Artistically Beautiful!!


 

 

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I saw a Dream,

Dream with my open eyes,
With many more layers of love,
Love,
for the one to whom I never met,
And never saw,
She was Artistically beautiful,
As I don’t think ,
could ever see a lady of such grace.
With Her Beautiful Eyes ,
More like the Moon after eclipse.
With a Little Sharp nose,
May have customized before her birth,
Lips , like Little Roses layered with Dew Drops,
Soft , Smooth and colorful.
She looked like a Beauty with a Mysterious smile,
But before I could solve it,
She Disappeared.

 

 


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That Kiss …!


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That Unexpected Kiss from her on my lips

has turned into

An Extended Kiss from me

which made her realize that

her lips have been bitten,

and it’s her blood which she saw on my lips

and with a smile she said

I think you gave me a love byte…

 

 

 

How could she smile when she has been treated that way?

Why she smiled with a lot of glittering sparks in her eyes?

Why that sweet kiss has turned into a kiss of Blood?

Do you want to have such experience ever in life ?

Anger…!


Hello Folks,

Well before writing anything on this topic I think I have to be honest that I am very angry today. And I don’t know how to control it.

In fact I am against of controlling it is a very important emotion. I have my anger issues which has been the reason of my various fights, arguments, failures, etc. In fact I left few of my previous jobs for the same issue. And I think it is very much with me as I treat it as my body part or my important weapon from the armory.

Although I don’t want to use it but it is something which comes to me quite often then not.

May be I am short tempered. But what I have seen that my anger does not harm anyone as it only raises the modulation of my voices and even make it louder so that it can be audible to the person who is in the 2nd street. I feel bad about it . but yes I have to say that I am very much under control of not being violent. Yes I do get irritated and in between I may say something very harsh but the other side is that even at that level I don’t abuse or cross the line in a verbal spat.

But whatever I do I feel bad about it as I think it is very bad to be so bad on anyone. But I can’t help it at that time. As I am not that sense of thinking something to which I feel afterwards.

I may hit hard on something and hurt my self ,it could be a desks, wall or even a my head. Usually I use to punch with my right hand on the surfaces near by or at my forehead.

Sometimes I even damage the furniture stuffs like chairs, tables etc. It is very bad. But I can’t help it.

I have been like this from my childhood ,my mother told me that I used get very angry if didn’t get what I have been promised to get. My face used to get red and it is even now the same.

So the point is it is good to stay with your emotions even it is anger but the way it comes to us it should have some control. How can we control it? More of you is good as I believe in being original .

Tell me something to control it or to manage it in a better so that it could come and go with very ease. Anger issues are there but yes I don’t hurt anyone I have that notch of being watchful even at extreme level so that I don’t use a bad word and don’t get violent on anyone yes in between this I hurt myself.

My anger stays with me and it plays within until it is not burs-ted on anyone.

Your suggestions are very helpful …please do share it on the comment box. As it is not just a blogging post it is my serious problem with which I really want to overcome.

Thank You

Thank You is Not enough.


My favorite thing is to acknowledge people for being what they are in my life .

Even though we do it quite often , but it’s not enough to say thanks or thank you to them , this does not end their role played in our life.

As we have grown to certain ages we learn , but we forget the ones who were in our school days they are our real friends ,our genuine friends.

The friends who don’t like you because you are Rich , Intelligent , or you are Good Looking.

They are with you because their soul connects. Their heart says that he/ she is my friend irrespective to the variable difference in Gender, Culture ,Caste ,Creed or financial status.
They just come smile and say” hey hello ! you are my friend !”
And the beautiful journey of friendship starts with sharing of Tiff-ins,Books,Notes and Secrets.
And Gradually the time flies before you even notice that you are actually depending on each.
This is the most purest form of friendship.

The Real Friendship .

The true Friendship without any Hidden Interest and Selfishness.
I am glad that I have a friend like this ,called Anchal Lanjewar (Then) now Mrs. Anchal Meshram .
She is the most selfless soul i have ever seen. She has made my school life quite enchanting . she was there for every next possible thing in those days. I remember When i was going with a very bad patch in studies ..

she took the initiative to teach me and I still feel that I could not have cleared the exams if she would not have taught me.
She got Married last year. She has invited me and how could I miss to attend . the only party I attended after years.
I am very happy for her and wish her a beautiful life .

And I am thankful to the god for giving me a friend like her in my life. she will be always my favorite friend . I have said thanks to her many times but its not enough ..
I hardly make friends but when I make I don’t let them go.

This is just a little way to express my gratitude to you and our friendship.
You will be always my favorite friend Anchal.

And I know you will be there for me my friend forever like you have been.

“And Yes Me Aaj Bhi Dimaag ka Dahi karta hu..”

Thank you so much but this is not enough.

Lost or Leaved ?


Well ..

It’s awkward  to put this in public but yes it is a true story true pain true cheat true life true love and of-course true lie….

she loved me a lot for 8 long years so that no one has ever did with any one but she left me without answering me and my questions in a very brutal manner…

She was forced to do so or she has left me or she has been taken away from my life…. I don’t know !
I don’t even know my mistake .. !
I loved her more than I could have Done,

I did all the stuff to make her mine.

but I failed , because  she has not stood for me when I wanted her the most… which is the most painful truth 

and this is something which still looks like a bad dream as i never ever thought of this betrayal from her.

for me this is hard to believe, even though i have passed years with this truth.

why?

what was my mistake still wanna know…

Awaiting…

Some questions are necessary to answer…

Life is round we will meet again and again, whenever we will meet I will ask you how are you I hope you will not ask me who are you?

Passion….


Just a small way to recreate the magic…

With complete fun and humor .

The life will make u feel more enriched with new reason to feel good…

Leave the sadness, darkness,emptiness,  behind.

Its your life and you are the boss .

Few losses does not make you the loser just fight with your problems till the last breathe of your life no matter whether you end up in a loosing way but you will be considered as the warrior .

You are the King and this is your Kingdom

Love & Live .

Enjoy the beauty within you.

You have the spark.

Don’t give up.

“I love your daughter… “


Fish (Guy) : hello uncle… I am… I think …I Want to say something to you, uncle I know it’s quite odd to say this but I have to say this that I love your daughter… would be happy to get married to her.

Fisher ( Her Father) : excuse me!

Fish : yes it is quite awkward to speak about it to you directly , but I heard that you are going to look a guy for her marriage, so I thought I have to say this so that it don’t get too late.. (With some sparks and nervousness he said)

Fisher : look it is not right for you and me to speak about it.. As neither my daughter knows this nor your family people, it is ridiculous to discuss all this now , when I am heading towards a match set..

Fish : well your daughter loves me and you don’t need to think much about my family .. They will get involved when they will be informed about it, leave that part to me.. They all love love me a lot they would do what I want them to do 🙂 .

Fisher : what you what me to do with it now ?

Fish : just don’t look any guy for her ,

Fisher : but we all are going tomorrow to the groom’s house, how I could help you then, you should have came earlier..

Fish : I tried but I am facing to many things in my life and dealing with some heavy hardships, so I request you to cancel it by any possible way, you may go tomorrow and reject the match with any possible reason, you have to do this for the sake of love..

Fisher: look , this is not my decision only ,, their will be other people involved in it, I like you as a person and happy that my daughter also loves you ,, you are a very talented guy, but I need reasons I am not the only decision maker.

Fish : ‘ I love her, she loves me, you like me , i know my parents will like her. Tell me a reason to select another guy …? You are the father of her I approached you with a hope but you being the supreme of the house saying I am not the decision maker.. Sounds weird.. Don’t you think the two individuals should get married who share love.

Fisher: you don’t have a job how to accept it for my girl I am her father..

Fish: I don’t have now, I will have for sure.. I will marry her after sometime not today.. Don’t feel that you are talking to a useless fellow.. I am also an educated engineer… Not a peanuts seller… My time will come.. And I want her with me by then. I didn’t spoke to you regarding this till today because I am jobless ,I thought it won’t sound good to ask someone’s daughter for marriage without a job, but I heard that you are going to a match set, so I came to speak about it ,so that I don’t loose her..

Fisher: okay I will try my best… I like the way you speak quite convinced with your side, but as I said I am not the decision maker,

Fish : you love your daughter , you gave the best to her so far and I think i am the best for her, not because of the fact I think so, but because she loves me… And love can bring happiness.. Even if you don’t have materialistic happiness.. Like car and jewels.

