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Pick Me Out of Many….


Pick me out of many,

Place me in your favourites, Please me in the best of your times,

Pardon me if I don’t Repeat the same.

Pardon me if I don’t repeat the same…..

Not because I can’t do , But because I can’t Express…

I have my layers of Availability which is somehow practically not visible.

Not Visible because of my existence..

Existence to Feel and Express.

Yes I do Expect a lot from me,

but I know my expectations are not worthy Enough..

Worthy Enough to withstand with the demands..

My list is Ready for you.

Just Pick me out of many..

Place me in your favourites..

Please me in the Best of Your Times

And Pardon me if i Don’t Repeat the same.

Pardon Me If I Don’t Repeat the same..

Thank you

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RPR

Pure as Prayer.


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Pure as prayer!!

Partying with prey,

Not crafted,

Not Decorated,

Just Left by the nature,

To Embrace The Beauty Everywhere,

To make you feel,

And to make me feel That We are not even near to the beautiful things created by god,

As we have a hustle to earn more,Burn More,

To fit in somewhere in the materialistic society,

Which is nowhere to the little tiny beautiful Flurries, with wings.

Very Enigmatic,

And Also Colorful,

called as Butterflies,

Yes they are Pure as Prayer.

The Obsession…


Observing the obsession by searching the same eye contacts everywhere I go..

Observing the obsession by every similar fragrance I smell…

Observing the obsession when I accidentally turn back to look the same tiny little girl with a mild makeup like you..

Observing the obsession when I stare any girl wearing that light pink salwar suit with churidar..

Observing the obsession when I try to talk with comfort with everyone around me …

Observing the obsession when I think about you with a big smile on my face..

Observing the obsession when I stand and see any girl going with her head down..

Observing the obsession when i dream about you at nights..

Observing the obsession when I try to find you on every public platforms..

And observing the obsession now , as I am writing this post about you..

Artistically Beautiful!!


 

 

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I saw a Dream,

Dream with my open eyes,
With many more layers of love,
Love,
for the one to whom I never met,
And never saw,
She was Artistically beautiful,
As I don’t think ,
could ever see a lady of such grace.
With Her Beautiful Eyes ,
More like the Moon after eclipse.
With a Little Sharp nose,
May have customized before her birth,
Lips , like Little Roses layered with Dew Drops,
Soft , Smooth and colorful.
She looked like a Beauty with a Mysterious smile,
But before I could solve it,
She Disappeared.

 

 

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That Kiss …!


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That Unexpected Kiss from her on my lips

has turned into

An Extended Kiss from me

which made her realize that

her lips have been bitten,

and it’s her blood which she saw on my lips

and with a smile she said

I think you gave me a love byte…

 

 

 

How could she smile when she has been treated that way?

Why she smiled with a lot of glittering sparks in her eyes?

Why that sweet kiss has turned into a kiss of Blood?

Do you want to have such experience ever in life ?

Anger…!


Hello Folks,

Well before writing anything on this topic I think I have to be honest that I am very angry today. And I don’t know how to control it.

In fact I am against of controlling it is a very important emotion. I have my anger issues which has been the reason of my various fights, arguments, failures, etc. In fact I left few of my previous jobs for the same issue. And I think it is very much with me as I treat it as my body part or my important weapon from the armory.

Although I don’t want to use it but it is something which comes to me quite often then not.

May be I am short tempered. But what I have seen that my anger does not harm anyone as it only raises the modulation of my voices and even make it louder so that it can be audible to the person who is in the 2nd street. I feel bad about it . but yes I have to say that I am very much under control of not being violent. Yes I do get irritated and in between I may say something very harsh but the other side is that even at that level I don’t abuse or cross the line in a verbal spat.

But whatever I do I feel bad about it as I think it is very bad to be so bad on anyone. But I can’t help it at that time. As I am not that sense of thinking something to which I feel afterwards.

I may hit hard on something and hurt my self ,it could be a desks, wall or even a my head. Usually I use to punch with my right hand on the surfaces near by or at my forehead.

Sometimes I even damage the furniture stuffs like chairs, tables etc. It is very bad. But I can’t help it.

I have been like this from my childhood ,my mother told me that I used get very angry if didn’t get what I have been promised to get. My face used to get red and it is even now the same.

