skelton , don’t get appreciated by girls..

They say , They want muscular guys..

They want Prince charming but with more the looks of the Prince ..

That’s it !!

Do I look like a Prince ? ,

Yes of course ..

But to me, and to my mother and sometimes in my mirror…

They all want someone with good physique, and handsome looks..

They treat me like a tree, as they don’t even notice when I stare at them.

They laugh at my walk, also at my talk.

They make fun of my clothes .

They are good in fact better than good..

But they should treat me at least a human..

Human with all the feelings, and flaws..

The Real Prince doesn’t require all the attributes , to get liked they get liked for being what they are.

Oh they don’t even know that Thin, Lean, Fat, Short, Tall,Dark,Ugly, or weird are not what we can demand but yes we can diminish these tiny things of appearance with our nature , character and humanity.

And The Real Prince is always about character, Humanity, Humbleness etc. Hope they learn before falling and failing in life..

#BeTheRealPrince

P.S : Just A Random Writeup.

I never loved you.


That day with some tears , she came to him and said, I feel sorry to you for being so helpless , I am sorry, I know you love me a lot and i really don’t need any evidence as I can feel it,

but I never loved you dear ,

yes this is what the truth is, I just wanted to be their with you till my parents search someone for me to get married,

yes I never loved you, I just acted to be in love with you, I loved your company and everything you did for me ,

yes I never thought About this day, but I should have thought about it,

I am very bad I know,

but this is what the truth is,

I just wanted to get along in a busy status of relationship till my marriage as my friends were teasing me for living a life without boyfriend,

so I did all that for which I am feeling sad.. I know I played with your emotions… But I am sorry..

As I know you have been serious for me and I was just doing it for fun and showoff. I am sorry ,it is really bad and embarrassing…

And the guy was listening without believing….

With some tears and confusion.

***Don’t Play with Emotions..

***How should the guy react to it ? And what would be your reaction if you find yourself at such situation?

Even I accepted their lies.


They asked me few things about an issue, actually they wanted me to answer it either in a spicy way or they wanted to put me in some troublesome state,

I smilingly said why you people are asking me this.? Don’t you believe their stated truths, Or you feel that I need to say my version.

They said we want to know your side.

I replied, There is no my side or their side, there is truth and their false.

So you have to see what you take from their talks,

We don’t believe them, they said.

I answered I believe them, as I don’t care about anything now , I have nothing to loose. And they may be putting the right things forward, I don’t know what they are saying though, but even I accepted their lies, I can’t do much either.

As even don’t know the real truth. And I have nothing to do with the truth now, as they did what they wanted to, and the damage couldn’t be recovered ever, but yes they have been good in chopping and presenting things in their suited way.

But, I don’t have any interest in giving justification to anyone, or to put my side on the issue. As I am not here to prove Anything to anyone, I know my side I am right by best of thoughts, and deep down they also know what is right and what is not right, who is culprit and who is not, and above all there is someone who knows everything and he is looking at everything, to whom we call Almighty, The God,

Moreover I heard that, they are too good and the world is too bad ,and I am too bad and the world is too bad , as per the talks what I came to know from the people in between me and them.

Anyways We all are going to pay for the deeds we do , if not today then tomorrow for sure.

if you are good you will receive good things from god , if bad then you have to be ready for the outcome, you can’t get away from your punishments.

So , I don’t care what they are saying as I am only answerable to the god , but in my case it’s God who has to answer me, as he may don’t have any question and I have many to ask him. And it would start from Why me? ?

I hope i will get the answer,!!!

Anyways you are free to think and consider me anything you want as liberty is there for everyone.

But my identity is best known to me and god. Likewise truth is better known to God , culprit and victim.

But if they say I am culprit , then yes I am culprit . nothing to objectify or even feel bad. As they are not the decision makers . so why to think or care about it.

Then they smiled and said you said nothing in particular but said everything.

And I smiled back.

Thank you for reading.

Loving Ghost


Yes he kissed her as she sleeps next to him every night,

And in the morning he takes his breakfast with her.

As she loves to cook for him and watch him eating,

He make few cups of coffee which they enjoy with a kiss .

She comes and goes,

she is not scary but yes she is the ghost who thinks and treats him as her boyfriend,

though he told her that I am not the one but she says let it be I like you as i used to like my boy friend,

Also he asked about her that why she is ghost now, and what went wrong with her,

she said she murdered her boyfriend and committed suicide as she caught him with another girl,

And she had been brutally betrayed by her boyfriend.