Fisher : very right. But they are also important as a father I would be happy to see me daughter in luxurious attire. We all are here for society and society wants all this materialistic happiness.

Fish : society does not bring the eternal happiness.. They are with you when you are at good high they leave when you fall.. uncle.. (He explained with some example)

Fisher : yes right but… OK I will think about it .. I am here as a friend to you and will tell you that marriages are made in heaven.. You have to feel sorry if god has made some harsh decisions for you..

Fish : I don’t know god.. Though I pray.. So it is just a belief.. I don’t how we loved.. I think god wanted this to happen.. I am genuine and she also loves me with genuine heart.. She can’t love any other and I can’t even imagine of it.. I think god won’t separate the loved ones.. That’s why i am having this conversation with you so that I could stop her match set.. Hard work conquers I heard.. I did my hard work.. By speaking it to you directly about it.. Now it is up to you .. You can make it or break it.. Not the god.

Fisher : I can do only what comes to my way.. I don’t know what to say.. I will do the best of what I can do.

Fish : I can’t see your daughter in sadness.. I know you can’t see her in sadness.. I can’t see her crying for her whole life.. I am sure you can’t as well. Her happiness is with me.. So you have the decision to think what you want for her ,sadness or happiness..

I would repeat that happiness is not available in the biggest of super market ,no matter how much money you have … You can’t purchase it.. You have to feel the happiness in every small and big things you have ..happiness is only with the persons you loved.. Not with those you don’t even know..

Mark my words your daughter will be very happy with me… She will be the most beautiful girl when she would stand next to me in our marriage reception uncle!

I saw her happiest when she talks to me about everything everyone.. Just ask her she will tell you.. About me and her and our relationship . trust me give me love give her love don’t separate us..

Give me some time..to get a job I will come along with my family and make it official among everyone..

Fisher : okay. I hope you do as you mentioned… I am sure I am going to do the right thing for her. Though you look a gentleman to me as you are so vocal about your love to the father of your loved girl.. It needs honesty to say all this..

Fish : i love her the most in this world. And she loves me more than anyone and the right thing is giving her happiness which is with me..

Fisher : alright I am convinced I will speak to her about her views towards you and would know more about it..as she is the other important person.

Fish : yes you right … She loves me madly.. She said she will commit suicide if I won’t speak to you about us..

Fisher : stupid girl (whispered)

Fish : that’s love.. Even I can do the same for her..

Fisher : this is more like movie. Life is big, one can’t be everything for anyone..

Fish : but for us this is what practicality is… We can’t live without each other..

Fisher: fine …we will meet once we get back from the groom’s house.

Fish : yes.. Thank you uncle I am happy that I spoke about my love to a third person. That third person is he father of girl ..and happy with your acceptance.

………After three days………

Fisher : hello … I have to say this to you that I am sorry.. everything went wrong , they all forced me. My daughter and I cried as we were unable I am sorry again forgive me. She said I would do what you people think better for me. And then they all from my wife’s family proceeded with the match.. It is now in society that my daughter is getting married to that guy…

Fish : but I spoke to you for not this reply ,you are the father how could they do this…i cant believe this (he said this with tears in eyes) how could she say yes…she loved me she proposed me. we are in love from years.. How one can put her head down and accept someone else with ease.. This is so unreal.. I can’t think my life without her..

Fisher : but she said to me that she is happy with it.. She may wants a safe and secured life.. Which you may not give her on today’s date.. She may have considered various other facts apart from love..

Fish : then why she loved me..? She could love me for years and i was not a rich man then either.. ! but for now she wants marriage and wants security…or she wants his money… How could she play with my life.. I loved her with dignity i can’t accept this …this is completely in injustice to me.. She has no right to play with my life.. I have invested a lot of my years on this love and her… She can’t cheat me like this .. Just ask her to give me back my years of life which I have invested on her.. I feel like a toy which has been used by her for her own god and left aside after it becomes old..( he said this with plenty of tears falling down)

Fisher : I don’t know.. I am done with you I feel sad for you young boy.. You are a nice person I would have loved to have you as my daughter’s husband but I am not everything… They did it and we could not avoid their decision.. And moreover she also never looked uncomfortable.. I think she got fed up with your hardships.. And wanted to move on.

Fish : no I think you all played with me and and may be with her also..

Fisher : she said me to tell you to move on…and live life with acceptance and attain some success and marry a pretty girl..

Fish: shut !! tell her that “this life is enough to prove her decision wrong”! we have to pay for every single deed what we do in our life Because someone is watching us and above all to whom we call Almighty….

Well I will pray to God to be not so harsh on her….. (he replied with the broken heart and confusion that how and where it went wrong.. whether he has been cheated by her or her father played with him a sharp cheap game .. Or this what the destiny decided for him..)

Fire Without a Smoke..


Thanks To That Messy Wall,

Standing There Behind the Garage

With a light more like a moon..

To support and withstand The load of two Passionate Bodies..

With hand over hand..

Feet above feet..

Lips Above And Under Lips..

Tongues Fighting to prove each other best ..

Salvia Intermixed within the mouths, Like the Juices of Oranges and Pomegranate .

And Gulped. .

With Some Enticing sensations in the bottom and Butterflies flying everywhere in the Belly..

Also Some Heavy Breathings and interlocked Eye contacts..

There was Fire Without a Smoke..

And A Never Ending Quench .

Spread Love..

Pick Me Out of Many….


Pick me out of many,

Place me in your favourites, Please me in the best of your times,

Pardon me if I don’t Repeat the same.

Pardon me if I don’t repeat the same…..

Not because I can’t do , But because I can’t Express…

I have my layers of Availability which is somehow practically not visible.

Not Visible because of my existence..

Existence to Feel and Express.

Yes I do Expect a lot from me,

but I know my expectations are not worthy Enough..

Worthy Enough to withstand with the demands..

My list is Ready for you.

Just Pick me out of many..

Place me in your favourites..

Please me in the Best of Your Times

And Pardon me if i Don’t Repeat the same.

Pardon Me If I Don’t Repeat the same..

Thank you

©

RPR

Look At Me.


Hey Listen,

Look at me,

And Just keep Looking at me .

Else Don’t Need to look at all.

Yes, Don’t Need to look at all,

Because Everyone is already looking at you,

And I know how they look at you,

They Look at you even from some distance,

They are just obsessed of you,

with the thoughts of Lust and love.

They Just stuck at you with their filthy focused yet tilted eyes,

With many more feelings of attractions and infatuations.

Just don’t need to look at anyone, because they don’t deserve your look,

Just Look at me ,

And keep looking at me, My Love.

Like I look at you without a blink ,

like I look at you , More than the stars ,moon, and Sun.

As I find me for you,

And You for me,

Not for anyone else.

Just Think , Feel and Relate.

And Look at me only else Don’t look at all… 🙂

Uncool Love. – The Fictional Story


In The Early 90’s, A village called Vayubagh (Fictional) was situated near the banks of river Gomti, with very low dense population,

The most common occupation of the people was weaving.

And the richest man, of the village has been Najeer Ali, who was equipped with some good collateral assets, and Lands.

But he was someone who never believed in living the life, he was more inclined towards making money and but not using it.

He himself never bought a good pair of shoes. But this was not irritating him, he was happy with it and enjoying life in his own way.

But the only problem that he had, for which he was not comfortable was that he was not literate.

He was always in a state of embarrassment, by the people who were not rich but educated enough.

So, Najeer Ali at the age of 56 decides to get married though everyone wanted him to get married but the money minded fellow never agreed before,

But now, he wants to get married and said the girl should be educated enough, no matter whether she is rich or not, this was a shocker to expect from a person like him,

His relatives involved in searching a girl.

And they get a girl from their own village, Named Mumtaz bagh who did her schooling and was pursuing graduation.

She was the daughter of a poor farmer of the same village, and her age could be merely 20,

She was a big Madhuri Dixit Fan, and always wanted to be called as Madhuri.

So let’s call her Madhuri.

So, Madhuri’s father has borrowed some money from Najeer Ali which he couldn’t return, not even the interests.

And Najeer exempted the entire Amount with a condition to get married to his daughter, her father was poor and Najeer was richest, also he felt that his daughter was ready for the Marriage.

But in between all this none of them felt the need of asking Madhuri’s take on it.

And within a very little time, she got married to a man who was around her father’s age.