So the point is it is good to stay with your emotions even it is anger but the way it comes to us it should have some control. How can we control it? More of you is good as I believe in being original .

Tell me something to control it or to manage it in a better so that it could come and go with very ease. Anger issues are there but yes I don’t hurt anyone I have that notch of being watchful even at extreme level so that I don’t use a bad word and don’t get violent on anyone yes in between this I hurt myself.

My anger stays with me and it plays within until it is not burs-ted on anyone.

Your suggestions are very helpful …please do share it on the comment box. As it is not just a blogging post it is my serious problem with which I really want to overcome.

Thank You

Thank You is Not enough.


My favorite thing is to acknowledge people for being what they are in my life .

Even though we do it quite often , but it’s not enough to say thanks or thank you to them , this does not end their role played in our life.

As we have grown to certain ages we learn , but we forget the ones who were in our school days they are our real friends ,our genuine friends.

The friends who don’t like you because you are Rich , Intelligent , or you are Good Looking.

They are with you because their soul connects. Their heart says that he/ she is my friend irrespective to the variable difference in Gender, Culture ,Caste ,Creed or financial status.
They just come smile and say” hey hello ! you are my friend !”
And the beautiful journey of friendship starts with sharing of Tiff-ins,Books,Notes and Secrets.
And Gradually the time flies before you even notice that you are actually depending on each.
This is the most purest form of friendship.

The Real Friendship .

The true Friendship without any Hidden Interest and Selfishness.
I am glad that I have a friend like this ,called Anchal Lanjewar (Then) now Mrs. Anchal Meshram .
She is the most selfless soul i have ever seen. She has made my school life quite enchanting . she was there for every next possible thing in those days. I remember When i was going with a very bad patch in studies ..

she took the initiative to teach me and I still feel that I could not have cleared the exams if she would not have taught me.
She got Married last year. She has invited me and how could I miss to attend . the only party I attended after years.
I am very happy for her and wish her a beautiful life .

And I am thankful to the god for giving me a friend like her in my life. she will be always my favorite friend . I have said thanks to her many times but its not enough ..
I hardly make friends but when I make I don’t let them go.

This is just a little way to express my gratitude to you and our friendship.
You will be always my favorite friend Anchal.

And I know you will be there for me my friend forever like you have been.

“And Yes Me Aaj Bhi Dimaag ka Dahi karta hu..”

Thank you so much but this is not enough.

Passion….


Just a small way to recreate the magic…

With complete fun and humor .

The life will make u feel more enriched with new reason to feel good…

Leave the sadness, darkness,emptiness,  behind.

Its your life and you are the boss .

Few losses does not make you the loser just fight with your problems till the last breathe of your life no matter whether you end up in a loosing way but you will be considered as the warrior .

You are the King and this is your Kingdom

Love & Live .

Enjoy the beauty within you.

You have the spark.

Don’t give up.

Fire Without a Smoke..


Thanks To That Messy Wall,

Standing There Behind the Garage

With a light more like a moon..

To support and withstand The load of two Passionate Bodies..

With hand over hand..

Feet above feet..

Lips Above And Under Lips..

Tongues Fighting to prove each other best ..

Salvia Intermixed within the mouths, Like the Juices of Oranges and Pomegranate .

And Gulped. .

With Some Enticing sensations in the bottom and Butterflies flying everywhere in the Belly..

Also Some Heavy Breathings and interlocked Eye contacts..

There was Fire Without a Smoke..

And A Never Ending Quench .

Spread Love..

Look At Me.


Hey Listen,

Look at me,

And Just keep Looking at me .

Else Don’t Need to look at all.

Yes, Don’t Need to look at all,

Because Everyone is already looking at you,

And I know how they look at you,

They Look at you even from some distance,

They are just obsessed of you,

with the thoughts of Lust and love.

They Just stuck at you with their filthy focused yet tilted eyes,

With many more feelings of attractions and infatuations.

Just don’t need to look at anyone, because they don’t deserve your look,

Just Look at me ,

And keep looking at me, My Love.

Like I look at you without a blink ,

like I look at you , More than the stars ,moon, and Sun.

As I find me for you,

And You for me,

Not for anyone else.

Just Think , Feel and Relate.

And Look at me only else Don’t look at all… 🙂

Let Me Find.