She likes him because he looks like him ,

but he is single and lives just next to the room where they lived.

And more ever he also failed in love with same kind of situation though he preferred to let her live with him,

So there is a connection of being cheated by their loved ones but both had different approach to it.

Anyways,

She just wears the normal clothes like jeans T – shirts, etc like any other young girl not like the ghosts of the movies,

yes her voice is dual and of course she has some amplitude at it.

And She could smile and cry at the same time,

She likes romantic movies. And prefer playing carom.

She has the most beautiful eyes and even more beautiful smile.

She is friendly to him but he don’t know how to tell her that she is a different spirit now,

he can’t love her like she wants,

Ghost and human can’t be the lovers,

she says one day when the god would be kind enough on her she would happily leave the world but by then he has to be her love interest,

He thinks he don’t have any other option as he can’t find a way to escape also he has generated some kind of sympathy for her.

May be because of her love failure And the betrayal.

That’s it.!!!

Virgin…


After 2 years of her marriage ,

Pia came back to India to stay with her family, so many of her friends came to meet her,

they asked her many random questions about her and husband,

like,

how is your marriage,?

You both are happy ?

How you have been these days etc.

she said yes I am happy as I look. And we are living with all possible happiness.

Her friend (Nisha) said , all good !that’s enough as you have been the most reserved girl from our group! And went to abroad all of a sudden .

Pia replied ‘ yes i have been very shy and reserved.,

Pia asked – What about you, are you still flirting with all?

Nisha replied- yes sometimes for fun and sometimes for seriously nothing.

But tell me about you how good is your life, you are looking different, he is nice to you right?

I mean why you came alone where is he?,

Pia replied ‘ of course he wanted to come but he had some commitments.

yes I can’t tell you about it in details but I feel so lucky to be his wife.

Her friend was not convinced as she can observe that her eyes were saying something else.

She again, asked her the same question in a different way,

” hey your husband is a rich guy , I saw his profile has some good money in the bank and also have a lot of property etc right?.”

She replied ‘ yes so.

Her friend puzzled pia ” are you not excited with that, like money ,property cars etc.

pia replied “yes if it excites you then I am also excited.”

Her friend could sense that pia is missing something, she asked her again and again by some promises and all.

Pia replied ” yes I am married I love him and he loves me, yes he is rich and talented that’s it,

but you know what I feel like i am still partially virgin,

Yes we travelled everywhere but not like a couple , he was there with some work and consignments.

And I was there to make him feel stress relieved whenever needed.

He has been there with me, but not there for me, more for status showoff. To show it to the world through social networking sites.

And you know how we love, it is more like robots following some of the mating commands.

Yes He is a proper straight man and i am also proper straight girl, nothing odd as it sounds.

but the fact is that, he only touched my body and not my soul, and never allowed me to get in his zone of privacy.

We are not connected to each other like we should have.

My body is not virgin my friend but yes my emotions are , my heart is not there when I am with him because he is not also there with me, its more like a task to him or an activity to loose stress for him, that’s it,

he is busy with his cigars and phone ,

he is there but he is not there with me actually ,

he loves his work more than himself. He love me but his style of love is not what I like may be he don’t even know how to love.

He has a time for everything like 10mins for breakfast , 5mins for getting ready etc,

he is a big time management insect.

It’s good professionally.

but not for the layers of love to get unfolded.

But I am happy as I can’t be sad.

***Love is beyond the materialistic happiness. Love them with everything you have,not just posting pictures and buying gifts.
Aside

What A Match !


Guys , I would be lying if I would say I watched a better match than that, Drama at it’s very best, everything was so close yet so far, may be the best match of my life so far.

England .. the new world champions!!

But New Zealand would be still thinking why and how , I strongly feel that the winner should be in a convincing manner , this is so unfair they tied the game and then tied the super over as well, then why and how they lost, this so sick that no. Of boundaries came in to play and england became the champion, on other side I feel that there should have been the joint winner formula like it was in 2000 champions trophy India – Srilanka.

But cricket is unexpected as they say it proved again, new Zealand have been unlucky they could have been the champion if the throw from Martin Guptill was not gone for an extra six.

Of course Ben Stokes was exceptional.