And with which she always felt that She can’t be what she want to be, she was restricted , she was asked to be a women with utter seriousness, she lost her identity ,

but yes she slowly started accepting it, she took the financial accounts of Najeer Ali and helped her husband in monetary consignments, and completed her studies, and in between these her life passed on with some satisfactions but a lot of dissatisfactions,

Now, she was rich and powerful but living a life which she never dreamt.

She can’t roam, sing, dance and laugh. She had to behave like a lady who was milder, and also old.

Gradually she added responsibility of being mother to a 2 year old boy called Iftikar. Who was her only source of liveliness

She Enjoys every single moment of her motherhood , she is now a happy mother though not a wife she wanted because of the generation gap, difference mindsets, illiteracy, Etc.

Najeer Ali and Madhuri Never have a common opinion because of their varied thoughts,

Najeer was happy with his account being managed by his educated wife. And Madhuri had sigh of relief with her love for her son.

In between all this, Madhuri’s school Friend Shashikant Reentered her life now as a Govt. Doctor of their village.

Shashikant, has been a secret crush of Madhuri, he was a book worm of the class, and Madhuri being the girl with flairs of a performer.

So, shashikant with a very little words has always attracted her, but both of them could never say anything about it, and one got married another become the city returned doctor.

Shashikant bought a new house which is at 15 steps distance of Madhuri’s house.

And they willingly or unwillingly see each other on daily basis, and share their smiles with hesitations, and awkwardness,

Madhuri has became even more beautiful than the school days, may be with age,

And shashikant is not the same fellow with specs; he developed his looks with time, and may be the most handsome man of Village.

It was Republic day,

Najeer Ali along with family has been asked to attend the village celebrations where shashikant was also there, this was the first time he saw Najeer, and felt bad for her old school friend,

Najeer was wrapped in a shawl with some coughing, and even got angry on Madhuri for clapping on the performance of kids.

One Night at around, 22 Hours, Najeer had some cough and severe fever, the village is dark and silent by 8’O Clock,

All the servants had left for their homes, and Madhuri had to ran and call shashikant, where she found him sleeping after the dinner,

She knocked the door, and took him to her house,

He gave the medicines and asked him to take rest; madhuri thanked him with her gesture of folded lips and smile,

and asked him for the payment,

He refused. And left the place.

The whole night they both were sleepless,

He could not accept the sad, tensed face of her. He felt that she deserved a better partner.

And She recalled all the secret love letters she wrote which never been given to him.

Next day, she saw him grinning hard with his exercise and yoga while she was at her terrace to swipe out dirt.

She couldn’t move,

She was in a state of illusion,

She always dreamt of the same man, who was in front of her,

On the same day, she removed the servants so that she could swipe daily and see him, and gave the logic of savings to her husband, which he agreed readily.

Now, this is her daily routine.

And shashikant was still unaware of it, though he felt bad on her fate because she was the most vibrant girl he ever saw.

Seeing him going out, getting in, doing yoga, offering prayer, cooking food, playing cricket etc have become her part of life,

She started starring him for hours, and her husband’s regular diagnosis has given her the chance to have him around her more often than not,

She was not in her control, she felt that loving him is not wrong, she is a women first, and going to his house for the valid and invalid reasons has became a habit to her,

On the other hand shashikant also started thinking the same way, he was also curious to look her daily, and they both now share smiles, eye contacts and something more than just look in their face offs but nothing said yet .

One day,

Shashikant was having his dinner and Madhuri reached his house with her son, with a reason of his fever, and shashikant could sense that iftikar is perfectly fine,

He smiled and kissed the kid on cheeks with a smile and whispered “tell your Ammi that she may need a medicine, but u don’t need.”

His kiss on the cheeks was enough to understand Madhuri that she was no more alone in love,

She kissed Iftikar on the same spot and smilingly said “Doctor Uncle is not wrong as usual.”

With a blush, she left the place with her kid.

And then they both went to many more fascinating fantasies with each other, in their day & Night dreams.

But On the very next day the Doctor has to reach the Madhuri’s house again, to cure her husband, he gave the tablets and asks him to take complete bed rest.

She was happy that her husband’s health gives her the chances to see him,

She was dropping him to the main gate of the house, without a blink from both sides,

It was dark and the entire village was sleeping along with the kid.

He smiled near the gate, and said “the gate came, I have to go now”

She saw the same and smiled back with shyness, that moment was still, breezy and romantic, as the notions were flourishing.

Madhuri asked the payment for medicines he gave, and doctor said “got much more than the payment,” with a wink.

And shockingly touched her cheeks with a word take care!!

And left the house. ,

She pulled him back inside the boundary wall and kissed him with compassion and pleasure,

He could not even hold himself properly, as she was uncontrollable and kissing with all her hidden desires.

Emotions were melting in the night like Ice with fire within,

And in between all this, Iftikar started crying, which forced them to leave eachother,

But that passionate kiss has unfolded all the layers of love between them,

The Entire Night for them was sleepless; they couldn’t not resist with the emotions they had for each other,           

And on the very next day, the life of madhuri completely changed, she started living life like she did earlier before the marriage, she sings, dances, and wears beautiful clothes keeping shashikant in mind.

She was enjoying her life, she couldn’t judge whether the love she developed was right or wrong,

Shashikant was also unsure about the reality for him, love was beyond the right and wrongs,


Najeer Ali was unaware of the things, he was still sick and thinking about the expenses involved in his disease. And ifitikar is too young to react on anyone of them.

They both started meeting behind Najeer Ali, and shared their romantic scoops, sometimes at the clinic, sometimes at Madhuri’s house post diagnosis, and sometimes at the terrace of Shashikant’a house. The flame of love was evident in their love.

They both involved in Long hugs, inseparable kisses and never ending passionate smooches.

Slowly the People Of the village were having their talks, few felt it cheat to najeer , few were happy as they were humiliated by najeer and few wanted to use it for their own Good.

One of them reported the same to najeer Ali and said would also provide the evidence but want money in reward.

Najeer was not happy with it for the obvious reasons, and got very angry on the person and threw him out of the house, but agreed to figure out the truth without anyone else’s involvement.

Later that Night, Najeer Again got sick, and Madhuri calls doctor, he cures him, and says ” you should not take stress and I repeat please take complete bed rest.”

Najeer directly asks him “Do you love my wife? Is that the reason you come even at the midnight? This is not your duty hour’s right? I know my wife also loves you,”

Shashikant replied “Look I am a doctor, curing patients is what my job is. People worship us for the same, you should take rest, “coming at midnight to cure you is not because of your wife, and I would have done the same for any another as well,”

I am a professional doctor I can’t cheat with my professional responsibilities; you may cross check with any other doctor regarding the medicines,

They are not to kill you, they are to cure you”

Now, Najeer asks his wife “do you like this good looking young man? Have you forgotten that you have kid and a husband??”

She asks him, to take rest and avoid talks,

But he continues poking her and provoking her with most ugly words about her upbringing, poverty and character.

She then says “yes I love him, and he loves me, it has nothing to do with his professional responsibility and my maternal responsibility,

I am iftikar’s mother. But yes I love him, because I never loved you, I am sorry.

And if it makes me characterless then let it be, I was with you, but without being me.

He always tried and treated like any other best doctor,

You have the reason and right to angry on me, but not on him, sleep for now. “

Shashikant interrupts, and says “No I am equally wrong,

I’m the other man of her life, which is not good by the social standards of society,

But you are also wrong you never felt the need of knowing her will for the marriage,

Being very old to a girl you married to her for your prestige, it is a selfish act,

You have no right to ruin her life,” he added.

And asks him to sleep, as they both are accepting mistakes and would take all legal punishments.

Najeer Ali agrees to sleep, with anger in his eyes, as felt he was cheated by his wife, and the doctor is not curing him, and may kill him with wrong medicines.

So, in the dark dim light of the night he shoots both of them with his pistol by reaching the doctor’s house first then to his wife while she was sleeping with iftikar.

And Then He shoots himself with the same pistol without even thinking about the kid and makes him an orphan.

The End

Pure as Prayer.


Pure as prayer!!

Partying with prey,
Not crafted,
Not Decorated,
Just Left by the nature,
To Embrace The Beauty Everywhere,
To make you feel,
And to make me feel
That We are not even near to the beautiful things created by god,
As we have a hustle to earn more,
Burn More,
To fit in somewhere in the materialistic society,
Which is nowhere to the little tiny beautiful Flurries, with wings,
Very Enigmatic,
And Also Colorful,
called as Butterflies,

Yes they are Pure as Prayer.

Let Me Find.