 

In the search of satisfaction I think I lost my happiness,
and the essence of purity
committing more mistakes than corrections,
Losing a day Now,
And Lost a Day yesterday,
And Also lost many more days before yesterday.
These are preciously important Days of my life.
What’s Wrong?
Where I am?
What I am doing?
Why I am doing?
Don’t know
Don’t have any clue.
I am Lost,
I have more flaws now,
Yes  Not Appropriate,
And also weirdly imperfect
But
How to stop ,
How to fightback
Tell me
I need your help
I really need your help.
To fix things back,
To Swipe out the dirt,
To Find the same space,

 

And Vibe
Let me find,

The same Person Again

Always smiling and always shinning.

 

To You With Love…


To You With Love,

Thank you for being there as someone who looked like a family more, being a stranger from day one,

Thank You for the lovely moments with which I could smile back again. Even if i see them as a mistaken excitement or as an unreal expectation,

I still like the answers you gave and the questions which were inherent, the answers were more easier to understand than self raised questions,

Looking something for some purpose is not good, but looking something as source of satisfaction is not bad,

Yes you have been a source,

A source to do good, and aspire good things in life,

You have been the source of fun , anger, worries, happiness and of course inspiration.

Rather say a source of liveliness

Sometimes it is not that easy to accept the outcome if it is not favouring your life ,

It’s painful and disheartening to withstand with what we Haven’t expected.

But we can’t have everything what we want in life .

Living it and Leaving it.

HELLO 2020


Hey, Hello 2020 …

Welcome,

Welcome to this beautiful world …

Okay , so here I wish you all a very happy new year, may you all live your life with utmost happiness , health and satisfaction.

May all the goals and aspirations get accomplished, may you all find the ways to grow more in every prospect of life.

Also i welcome and greet the brand new year i.e 2020 to our lives,

As we all want to grow and make 2020 a benchmark year.

Let’s leave the bad memories behind and carry forward the positives from the previous year.

Let’s believe in our abilities more than counting excuses,

let’s stay and stick with positivity, purity and persistence.

Let’s smile More than yesterday and plan tomorrow, with living full of life today…

All The Best, keep smiling , Have Fun. 🙂

Happy New Year to all.

There After a Decade..


Okay ,Good Evening Guys !

so I visited the same place. Same temple and clicked the photograph with the same pose. Which and where I was exactly 10 long years ago,
this time to celebrate the 5th birthday of my niece, Janvi.

But now, it has been me and only my family not the one who was with us 10 years ago with unofficial permission.

Like everyone says time flies.
I accept it. Time flies and the situations do change.
Smile remains there but question is about the genuineness of it.

It was not easy to do but did to show to the world and the people around that everything is fine to me now. And I am above such sentiments.

Deep down, silently my heart being the usual human heart was pumping at a speed more than the usual sprint of a horse.

I  Asked to click images randomly so that I could have the best one in the gallery.
But not even a single PIC was good to have. As the smile was fake and my eyes where not ready to face camera, may be heart was not liking it and the face was not supporting my forced Instincts.

Everything there was same to same and I recalled every single moment of mine there a decade ago.
Be it roaming everywhere around there with wheels on my legs, playing stupid pass time games or even captivating energy for some useful work and some how bringing out that WE moments in between.

The roads,The people, the ambiance, the staying rooms, the Temple and of course the God.

Yes I have been a teenager by then and very very care free monk.,with some good etiquettes which I still have,by being real and raw sometimes at heart.

But this time. I have been quite silent  matured rather say changed version of mine,
silently observing everything what was there then and now, also my little eyes went for some tearful ride as well when was alone as I have been mostly by being with many with a reason and with a purpose more personal.
10years ago, never thought about this visit nor the circumstances I am around with, never felt that I have to face such realities in love with hate and cheat.

Forget about it.

I really feel that it has been heavy on my heart at that moment but when I rethink about the same I feel good about it. That overcame my very own created barrier. And surpassed this hurdle.


Anyways ,
Happy Birthday Janvi(Niece).