But never the less, the New Zealand has won our hearts. And I am happy with their hardwork and effort. They are the champions for me along with England as neither they won nor New Zealand lost.

Thank you

S H A D E S


It was around 2 am , he reached his home, which was at 4th floor of the famous apartment in that city.

He was extremely tired with the stress and strain of the day, as finding job is more tougher than doing the job,

some how he managed to change the formal wears with shorts and took his sleep.

he was an aspiring actor who was searching opportunities.

But yet to get a call for acting,It has been 3months of joblessness.

So he was frustrated in a way, but he was there to prove the people wrong who discarded him and his talent in the auditions he gave so far.

So, the next morning he woke up with the same fighting spirit and gone for many more offices for auditions,

And again no one even looked at his portfolio and rejected him,

Now , it was around 3pm, he was about to feel sad and hungry at the same time, he received a call from a reputed ad agency, he ran and reached the agency with some nervousness ,he was asked to sit, then he was about to face the owner,

But she lefts the place.

He was stated by the manager that he has to do AD of some detergent, he was ready with the incoming and accepted it,

Next Day, he reached the place and he saw the other side of acting world,

he saw that there are many guys and girls are being asked for audience for the same AD in which he was already part, he was confused that why this audition is going on,

before he could now he came to know that they are doing it as preventive method, as they may replace him if he does not do good

Some how he managed to impress and did a good job, now in the same set he met the owner,

she is beautiful with some temper issues he observed, she cleared his amount for the ad and asked him to meet again in the evening by sharing her card.

He agreed and left.

In the evening he called the no. Printed on the card,

She didn’t lift and dropped a message in which she shared her address of farm house .

He manages to go there. It is 7pm now

He again calls. This time her phone is in a silent mode. Some how he enter the house.

He could hardly find the purpose of calling him there.

Then he enters , he is still not sure what’s going on.

And suddenly he finds a weird thing of being locked from outside. He is scared now, who is there ? He shouts.

She smiles and says relax , and in between this she offers him some drink and it was not tea or coffee .

he says madam I am OK may I know what’s the reason to call me here. Is there any big project,

she says yeah. It is bigger than you thought,

As You have to impress me, or Should i say satisfy me! By sitting over a couch in a navy blue dress with some alcoholic eyes and unconditioned hair falling over her shoulder she says..

He is shocked now. And says excuse me! What?

She smiles again and asks him to come closer,

And says look, I am searching fun and you are searching success,

so should I say that you are the next star of the country. But for becoming the star you have to go with what I prefer for you.

Look I know that you are from a small town and these things are new , but you may have seen the amount of aspirants near my office and you may be in a confusion that how and why you have been selected. And I hope you are by now quite clear with your doubts.

And Pulls him towards her with showing some of her visible body parts,

I saw your photographs in the portfolio and I decided that you will be in the ad, now I want you to be in the next project but for that you have to impress me in every prospect.

I know you are good at work as you are very hardworking as told by the director ,

Let me check whether you are equally good at other works or not she whispered.

He replied I am good enough to earn money I think I don’t need to do this or that to become a star so thank you I am happy with it. I would like to go now, let the doors get open. He removes her hand over his neck.

She smiled and says ,

you know what the small town people are so poor they can’t take life smoothly, I am beautiful rich and also successful and u need opportunity which only I can provide but you are saying no to me. Do you know how fool you are ! Again she snatches few buttons of his shirt and pulls him towards her.

He says yes I am fool , and happy with it and I don’t want to become star as well.. You are beautiful and also i need opportunity but it does not mean that I would do something which is not good ,

I am not here for sale. Let me go! He slaps her and firmly looks her with anger,

He Breaks the door and left the place. But she was not happy with what happened. As she had other ideas for him, and felt like rejected.

Next Day,

He was saddened now with the side effects of his dream and decides to leave the city. But in between the rush he has been called from another production house , they were seeking some one who is new and talented and found him as the perfect choice through his previous audience.

Six Months Later,

He is the star by his own merit without any comprises.

And finds the same lady in every other business parties and looks her like he saw nothing.

And one bad day he came to know that the lady has been killed at her own farm house from one of her longtime victim.

Good Day!

They are actors…


Do you know how it feels,

When you enter a place where everyone is an actor,

They all are acting in their own way ,

And you find that some play is going around you

Around you, near your surroundings some kind of play is going on,

In which you don’t know the act of acting, you’re real but everyone is acting ,

In the play , you find yourself in the center of stage but you don’t know how to cope up with those super talented actors ,

In your own life you are being played for being so natural and real as you treat it life and they treat it like a play,

The entire play is so dictating that you being the hero of it, sinks as the actors want you to be.