 

In the search of satisfaction I think I lost my happiness,
and the essence of purity
committing more mistakes than corrections,
Losing a day Now,
And Lost a Day yesterday,
And Also lost many more days before yesterday.
These are preciously important Days of my life.
What’s Wrong?
Where I am?
What I am doing?
Why I am doing?
Don’t know
Don’t have any clue.
I am Lost,
I have more flaws now,
Yes  Not Appropriate,
And also weirdly imperfect
But
How to stop ,
How to fightback
Tell me
I need your help
I really need your help.
To fix things back,
To Swipe out the dirt,
To Find the same space,

 

And Vibe
Let me find,

The same Person Again

Always smiling and always shinning.

 

To You With Love…


To You With Love,

Thank you for being there as someone who looked like a family more, being a stranger from day one,

Thank You for the lovely moments with which I could smile back again. Even if i see them as a mistaken excitement or as an unreal expectation,

I still like the answers you gave and the questions which were inherent, the answers were more easier to understand than self raised questions,

Looking something for some purpose is not good, but looking something as source of satisfaction is not bad,

Yes you have been a source,

A source to do good, and aspire good things in life,

You have been the source of fun , anger, worries, happiness and of course inspiration.

Rather say a source of liveliness

Sometimes it is not that easy to accept the outcome if it is not favouring your life ,

It’s painful and disheartening to withstand with what we Haven’t expected.

But we can’t have everything what we want in life .


Living it and Leaving it.


HELLO 2020


Hey, Hello 2020 …

Welcome,

Welcome to this beautiful world …

Okay , so here I wish you all a very happy new year, may you all live your life with utmost happiness , health and satisfaction.

May all the goals and aspirations get accomplished, may you all find the ways to grow more in every prospect of life.

Also i welcome and greet the brand new year i.e 2020 to our lives,

As we all want to grow and make 2020 a benchmark year.

Let’s leave the bad memories behind and carry forward the positives from the previous year.

Let’s believe in our abilities more than counting excuses,

let’s stay and stick with positivity, purity and persistence.

Let’s smile More than yesterday and plan tomorrow, with living full of life today…

All The Best, keep smiling , Have Fun. 🙂

Happy New Year to all.

There After a Decade..


Okay ,Good Evening Guys !

so I visited the same place. Same temple and clicked the photograph with the same pose. Which and where I was exactly 10 long years ago,
this time to celebrate the 5th birthday of my niece, Janvi.

But now, it has been me and only my family not the one who was with us 10 years ago with unofficial permission.

Like everyone says time flies.
I accept it. Time flies and the situations do change.
Smile remains there but question is about the genuineness of it.

It was not easy to do but did to show to the world and the people around that everything is fine to me now. And I am above such sentiments.

Deep down, silently my heart being the usual human heart was pumping at a speed more than the usual sprint of a horse.

I  Asked to click images randomly so that I could have the best one in the gallery.
But not even a single PIC was good to have. As the smile was fake and my eyes where not ready to face camera, may be heart was not liking it and the face was not supporting my forced Instincts.

Everything there was same to same and I recalled every single moment of mine there a decade ago.
Be it roaming everywhere around there with wheels on my legs, playing stupid pass time games or even captivating energy for some useful work and some how bringing out that WE moments in between.

The roads,The people, the ambiance, the staying rooms, the Temple and of course the God.

Yes I have been a teenager by then and very very care free monk.,with some good etiquettes which I still have,by being real and raw sometimes at heart.

But this time. I have been quite silent  matured rather say changed version of mine,
silently observing everything what was there then and now, also my little eyes went for some tearful ride as well when was alone as I have been mostly by being with many with a reason and with a purpose more personal.
10years ago, never thought about this visit nor the circumstances I am around with, never felt that I have to face such realities in love with hate and cheat.

Forget about it.

I really feel that it has been heavy on my heart at that moment but when I rethink about the same I feel good about it. That overcame my very own created barrier. And surpassed this hurdle.


Anyways ,
Happy Birthday Janvi(Niece).


Thank you

Aside

Some Mornings’


Some Mornings, you just want to stay on bed, and you just want to lay there, you don’t care what the clock says, you don’t think about the daily routine,

You take it as a need to feel good, like you never felt of having it, you want to sleep more and more though you actually don’t sleep,

You have the node of listening everything what happens out there, but you prefer to be inside the blanket, sometimes with the folding of legs, and some times with one sided sleeping posture,

It happens more in the winter days where you just can’t bare the mighty cold shivering conditions,

it happens quite often when you are taking leave or it is a holiday,

It is both today, a Sunday and of course it’s winter, I have to say that it feels lethargic somewhere but who cares, I don’t care .

staying on bed inside the blanket, laying not sleeping, listening not reacting, and posting a new post is not that bad as it looks ..

As it is winters with minus degree Centigrades around with chilled breeze, and also Sunday so it is actual quite cool to sleep for some long hours,

the kind of relaxation the body needs,

And in between all this lazy mornings you may even plan your best schedule for the coming hours, days,weeks,and months,

Infact a good soothing music, with the love of your life could bring some unmatched happiness, and unfold some hidden fantasies..

And the ones who are not being accompanied by their partners or are singles have their own ways to enjoy.. 🙂

We are quite different here on being lazy, we have our ways to do things differently,

Some prefer to have phonecalls by being under blanket,

Some can have long chats with their friends, lover, &any other as well.

some are wrapped that they could look scary as well. As a part of them is visible and you have to find the rest like a jigsaw puzzle. The can sleep in impossible posture .

Some can sit but they can’t leave the cushion if blanket, they look bloody cute, they may tap limitless naps as well,they can sleep sit eat and talk at the same time.

Who else like/have such mornings..?


#lastsundayoftheyear

#lastsundayofthedecade

Quote

Definitely You..


I know….

I have more things to do…

But I have my own selected priorities , though it look silly to some and careless to many..

But yes i do have my priorities.. And the most prior of the priorities is you…

Definitely You.

Life starts with you and Ends at you

I can’t be a writer….


So, Then I have realized that I can’t be a writer as it needs lot more than just writing good and real,

As It requires a lot of materialistic things, and many more fabricated insights, one can’t be a writer if he/she is willing to write with the pure emotions and substance which makes him feel to write,

They may put words and also may compile it , but it would not be enough to get attention and readers, you need more spices,

And by having such spice you may tend to loose your original idea of the article or plot,

You may write but you will never get satisfied with your work as you have opted for the additives of the trend.

You may even find your self in a state where you are doing your work but for the choice of others,

The tears , pains , emotions, happiness, sacrifice, selfishness, tragedy etc etc of your work will only get attention if it has some layering of everything in trend be it a title of the article or the visualization of it,

sometimes you may need to promote it like a salesman, the original description of pain and happiness with the words came from heart may not by liked by the readers, they have their choice of interest and it has nothing to do with the effort you kept for writing,

You and your writeup will be discarded within sometime. As you may not had the ingredients they were looking for..

You can’t be what they want , as you can’t diminish your creativity..

But you can’t survive with what you feel and write ,as everyone has options more than the choice..

Think About it.

Love to sleep over your Lap


Lap…

I love to sleep over your lap,

I feel so calm,

Also sleepy..

My worries don’t haunt me anymore..

And I am not the same insomniac ..

Also, I don’t have headaches..

I feel so good…

Chilled and relaxed..

I feel free to breathe,

All my tensions get vanished..

Yes your Lap,

similar to my mother’s lap,

the warm and soothing Lap..

Lap ,

just love to sleep over your lap.

Let me sleep over your lap.

I never loved you.


That day with some tears , she came to him and said, I feel sorry to you for being so helpless , I am sorry, I know you love me a lot and i really don’t need any evidence as I can feel it,

but I never loved you dear ,

yes this is what the truth is, I just wanted to be their with you till my parents search someone for me to get married,

yes I never loved you, I just acted to be in love with you, I loved your company and everything you did for me ,

yes I never thought About this day, but I should have thought about it,

I am very bad I know,

but this is what the truth is,

I just wanted to get along in a busy status of relationship till my marriage as my friends were teasing me for living a life without boyfriend,

so I did all that for which I am feeling sad.. I know I played with your emotions… But I am sorry..

As I know you have been serious for me and I was just doing it for fun and showoff. I am sorry ,it is really bad and embarrassing…

And the guy was listening without believing….

With some tears and confusion.


***Don’t Play with Emotions..

***How should the guy react to it ? And what would be your reaction if you find yourself at such situation?

Even I accepted their lies.