Thank you

Aside

Some Mornings’


Some Mornings, you just want to stay on bed, and you just want to lay there, you don’t care what the clock says, you don’t think about the daily routine,

You take it as a need to feel good, like you never felt of having it, you want to sleep more and more though you actually don’t sleep,

You have the node of listening everything what happens out there, but you prefer to be inside the blanket, sometimes with the folding of legs, and some times with one sided sleeping posture,

It happens more in the winter days where you just can’t bare the mighty cold shivering conditions,

it happens quite often when you are taking leave or it is a holiday,

It is both today, a Sunday and of course it’s winter, I have to say that it feels lethargic somewhere but who cares, I don’t care .

staying on bed inside the blanket, laying not sleeping, listening not reacting, and posting a new post is not that bad as it looks ..

As it is winters with minus degree Centigrades around with chilled breeze, and also Sunday so it is actual quite cool to sleep for some long hours,

the kind of relaxation the body needs,

And in between all this lazy mornings you may even plan your best schedule for the coming hours, days,weeks,and months,

Infact a good soothing music, with the love of your life could bring some unmatched happiness, and unfold some hidden fantasies..

And the ones who are not being accompanied by their partners or are singles have their own ways to enjoy.. 🙂

We are quite different here on being lazy, we have our ways to do things differently,

Some prefer to have phonecalls by being under blanket,

Some can have long chats with their friends, lover, &any other as well.

some are wrapped that they could look scary as well. As a part of them is visible and you have to find the rest like a jigsaw puzzle. The can sleep in impossible posture .

Some can sit but they can’t leave the cushion if blanket, they look bloody cute, they may tap limitless naps as well,they can sleep sit eat and talk at the same time.

Who else like/have such mornings..?

#lastsundayoftheyear

#lastsundayofthedecade

Quote

Definitely You..


I know….

I have more things to do…

But I have my own selected priorities , though it look silly to some and careless to many..

But yes i do have my priorities.. And the most prior of the priorities is you…

Definitely You.

Life starts with you and Ends at you

I can’t be a writer….


So, Then I have realized that I can’t be a writer as it needs lot more than just writing good and real,

As It requires a lot of materialistic things, and many more fabricated insights, one can’t be a writer if he/she is willing to write with the pure emotions and substance which makes him feel to write,

They may put words and also may compile it , but it would not be enough to get attention and readers, you need more spices,

And by having such spice you may tend to loose your original idea of the article or plot,

You may write but you will never get satisfied with your work as you have opted for the additives of the trend.

You may even find your self in a state where you are doing your work but for the choice of others,

The tears , pains , emotions, happiness, sacrifice, selfishness, tragedy etc etc of your work will only get attention if it has some layering of everything in trend be it a title of the article or the visualization of it,

sometimes you may need to promote it like a salesman, the original description of pain and happiness with the words came from heart may not by liked by the readers, they have their choice of interest and it has nothing to do with the effort you kept for writing,

You and your writeup will be discarded within sometime. As you may not had the ingredients they were looking for..

You can’t be what they want , as you can’t diminish your creativity..

But you can’t survive with what you feel and write ,as everyone has options more than the choice..

Think About it.

Love to sleep over your Lap


Lap…

I love to sleep over your lap,

I feel so calm,

Also sleepy..

My worries don’t haunt me anymore..

And I am not the same insomniac ..

Also, I don’t have headaches..

I feel so good…

Chilled and relaxed..

I feel free to breathe,

All my tensions get vanished..

Yes your Lap,

similar to my mother’s lap,

the warm and soothing Lap..

Lap ,

just love to sleep over your lap.

Let me sleep over your lap.

I never loved you.


That day with some tears , she came to him and said, I feel sorry to you for being so helpless , I am sorry, I know you love me a lot and i really don’t need any evidence as I can feel it,

but I never loved you dear ,

yes this is what the truth is, I just wanted to be their with you till my parents search someone for me to get married,

yes I never loved you, I just acted to be in love with you, I loved your company and everything you did for me ,

yes I never thought About this day, but I should have thought about it,

I am very bad I know,

but this is what the truth is,

I just wanted to get along in a busy status of relationship till my marriage as my friends were teasing me for living a life without boyfriend,

so I did all that for which I am feeling sad.. I know I played with your emotions… But I am sorry..

As I know you have been serious for me and I was just doing it for fun and showoff. I am sorry ,it is really bad and embarrassing…

And the guy was listening without believing….

With some tears and confusion.