This play is about life where you are real and the surrounding is surrounded by actors.

In the end you find yourself in an awkward position as you can’t act as they do.

They laugh at you ,

they may make fun of you ,

They shout and scream,

You may find some versatile performance as well.

And you take all that smilingly with your head down and still not sure about what it is actually.

Thank you

RPR : Don’t be so real in life my friends

The Blame Games


This is about the modern day habit of people.. We often see it in the case of two leaders, two lovers, two countries etc , we know how sad it is that whatever is the truth between the respective people has been either chopped , or manipulated.
I feel it is a moral responsibility of the people to put the right things forward whether by doing so one is exposed as a culprit.
But if they keep on blaming each other it becomes slightly tough for the people around them to judge about it, as both cannot be culprit and both cannot be the victim at the same time.
In my view the culprit himself/herself knows about their individuality that they are not right, but all want to be in the safer side , all wants to pretend like a victim.. All want to show the world that they are right and the world is wrong..
The culprit should be brave enough to accept their mistake and they should tell the world about it , they should not be living with a mask over their face..
I urge everyone who is reading this post, just stop this blame game.. It would take some courage out of you to put the right things regardless of the fact that you me be not politically right, but an individual who is a victim genuinely, who has not done any sin to get blamed or defamed will breathe easy..
Stop this now!!
In a way it gives the culprit a chance to diminish the outcome of the wrong deeds up to some extent..
We all live in a world with many kind of people , some do the offence and stay quite so that other could pay for his offence, and some face it by acceptance, so that no one else get bothered..
There is no shame in accepting your mistakes , just stop denying it, accept it , don’t hide.. No more blames on the one who is innocent.
Shame on those blame others or those who just stay quite being the culprit one..
This is a crime and very much unkind.
You cannot be right by being wrong..
As if they are so conscious about their image then why do they do something which is not ethically good…
And if they have committed that mistake they should be brave enough to accept it and face the consequences of it,rather then blaming others..
They should have the courage to say that yes I did this… I am the one who is responsible for this… Or I am the one who made this mistake not anyone else.. Instead of manipulations..
No More Blame Games.
Don’t get biased don’t get judgemental..
We should stay strong towards the one who is a victim regardless of the gender,caste, financial status..this is our responsibility.
Thank You

Original Ones – People


Few Learn with age,

Few Learn with Experience,

Few learn with Mistakes,

Few Learn with Education,

Few don’t Learn with any.

Anyways this world is imbibed with mean and manipulative people. They may use the best of you before you realize and leave you without your choice.

BEWARE

The more I think about it ,the more I feel like biting some Red Chillies.

Yes it is painful , yes it haunts

and yes it hurts.

They may learn with what they do with their life.

They may grow ,

They may become wiser,

They may become HumanBeings

Om Namah Shivaya…

Har Har Mahadev …

Jai Gauri Shankar.

LoVeAndOnlyLove.


The Story of my love started with your smiles…

Strengthened with my anger..

Grown with your promises..

Nurtured with my beliefs..

Affected with the people around us…

Spoiled with the insecurities….

Ruptured with the traps of your loved ones..

Finished with your decision..

Separated by the society..

Not ended with my loneliness..

And

ReLiving Love with WordPress..

I Love You My Enemy.


Yes I love my enemy.

As they make me think twice. So that I could make less mistakes.

He/she is the reason for my continues cautiousness.

I can feel the pressure of being questioned every time I Sit/ stand.

I have to match up with all the demands they do.

Sometimes I answer them even before they ask.

Sometimes they Win.

Sometimes they have to loose.

But yes they are the reason for my every dedicated work.

Yes it is annoying but I like the counterparts.

As it is not healthy to run without a competitor in a race.

I love you my enemy as you have been so keen to put all efforts to watch my work,Sometimes even my well wishers fail to do this..

I love that focus and intensity.

Yes it encourages me to do good and even better , and to learn.

Thank you my enemy for being my biggest strength and motivation.

Yes I do get strengthened by every cheap and silly things you do to make me fall.

I don’t fall, I just smile and continue the process..

I love you my enemy. As you teach me a lot without any investment.

Thank you.