They asked me few things about an issue, actually they wanted me to answer it either in a spicy way or they wanted to put me in some troublesome state,

I smilingly said why you people are asking me this.? Don’t you believe their stated truths, Or you feel that I need to say my version.

They said we want to know your side.

I replied, There is no my side or their side, there is truth and their false.

So you have to see what you take from their talks,

We don’t believe them, they said.

I answered I believe them, as I don’t care about anything now , I have nothing to loose. And they may be putting the right things forward, I don’t know what they are saying though, but even I accepted their lies, I can’t do much either.

As even don’t know the real truth. And I have nothing to do with the truth now, as they did what they wanted to, and the damage couldn’t be recovered ever, but yes they have been good in chopping and presenting things in their suited way.

But, I don’t have any interest in giving justification to anyone, or to put my side on the issue. As I am not here to prove Anything to anyone, I know my side I am right by best of thoughts, and deep down they also know what is right and what is not right, who is culprit and who is not, and above all there is someone who knows everything and he is looking at everything, to whom we call Almighty, The God,

Moreover I heard that, they are too good and the world is too bad ,and I am too bad and the world is too bad , as per the talks what I came to know from the people in between me and them.

Anyways We all are going to pay for the deeds we do , if not today then tomorrow for sure.

if you are good you will receive good things from god , if bad then you have to be ready for the outcome, you can’t get away from your punishments.

So , I don’t care what they are saying as I am only answerable to the god , but in my case it’s God who has to answer me, as he may don’t have any question and I have many to ask him. And it would start from Why me? ?

I hope i will get the answer,!!!

Anyways you are free to think and consider me anything you want as liberty is there for everyone.

But my identity is best known to me and god. Likewise truth is better known to God , culprit and victim.

But if they say I am culprit , then yes I am culprit . nothing to objectify or even feel bad. As they are not the decision makers . so why to think or care about it.

Then they smiled and said you said nothing in particular but said everything.

And I smiled back.

Thank you for reading.

Let’s Stay Independently United.


Good Morning Friends,

Wishing luck and love to all of you, And appealing all to believe in the integrity of our nation and celebrate our Independence,

Yes a Very Happy Independence Day all my friends and fellow Bloggers across the globe.

We all are one, we all believe in Unity .

We all know our history, and the fight against slavery and struggle for freedom.

So, We need to understand the value of the freedom, we have some issues still to fight like Terrorism, Unemployment,crime, communalism, etc etc we need to eradicate all these and the solutions against it,

we have to strengthen our women and should focus on women empowerment,

we need to have a parallel education system, no changes as per the state, one nation one syllabus and one medium, .

we need to fight against the misconception of our so called social reformers and put the right things forward.

Yes we have been doing some good things in the recent times which has brought some more expectations, it’s good the evils like triple talaq and article 370 has been removed, also the reservation have been offered to the people who are economically weaker, irrespect of the their caste.

We have to accept that somewhere we needed these transformations,

But we need more and more to bring back the title of The Golden Bird for our country. And I believe we can do that.

Let’s fight against the poor mindsets, and stay united for the Harmony and peace.

We all make India, The India world knows.

Let’s stay Independent for ever and take our independence for more generations to come.

Let’s Stay Independently United.

Yes I Am a Proud Indian like Any other Indian. And I believe we all should be.

Happy Independence Day!!!

Mera Bharat Mahaan!!

Jai Hind!!

Pray 4 Kerala…


Good Morning friends,

We all are quite aware of the issues Kerala is facing now, with heavy rains and flood kind of situations ,in fact many portions of southern India is dealing with it,

Kerala is in deep trouble, they face it every next time and I read this on s portal that it happens because of unplanned development, landslides and floods occurs mainly because of poor decisions taken for having developments, they discard the demands of nature, they opt for deforestation,rock cuttings, poor water harvesting etc

Anyways, we need to stand by them in their tough situations, let’s stick together and help them , we could help them in any possible manner like offerings charity, donating essentials like food and basics.

If you are good enough then I would request you to share your bit for them. And it could be anything they need food ,clothes, water, raincoats ,medicines etc you may Google it to do it.

I have been following news about it 8 districts have been declared as red alerted. 150+ individuals are missing ,20+ people are died, (Numbers may vary)

Imagine abundance of water everywhere you see and its still raining, you desiring for life to live with your family, but don’t how to survive. Being unsheltered,sick ,and hungry.

It is horrible and tragic.

Same is with Karnataka and Maharashtra, the people who are there are facing trouble as well, in fact the States residing next to the Western Ghats have been declared to have heavy rainfall and may face severe landslides .

Our Govt. is trying their best but don’t why they do it after the occurrence, as I believe “preventions is better than cure”. Anyways hoping for the best.

But Kerala has been the most affected state so far by being the most green and beautiful. And of course my favourite.

Lets do it as a human being. let’s pray for them, let’s pray for Kerala, and urge god in our prayers about all the Kerala people, as praying for the person next to you is also a kind of concern.

Thank you.

They say…..


They say I am too good for this,

And they say I am too bad to be here,

they say you may think that way or even this way,

they say you can’t do this,

And they say only you can do this ,

they say you may have think so, And they say you may have thought that,

they say you have mood swings,

Also, they say you have overconfidence,and rash attitude,

they say you can’t do much,

As you are sick with your actions,

Also you are carefree,Negligent and over rated.

Wait,

How do they say so, ?

Do they have any clue about me?

how could be they saying so,

how they can be presuming about my mind, and heart, ?

how they are so judgemental!

And why?

Who are they to think that I may think or may have thought so,

Why they consider me so...?

What gives them that courage to be so considerable about me.

Literally What ???

Look & Listen

I am not like what you presume or consider ,

I am just way beyond your imaginations.

I love being Me,

I won’t mind if you think I have attitude or I am carefree.

I have something about which you can only dream to have.

And that’s my originality I am not fake,

I am Rude ,or care free.

I have my head high for everything I do.

And I don’t need a certificate for being selfless from you.

I am not this or that,

I don’t think this way or that way,

I am Too Good for your mind to pick or presume.

And it’s only me who know it better that what I can do and what I can’t, Got it .

Take care!


**Don’t be Judgemental about anyone, as they know themselves better.

Bad at Response.


Good Afternoon Guys,

Today I am here with something to discuss which you may like , or may not but let’s discuss it.

Guys, we often see such people in our daily life who have the tendency of speaking more and also speaking less, and it actually varies from individual to individual as per their own choices,

But there is one other kind of people who speak relevantly good but have the tendency of showing disinterest to your talks, they will be available to you but with half of their heart, even if they are not half hearted but there traits will make you think so,

they will give smiles, as reply, they may give you one liners sometimes even one words, they make reaction with expressions, they may listen but pretends to not listen, or they will change the topic at their will, which is actually disheartening to the individual who is eagerly waiting for a respected response,

It actually makes you think that this man/woman don’t want to talk or may be not interested to talk or may have some attitude issues. Which is very much okay by their observations, as they are receiving such vibes from the other end so they may presume that,

Even I don’t want to be in a conversation where the individual is finding words on instalments, I speak with my heart and also with a reason, and want the partner to speak well, and react whenever needed, not sure how you people think about it,

But my opinion is this , and to have a healthy conversation, the two individual should have enough interest to speak and listen, one should not speak alone and vice versa.

And it has nothing to do with the choice of context or with the subject of talks, they have the tendency of speaking in that way as they prefer it, regardless of the subject of talks.

Of course I am not saying that everyone is blessed with good speaking skills or talkativeness, but it is not about the limited skills or the other, the individuals who act unavailable or who react late or selective with responses are actually Bad at listening skills and of course with the speaking skills, even with the reactive skills ,

they should learn and improve, as it is actually a graveyard for themselves, as they are actually creating barriers between their loved ones with bits and pieces of words.

Like they sound RUDE,FAKE,And ANNOYING!

And someone with really bad Etiquettes,

And no one prefers to talk with a person who has 3-4 words for every single thing you say, or may prefer to talk when it is needed the most with some sadness.

This is what I feel , Don’t know Right or wrong,

Do share your opinions if you feel so.

Thank you

You look good when you smile :)


You look good when you smile, 🙂

I see some holes on your chubby cheeks,

Like drilled,

Yes, They say Dimples!

You look good when you smile, 🙂

With some zig zag Pattern of teeth with a little wider lips,

Which you don’t like,

but it looks pretty cool to me,

So don’t need to hide.

Show More , Smile More!!

You look good when you smile, 🙂

As your tiny little round eyes gets closed,

Though not completely closed,

but it looks like closed.