***Don’t Play with Emotions..

***How should the guy react to it ? And what would be your reaction if you find yourself at such situation?

Even I accepted their lies.


They asked me few things about an issue, actually they wanted me to answer it either in a spicy way or they wanted to put me in some troublesome state,

I smilingly said why you people are asking me this.? Don’t you believe their stated truths, Or you feel that I need to say my version.

They said we want to know your side.

I replied, There is no my side or their side, there is truth and their false.

So you have to see what you take from their talks,

We don’t believe them, they said.

I answered I believe them, as I don’t care about anything now , I have nothing to loose. And they may be putting the right things forward, I don’t know what they are saying though, but even I accepted their lies, I can’t do much either.

As even don’t know the real truth. And I have nothing to do with the truth now, as they did what they wanted to, and the damage couldn’t be recovered ever, but yes they have been good in chopping and presenting things in their suited way.

But, I don’t have any interest in giving justification to anyone, or to put my side on the issue. As I am not here to prove Anything to anyone, I know my side I am right by best of thoughts, and deep down they also know what is right and what is not right, who is culprit and who is not, and above all there is someone who knows everything and he is looking at everything, to whom we call Almighty, The God,

Moreover I heard that, they are too good and the world is too bad ,and I am too bad and the world is too bad , as per the talks what I came to know from the people in between me and them.

Anyways We all are going to pay for the deeds we do , if not today then tomorrow for sure.

if you are good you will receive good things from god , if bad then you have to be ready for the outcome, you can’t get away from your punishments.

So , I don’t care what they are saying as I am only answerable to the god , but in my case it’s God who has to answer me, as he may don’t have any question and I have many to ask him. And it would start from Why me? ?

I hope i will get the answer,!!!

Anyways you are free to think and consider me anything you want as liberty is there for everyone.

But my identity is best known to me and god. Likewise truth is better known to God , culprit and victim.

But if they say I am culprit , then yes I am culprit . nothing to objectify or even feel bad. As they are not the decision makers . so why to think or care about it.

Then they smiled and said you said nothing in particular but said everything.

And I smiled back.

Thank you for reading.

Let’s Stay Independently United.


Good Morning Friends,

Wishing luck and love to all of you, And appealing all to believe in the integrity of our nation and celebrate our Independence,

Yes a Very Happy Independence Day all my friends and fellow Bloggers across the globe.

We all are one, we all believe in Unity .

We all know our history, and the fight against slavery and struggle for freedom.

So, We need to understand the value of the freedom, we have some issues still to fight like Terrorism, Unemployment,crime, communalism, etc etc we need to eradicate all these and the solutions against it,

we have to strengthen our women and should focus on women empowerment,

we need to have a parallel education system, no changes as per the state, one nation one syllabus and one medium, .

we need to fight against the misconception of our so called social reformers and put the right things forward.

Yes we have been doing some good things in the recent times which has brought some more expectations, it’s good the evils like triple talaq and article 370 has been removed, also the reservation have been offered to the people who are economically weaker, irrespect of the their caste.

We have to accept that somewhere we needed these transformations,

But we need more and more to bring back the title of The Golden Bird for our country. And I believe we can do that.

Let’s fight against the poor mindsets, and stay united for the Harmony and peace.

We all make India, The India world knows.

Let’s stay Independent for ever and take our independence for more generations to come.

Let’s Stay Independently United.

Yes I Am a Proud Indian like Any other Indian. And I believe we all should be.

Happy Independence Day!!!

Mera Bharat Mahaan!!

Jai Hind!!

Pray 4 Kerala…


Good Morning friends,

We all are quite aware of the issues Kerala is facing now, with heavy rains and flood kind of situations ,in fact many portions of southern India is dealing with it,

Kerala is in deep trouble, they face it every next time and I read this on s portal that it happens because of unplanned development, landslides and floods occurs mainly because of poor decisions taken for having developments, they discard the demands of nature, they opt for deforestation,rock cuttings, poor water harvesting etc

Anyways, we need to stand by them in their tough situations, let’s stick together and help them , we could help them in any possible manner like offerings charity, donating essentials like food and basics.

If you are good enough then I would request you to share your bit for them. And it could be anything they need food ,clothes, water, raincoats ,medicines etc you may Google it to do it.