You look good when you smile , 🙂

As you smile without any fear,

And I consider it real and pure,

not fake for sure.

Like the new born baby smile without the reasons we know!!

You look good when you smile 🙂

So keep on Smiling !!!


***Good Night And Smile Please!

I Find You Cute.


I find you cute, seriously cute.

When you smile in between the intense arguments,

I find you cute, when you try to sing sharp with a bad voice.

When you try and match your clothes with mine for every party,

I find you really very cute,

When you ask me to close the umbrella even if i don’t like rain, with a polite request.

I find you cute when you share all the boring stories of your friends,without my interest.

I find you cute, when I see you talking and crying at the same time.

I find you cute , when you play the music of my favorite composer, whenever I am in stress.

I find you cute , when you put your head on my shoulder and talk ,

And in between that you sleep on my shoulder, which is even more cute.

I find you cute when you ask me a kiss on your forehead,

I find you cute with me, this way and also that way ,

I find you cute every time.

As You are Really Cute.


Good Night

Both are important.


Well most of my friends are unhappy with me,

They find me Annoying,

They call me everything what they hate,

They say I am unavailable being available to them,

They say you can’t be like this to us,

I try to convince them,but they don’t listen,

They are Right in their ways, I have to be with them if I am with them,

But I am with my love interest,

If not being next to her always then through my phone,

I feel good for the fact that she feels good when I am connected to her either next to her with holding a hand or through calls or even chats,

My friends don’t like my life style and priority,

But I don’t want to see her sad, as she feels sad and bad when I don’t message or call her and don’t lift her call,

I lie her sometimes that yes you wished me the first birthday wish, though sometimes she is second as my mother wishes before than her may be a fraction of second earlier,

Even if its a lake or I am at some public place I text her, as she wants to feel the ambiance with me and my words. I like it, its not that I am not enjoying it.

But its a cheat with my friends.

She enjoys everything of my talks ,

Even my sick poor cheap jokes, at which no one can laugh.

And of course my way of care,

She just love talking to me,

She says ” I will be fine I don’t need a doctor, you are the doctor and the medicine is our conversation.” When she gets sick.

I Remember that ,

I talked to her through calls and texts for around 20hrs continuously with a charger plugged in, whenever needed.

She loved the gesture, and even felt good to be with her when she needed me.

I have to talk as she my love and I can’t see her sad,

After knowing that her sadness is my unavailability and lesser communication.

But what to do with my friends ,they are not wrong either.

They want me as their friend as I have been,

She asks me to pick one sometimes,

somehow I skip the question with an ice cream or some deep discussion about my career, but i am worried with the picking of one.

I may pick her over them by being a selfish lover but I wouldn’t be Happy with that, I know as my friends are also important .!

Love them and Love her also. Both have their importance but yes one priority is not happy when I am with the another priority.


***We can’t decide who comes first and who is second, of course it’s both which make us what we want to be, so its important to make them understand their importance in our life, one can’t be another and vice versa. Both are differently important in life. It’s harsh and unfair to pick and choose.

Me Versus mE


I’m fighting within me.

My Mind And Heart is Dealing with Duality,

The Writer,

And An Engineer,

Both are Right and Both are Mine

Both Sleeps with me,

And Wake with me as well,

Both Fights Within Me.

Both Dominate The Other.

Both put my in trouble.

As I don’t know which way to Go.

I love writing and expressing my thoughts.

I Love to be in the charge with the tag called Engineer.

One is my hidden Pleasure,

Another is my portrayed obsession.

One is my Expansion to the Dream,

Another is my source of existence.

Can’t Pick One

Can’t settle with one.

I am Both,

And I want Both.

But It is Tough to be Both.

I feel Like it is Me Versus mE.

You Are Beautiful.


You like The Roses, Right !

I like the color called blue a lot,

yes all the shades of blue,

What about The Roses in Blue color !

Layer by layer,

The petals of Roses in Blue color.

With some drops of dew over it,

Which would add the glittering effect.

You like wearing shorts more,

As you love your legs,

Yes long sexy legs,

And I like short hair ,

Colored short hair more, As world is beyond monochrome,

What about you being in your favourite shorts,

With the sexy long legs,

And the colored short hair,

Around the shoulder height,

And the slightly soothing smooth breeze,

Adding the visual treat .

Visualizing the scene more and more

And Feeling good about it,

To see you in the colored hair with a Blue Rose,

Also wearing the shorts

And showing your sexy legs.

With a token in my hand to give you

With a note written

“You are Beautiful”

Virgin…


After 2 years of her marriage ,

Pia came back to India to stay with her family, so many of her friends came to meet her,

they asked her many random questions about her and husband,

like,

how is your marriage,?

You both are happy ?

How you have been these days etc.

she said yes I am happy as I look. And we are living with all possible happiness.

Her friend (Nisha) said , all good !that’s enough as you have been the most reserved girl from our group! And went to abroad all of a sudden .

Pia replied ‘ yes i have been very shy and reserved.,

Pia asked – What about you, are you still flirting with all?

Nisha replied- yes sometimes for fun and sometimes for seriously nothing.

But tell me about you how good is your life, you are looking different, he is nice to you right?

I mean why you came alone where is he?,

Pia replied ‘ of course he wanted to come but he had some commitments.

yes I can’t tell you about it in details but I feel so lucky to be his wife.

Her friend was not convinced as she can observe that her eyes were saying something else.

She again, asked her the same question in a different way,

” hey your husband is a rich guy , I saw his profile has some good money in the bank and also have a lot of property etc right?.”

She replied ‘ yes so.

Her friend puzzled pia ” are you not excited with that, like money ,property cars etc.

pia replied “yes if it excites you then I am also excited.”

Her friend could sense that pia is missing something, she asked her again and again by some promises and all.

Pia replied ” yes I am married I love him and he loves me, yes he is rich and talented that’s it,

but you know what I feel like i am still partially virgin,

Yes we travelled everywhere but not like a couple , he was there with some work and consignments.

And I was there to make him feel stress relieved whenever needed.

He has been there with me, but not there for me, more for status showoff. To show it to the world through social networking sites.

And you know how we love, it is more like robots following some of the mating commands.

Yes He is a proper straight man and i am also proper straight girl, nothing odd as it sounds.

but the fact is that, he only touched my body and not my soul, and never allowed me to get in his zone of privacy.

We are not connected to each other like we should have.

My body is not virgin my friend but yes my emotions are , my heart is not there when I am with him because he is not also there with me, its more like a task to him or an activity to loose stress for him, that’s it,

he is busy with his cigars and phone ,

he is there but he is not there with me actually ,

he loves his work more than himself. He love me but his style of love is not what I like may be he don’t even know how to love.

He has a time for everything like 10mins for breakfast , 5mins for getting ready etc,

he is a big time management insect.

It’s good professionally.

but not for the layers of love to get unfolded.

But I am happy as I can’t be sad.


***Love is beyond the materialistic happiness. Love them with everything you have,not just posting pictures and buying gifts.

Thank you Mr. Sharma


Just saw you there for the very first time at the coffee shop behind my office.

you have been playing & posing with the bunch of flowers .And waiting eagerly for your cup of coffee.I was there with a Client for a business meeting,But I hardly heard a word of him,As I was watching you without a blink,like a serious stalker,Still unsure about it as I have been a sophisticated guy,More like a Gentleman. But that day,I was like dumb, deaf and numb,Yes completely numb.I wanted to sit in the same table,And ask many questions like,”hey what’s your name?”can we exchange our numbers”?Though i have been very bad in getting numbers, yes seriously !And then you just disappeared from the scenes.Of course, i searched you everywhere in the city but I failed.I was sick and sad for more than a month.Then, one fine morning at my doors when I was there to collect the packets of milk,I saw you ,you are my new neighbor ,Yes , Niece to Mr. Sharma and came to pursue your Post Graduation.And trust me ,I tried a lot to be the best genuine neighbor but I failed deliberately.As I wanted to be more than just neighbors from day one.And slowly,Steadily,even you started liking me,And see where we are now,Tomorrow is our marriage.

Well, Thanks to Sharma Uncle for being my dear neighbor,

And Giving me my Love for life.


*****sometimes we find what we search just next to us though we tend to search it everywhere being impatient. So just pray , believe and work hard, miracles do exists.*****But yes fortune favours the brave.

Aside

Love Scoops… The Romantic Tale


They both were watching a movie and it was around 2am, everyone except them were sleeping, it was a good regional movie which they were watching, and suddenly she realized that no one is awake, she whispered with a touch on his feet, ” hey, all are sleeping except us” !

He turned every where around him at once, and said “yes it is quite late so obviously, they will sleep , and they may have watched the movie . so let them sleep, it’s a nice scene of the movie look at it .”

She again turned every where. And said “look it’s too dark everyone is sleeping.”

He replied with some irritation, “so what ? are you scared of ghosts or what, don’t bother about all that , ghosts don’t exists.”

She said “are you crazy I am thinking something else. You are such a fool.”

He was still unsure and continued watching the movie.

She took the remote in her hand and asked him to look towards her if he wants her to continue the movie, now he could understand what was there in her mind,

He looked towards her and she looked towards him with smiles and glitters .. She was shining like a star in the dark room,

He somehow managed to touch her feet, and they both were still looking to each other,

she kissed the palm of his hands with shivering all over her body.

As they both were sharing such physical touchdowns for the very first time in their life.

And they were just one day old confessed lovers, so it was there first love and also their first scoop of love.

They both were shaky at the night, as they were young and confused with desperation, and it was all happening to them at a place where they were invited as guest, by a common family friend.

They both decided to turn off the TV. As they were not watching it also it was giving more than lightning needed to them.

They came close to each other now,without any light, and soundtrack.

They were not sure how much loving is ethically good, and how to stop love at such point.

She asked him that are you feeling something different, like me. I am feeling like something is there in my stomach may be huge amount of butterflies are flying.

He replied “yes, I am excited yet nervous, I can’t tell that what I am feeling but yes, you brought this idea in mind. I was watching movie like a fool. ”

She looked at him, smiled and kissed on his hand again,for 3-5 minutes. Like she has been paused.

He also kissed her on her hands, forehands, shoulder ,cheeks, neck and forehead. Without any hesitation.

She was stunned with such reaction, as it was beyond her expectations.

Though she liked his passionate love.

They lost themselves in that moment, their nervousness and shyness has gone somewhere.

And there kisses were audible now,

Can you come to the washroom he asked , she said I was about to ask you this. But what would you do there.? She asked with a smile.

He replied everything. What we are doing now, we would be doing better than this.

She said that’s it?

Nothing else.

He said I don’t know, may be a bit more.

She smiled and kissed him on her cheeks and said okay. I am going you join me there.

But be cautious while you will be coming.

So that we may not be caught,

In reply he said ‘yes yes go first’ !

She goes..

He was about to go..

And suddenly he came to know that grandmother of one of them has just woke up, and slowly searching her glasses and drinking water, and sat on her bed .

She came outside of the washroom and asks the grandmother to sleep, but she declines to sleep as she just saw a bad dream.

That means they neither continue their love at hall nor at the washroom.

They both go to their respective places as they both were aware that movie is also not there to sit together, they passed the flying kisses and sleep apart, and thanking god for such a lovely night.

love her!


I want that Tight Hug from you..

Just a Gentle Push towards the wall,

And Hold me Hard,

Yes, Harder than an air lock,

I have been waiting for you with all my heavy breathes..

Yes I am sick , & Uncomfortable,

the doctor advised to sleep and sleep for at least a week,

Look I painted my nails with Red colour…

And coloured my hair as well,

Similar to your favorite Hollywood Girl,

You may like it, and love me more.

Please Love me .. I want your love.

Show some care ..

I haven’t ate from yesterday,

I want to eat from your hands,

I don’t like those pills..

I need you, and your love..

Not those pills..

They can’t cure me..

Love me with all the passion ,

You may like the body temperature,

Yes my eyes look a bit sleepless,

But I will sleep tonight ,

I swear, just love me please…

Show some care….!!

Stay with them more , they need you in their tough times more than anything else.

Queen by heart…


She came with so many Dreams,

She explored all the Horizons,

She created magic everywhere she looked,

She is kind,

And also beautiful,

She is not a queen by birth,

Not even a magician with her tricks,

She is an ordinary girl with all the ingredients of Queen,

Who creates illusion with her charm,

Truly she is Queen By heart!

That one friend!


we all need that one friend for life,

who laughs at our lame jokes,

who cry with us at our tough times

who stands with you when the world is apart,

we all need that one friend for life,

who fights for us without a care

who is happy with our happiness

And sad with our sadness,

we all need that one friend for life,

who finds you in the biggest of crowds.

we do search for such one friend,

but sometimes we never find anyone of such kind!

Who selflessly stays with you in the thick and thin of your life.

They are lucky who have such friends. Hope they live long together with smiles.

Sleep Again ! – An Erotic Poem


I want to sleep again, as you disturbed me in between,

yes you rang ,

you stupid alarm,

we were at the peak of our love, yes you rang , you stupid alarm.

let me tell you what the dream was,

I can remember that it was very dark and he hugged me tight,

we were tumbling this and that way of the bed,

Yes he kissed me with some lusty passion ,

sometimes at my lips & sometimes at my hips,

I really love that noisy smooches,

like I swallow my long sized noodles,

Love that chocolate coated over my lips, which he tasted with some bites.

yes I wanted it again and again ,

Of course I love that sheer passion, as i was about to die with pleasure and pain.

Yes I want to sleep again to watch the same dream again,

And this time I don’t want you to disturb,

As i want to finish the remainings.

***And then she switched off her alarm and slept again.

The Orange Lipstick


Another Day, and it is another wedding of a dear friend, at some distance from my home town , we took over basics and decided to reach the wedding place by a day before,

Our rooms were near to the rooms of girls from the other side , everyone was trying their bit to see some one and have some short love story as it happens in the Indian marriages,

I was more busy in doing this and that of the marriage,

may be not that good in impressing girls, so left it for my friends.

But we all know that we have to expect the unexpected, always

She came with some music instrument, they call it guitar, I don’t know much about it,

Yes she sings beautiful ,heard by standing next to the dirty bathrooms as the place was filled with many more lovers of her.

Whole night I was Singing the same songs and my friends were laughing at me,some of them even pleaded me to stop singing 🙂 ,

Next day , I purposely took the breakfast to her room, and knocked the door, she said yes who is this?

I acted like I don’t know English.

She came and said love you for this I was hungry, with some good shade of orange lipstick and a big smile of Thanksgiving!!

And I left the place with some winks and smiles and also with some orangish fantasies.

Now the infatuation turned into some serious love,

Met her with the real identity and proposed her as well , with gifting her the same kind of orange lipstick.

She liked the way I approached,

She took it , opened it and applied it on her lips with a smile..

I was looking at her lips without a blink for hours,

And then she whispered, would you like to taste some orange juice, from my lips. :p

Thank you!

S H A D E S


It was around 2 am , he reached his home, which was at 4th floor of the famous apartment in that city.

He was extremely tired with the stress and strain of the day, as finding job is more tougher than doing the job,

some how he managed to change the formal wears with shorts and took his sleep.

he was an aspiring actor who was searching opportunities.

But yet to get a call for acting,It has been 3months of joblessness.

So he was frustrated in a way, but he was there to prove the people wrong who discarded him and his talent in the auditions he gave so far.

So, the next morning he woke up with the same fighting spirit and gone for many more offices for auditions,

And again no one even looked at his portfolio and rejected him,

Now , it was around 3pm, he was about to feel sad and hungry at the same time, he received a call from a reputed ad agency, he ran and reached the agency with some nervousness ,he was asked to sit, then he was about to face the owner,

But she lefts the place.

He was stated by the manager that he has to do AD of some detergent, he was ready with the incoming and accepted it,

Next Day, he reached the place and he saw the other side of acting world,

he saw that there are many guys and girls are being asked for audience for the same AD in which he was already part, he was confused that why this audition is going on,

before he could now he came to know that they are doing it as preventive method, as they may replace him if he does not do good

Some how he managed to impress and did a good job, now in the same set he met the owner,

she is beautiful with some temper issues he observed, she cleared his amount for the ad and asked him to meet again in the evening by sharing her card.

He agreed and left.

In the evening he called the no. Printed on the card,

She didn’t lift and dropped a message in which she shared her address of farm house .

He manages to go there. It is 7pm now

He again calls. This time her phone is in a silent mode. Some how he enter the house.

He could hardly find the purpose of calling him there.

Then he enters , he is still not sure what’s going on.

And suddenly he finds a weird thing of being locked from outside. He is scared now, who is there ? He shouts.