I have been following news about it 8 districts have been declared as red alerted. 150+ individuals are missing ,20+ people are died, (Numbers may vary)

Imagine abundance of water everywhere you see and its still raining, you desiring for life to live with your family, but don’t how to survive. Being unsheltered,sick ,and hungry.

It is horrible and tragic.

Same is with Karnataka and Maharashtra, the people who are there are facing trouble as well, in fact the States residing next to the Western Ghats have been declared to have heavy rainfall and may face severe landslides .

Our Govt. is trying their best but don’t why they do it after the occurrence, as I believe “preventions is better than cure”. Anyways hoping for the best.

But Kerala has been the most affected state so far by being the most green and beautiful. And of course my favourite.

Lets do it as a human being. let’s pray for them, let’s pray for Kerala, and urge god in our prayers about all the Kerala people, as praying for the person next to you is also a kind of concern.

Thank you.

They say…..


They say I am too good for this,

And they say I am too bad to be here,

they say you may think that way or even this way,

they say you can’t do this,

And they say only you can do this ,

they say you may have think so, And they say you may have thought that,

they say you have mood swings,

Also, they say you have overconfidence,and rash attitude,

they say you can’t do much,

As you are sick with your actions,

Also you are carefree,Negligent and over rated.

Wait,

How do they say so, ?

Do they have any clue about me?

how could be they saying so,

how they can be presuming about my mind, and heart, ?

how they are so judgemental!

And why?

Who are they to think that I may think or may have thought so,

Why they consider me so...?

What gives them that courage to be so considerable about me.

Literally What ???

Look & Listen

I am not like what you presume or consider ,

I am just way beyond your imaginations.

I love being Me,

I won’t mind if you think I have attitude or I am carefree.

I have something about which you can only dream to have.

And that’s my originality I am not fake,

I am Rude ,or care free.

I have my head high for everything I do.

And I don’t need a certificate for being selfless from you.

I am not this or that,

I don’t think this way or that way,

I am Too Good for your mind to pick or presume.

And it’s only me who know it better that what I can do and what I can’t, Got it .

Take care!

**Don’t be Judgemental about anyone, as they know themselves better.

Bad at Response.


Good Afternoon Guys,

Today I am here with something to discuss which you may like , or may not but let’s discuss it.

Guys, we often see such people in our daily life who have the tendency of speaking more and also speaking less, and it actually varies from individual to individual as per their own choices,

But there is one other kind of people who speak relevantly good but have the tendency of showing disinterest to your talks, they will be available to you but with half of their heart, even if they are not half hearted but there traits will make you think so,

they will give smiles, as reply, they may give you one liners sometimes even one words, they make reaction with expressions, they may listen but pretends to not listen, or they will change the topic at their will, which is actually disheartening to the individual who is eagerly waiting for a respected response,

It actually makes you think that this man/woman don’t want to talk or may be not interested to talk or may have some attitude issues. Which is very much okay by their observations, as they are receiving such vibes from the other end so they may presume that,

Even I don’t want to be in a conversation where the individual is finding words on instalments, I speak with my heart and also with a reason, and want the partner to speak well, and react whenever needed, not sure how you people think about it,

But my opinion is this , and to have a healthy conversation, the two individual should have enough interest to speak and listen, one should not speak alone and vice versa.

And it has nothing to do with the choice of context or with the subject of talks, they have the tendency of speaking in that way as they prefer it, regardless of the subject of talks.

Of course I am not saying that everyone is blessed with good speaking skills or talkativeness, but it is not about the limited skills or the other, the individuals who act unavailable or who react late or selective with responses are actually Bad at listening skills and of course with the speaking skills, even with the reactive skills ,

they should learn and improve, as it is actually a graveyard for themselves, as they are actually creating barriers between their loved ones with bits and pieces of words.

Like they sound RUDE,FAKE,And ANNOYING!

And someone with really bad Etiquettes,

And no one prefers to talk with a person who has 3-4 words for every single thing you say, or may prefer to talk when it is needed the most with some sadness.

This is what I feel , Don’t know Right or wrong,

Do share your opinions if you feel so.

Thank you

You look good when you smile :)


You look good when you smile, 🙂

I see some holes on your chubby cheeks,

Like drilled,

Yes, They say Dimples!