She smiles and says relax , and in between this she offers him some drink and it was not tea or coffee .

he says madam I am OK may I know what’s the reason to call me here. Is there any big project,

she says yeah. It is bigger than you thought,

As You have to impress me, or Should i say satisfy me! By sitting over a couch in a navy blue dress with some alcoholic eyes and unconditioned hair falling over her shoulder she says..

He is shocked now. And says excuse me! What?

She smiles again and asks him to come closer,

And says look, I am searching fun and you are searching success,

so should I say that you are the next star of the country. But for becoming the star you have to go with what I prefer for you.

Look I know that you are from a small town and these things are new , but you may have seen the amount of aspirants near my office and you may be in a confusion that how and why you have been selected. And I hope you are by now quite clear with your doubts.

And Pulls him towards her with showing some of her visible body parts,

I saw your photographs in the portfolio and I decided that you will be in the ad, now I want you to be in the next project but for that you have to impress me in every prospect.

I know you are good at work as you are very hardworking as told by the director ,

Let me check whether you are equally good at other works or not she whispered.

He replied I am good enough to earn money I think I don’t need to do this or that to become a star so thank you I am happy with it. I would like to go now, let the doors get open. He removes her hand over his neck.

She smiled and says ,

you know what the small town people are so poor they can’t take life smoothly, I am beautiful rich and also successful and u need opportunity which only I can provide but you are saying no to me. Do you know how fool you are ! Again she snatches few buttons of his shirt and pulls him towards her.

He says yes I am fool , and happy with it and I don’t want to become star as well.. You are beautiful and also i need opportunity but it does not mean that I would do something which is not good ,

I am not here for sale. Let me go! He slaps her and firmly looks her with anger,

He Breaks the door and left the place. But she was not happy with what happened. As she had other ideas for him, and felt like rejected.

Next Day,

He was saddened now with the side effects of his dream and decides to leave the city. But in between the rush he has been called from another production house , they were seeking some one who is new and talented and found him as the perfect choice through his previous audience.

Six Months Later,

He is the star by his own merit without any comprises.

And finds the same lady in every other business parties and looks her like he saw nothing.

And one bad day he came to know that the lady has been killed at her own farm house from one of her longtime victim.

Good Day!

The Obsession…


Observing the obsession by searching the same eye contacts everywhere I go..

Observing the obsession by every similar fragrance I smell…

Observing the obsession when I accidentally turn back to look the same tiny little girl with a mild makeup like you..

Observing the obsession when I stare any girl wearing that light pink salwar suit with churidar..

Observing the obsession when I try to talk with comfort with everyone around me …

Observing the obsession when I think about you with a big smile on my face..

Observing the obsession when I stand and see any girl going with her head down..

Observing the obsession when i dream about you at nights..

Observing the obsession when I try to find you on every public platforms..

And observing the obsession now , as I am writing this post about you..

Happy Diwali !!!


Happy Diwali……to all my dear lovely bloggers and Readers…

May all the happiness, Harmony and success comes your way…

May every Light of love and peace falls at your place..

May you enlighten the brightest of vision to design the world to its best..

May you bring out the best Version of yours as a human being..

Enjoy this Diwali with lights.. And Bring the smile on our next needy near your surrounding…

Say No to Crackers..

Say no to Pollution..

Say no to Danger…

Happy Diwali…Have Fun.. enriched with All the culture and Tradition.

LoVeAndOnlyLove.


The Story of my love started with your smiles…

Strengthened with my anger..

Grown with your promises..

Nurtured with my beliefs..

Affected with the people around us…

Spoiled with the insecurities….

Ruptured with the traps of your loved ones..

Finished with your decision..

Separated by the society..

Not ended with my loneliness..

And

ReLiving Love with WordPress..

She was in a Grey Saree..


She just came from her workplace .

And she realized that their is no one their , she thought it is good to have some private moments with her lover, she called him to come and join her as they both were seeking some space for them..

He came without wasting much time…

She was in grey sari…with a visibility of her navel….which was even stranger for her boy as she has been   a shy girl..

But she was in a different mood on that noon…

She told him to kiss on her neck when she will stand in the opposite direction as she always felt that romance from the back is her kind of thing…

As he was the obedient fellow he agreed for doing this…

Now, she should stood near the window so that she can have a look at the main gate, and asked him to kiss her…

He came closer to her ..his right hand was over her waist, and the left hand was busy in clearing her hair aside so that he could kiss her on her neck from back…

Now slowly he cleared her long hair from her neck and kissed her on her neck..

And the right hand from the waist has came to stomach and was playing around the navel, and in between she tried to control his hand by her hand..

And the kiss made her eyes close…

She hold him tight and whispered ” just stay with me forever …i cant imagine my life without you… ”

She kissed him on his cheeks and forehead…

Slowly she left her hand as she was in complete temptation…

And who wants to control emotions…

They were in full swing of love …

But in between their romance they realized it is good to control their notions…

An Interview !


Hey Guys, I gave an interview today, which has been good but not as an engineer as a content writer. They asked me to write on a topic called cyber security on last week or so, which I completed and mailed them and then they called me for the face to face interview today,

so I took a leave from my work for today, as I entered the office I saw three girls were having their work on their computers, I have been asked to sit and wait, then the fellow came may be the boss may not be I am not sure as he was not looking like a boss almost same age,

he asked few questions to me in which the first one was that why I am switching my career from an engineer to content writer?

Is it just for following your passion? Or you have any other ideas?

What you have been doing over their ?

What is your job role and how much you are earning ?

How the idea of writing came to you ? will you leave your job ?

I am still not sure you changed 3 companies in the span of 4 years ,how I could be sure that you won’t leave this job?

What kind of content you write ?Etc etc

And I was like oh my god…. So much at once..

Then gradually started answering him that,

I am not going to leave my job I would rather provide the contents through mail,

I have been in a project based company so I have to change the companies if it does not have the project, as I can’t be jobless.

Yes it is passion but I would be happy if I could convert it as my profession.

Also I explained the job role and about my remuneration .

So by now, he was quite clear about me and I think quite impressed also, then he told me to write something in front of him, which should about 600+words,

I was not happy with it as I was getting late and I had different work to do, but he told me to do it as it also the part of the interview ,

the topic was ‘Branding on social media’ as he was Branding Head over their.

Then I was running short of options ,so accepted the task and completed it in just 20mins+ . Google was there to have an overview but plagiarism was strictly not allowed and I even don’t believe in doing such cheaper trics.

then I mailed the same to the individual and to the HR deptt. And they asked me to wait for the review and interview result . I said sure thanks.

Let’s see what happens. Luckily I have both my tasks in the sent mail of my email I’d. So that I can check and see what I did good and bad. If any of want to have a look can ask me it is very much for you all.

Thank you for the time.

Trying to make it bigger…


Hello friends…

Just thought to share what I have been Thinking..

Yes its high time now. And I want to convert my interest into some serious profession.

As I really want to make it count and stretch my limit through which I could attain the maximum reach and some remuneration also.

So, Looking forward to get into the job of a content writer / online blogger on part/full time basis , so that I could say that my hobby and profession is not different any more.

I don’t think that it is a shame to let others know what I have in my mind at least not from the people who proclaim to follow me and like my work.

Please let me know your suggestions and do share your support in the context of my post.

It would be worthy if I will get true responses from the people to whom I say my fellows.

Please let me know it it is replicating your demands of search.

Thank you

15.04.2017…the day to remember


Thank you…

Thank you so much god

Thank you all who have supported me in most the toughest phase of my life so far..

I will remember this day forever….

I must say that this date has came very late in my life …this late has taken a lot from me my love …my pride… my passion …my believe …my quench.. my respect… my goal… my path .. My style …my hunger..my rest …my faith…my emotions… My tears and my desired life…

Today when I have achieved this it’s just pity that the person with whom I wanted to share it with priority is not with me…she has her own priorities.. And when I was willing to achieve this..when she was willing from to Achieve I was just unable to do ..god I don’t know much about your games but yes it’s very painful for me…I am very nostalgic today I hope I can share this with her before I die…I hope I can realize her that leaving me was never the right call…sorry bit I want to prove her decision wrong…I love her and will love her for the rest of my life but I cannot forgive her for the cheat and betrayal ….this life is enough I still believe for me to prove your decision wrong….and I will prove it for sure… I wish u and me can come together again and will celebrate our small happy moments..life give my happiness back plz….
Thank you god for at least thinking about me after a long delay….I hope from now I on u will be kind on your most admired child…..thank you again to u and all from my best wishers including my family…