You look good when you smile, 🙂

With some zig zag Pattern of teeth with a little wider lips,

Which you don’t like,

but it looks pretty cool to me,

So don’t need to hide.

Show More , Smile More!!

You look good when you smile, 🙂

As your tiny little round eyes gets closed,

Though not completely closed,

but it looks like closed.

You look good when you smile , 🙂

As you smile without any fear,

And I consider it real and pure,

not fake for sure.

Like the new born baby smile without the reasons we know!!

You look good when you smile 🙂

So keep on Smiling !!!

***Good Night And Smile Please!

I Find You Cute.


I find you cute, seriously cute.

When you smile in between the intense arguments,

I find you cute, when you try to sing sharp with a bad voice.

When you try and match your clothes with mine for every party,

I find you really very cute,

When you ask me to close the umbrella even if i don’t like rain, with a polite request.

I find you cute when you share all the boring stories of your friends,without my interest.

I find you cute, when I see you talking and crying at the same time.

I find you cute , when you play the music of my favorite composer, whenever I am in stress.

I find you cute , when you put your head on my shoulder and talk ,

And in between that you sleep on my shoulder, which is even more cute.

I find you cute when you ask me a kiss on your forehead,

I find you cute with me, this way and also that way ,

I find you cute every time.

As You are Really Cute.

Good Night

Both are important.


Well most of my friends are unhappy with me,

They find me Annoying,

They call me everything what they hate,

They say I am unavailable being available to them,

They say you can’t be like this to us,

I try to convince them,but they don’t listen,

They are Right in their ways, I have to be with them if I am with them,

But I am with my love interest,

If not being next to her always then through my phone,

I feel good for the fact that she feels good when I am connected to her either next to her with holding a hand or through calls or even chats,

My friends don’t like my life style and priority,

But I don’t want to see her sad, as she feels sad and bad when I don’t message or call her and don’t lift her call,

I lie her sometimes that yes you wished me the first birthday wish, though sometimes she is second as my mother wishes before than her may be a fraction of second earlier,

Even if its a lake or I am at some public place I text her, as she wants to feel the ambiance with me and my words. I like it, its not that I am not enjoying it.

But its a cheat with my friends.

She enjoys everything of my talks ,

Even my sick poor cheap jokes, at which no one can laugh.

And of course my way of care,

She just love talking to me,

She says ” I will be fine I don’t need a doctor, you are the doctor and the medicine is our conversation.” When she gets sick.

I Remember that ,

I talked to her through calls and texts for around 20hrs continuously with a charger plugged in, whenever needed.

She loved the gesture, and even felt good to be with her when she needed me.

I have to talk as she my love and I can’t see her sad,

After knowing that her sadness is my unavailability and lesser communication.

But what to do with my friends ,they are not wrong either.

They want me as their friend as I have been,

She asks me to pick one sometimes,

somehow I skip the question with an ice cream or some deep discussion about my career, but i am worried with the picking of one.

I may pick her over them by being a selfish lover but I wouldn’t be Happy with that, I know as my friends are also important .!

Love them and Love her also. Both have their importance but yes one priority is not happy when I am with the another priority.

***We can’t decide who comes first and who is second, of course it’s both which make us what we want to be, so its important to make them understand their importance in our life, one can’t be another and vice versa. Both are differently important in life. It’s harsh and unfair to pick and choose.

Me Versus mE


I’m fighting within me.

My Mind And Heart is Dealing with Duality,

The Writer,

And An Engineer,

Both are Right and Both are Mine

Both Sleeps with me,

And Wake with me as well,

Both Fights Within Me.

Both Dominate The Other.

Both put my in trouble.

As I don’t know which way to Go.

I love writing and expressing my thoughts.

I Love to be in the charge with the tag called Engineer.

One is my hidden Pleasure,

Another is my portrayed obsession.

One is my Expansion to the Dream,

Another is my source of existence.

Can’t Pick One

Can’t settle with one.

I am Both,

And I want Both.

But It is Tough to be Both.

I feel Like it is Me Versus mE.

You Are Beautiful.


You like The Roses, Right !

I like the color called blue a lot,

yes all the shades of blue,

What about The Roses in Blue color !

Layer by layer,

The petals of Roses in Blue color.

With some drops of dew over it,

Which would add the glittering effect.

You like wearing shorts more,

As you love your legs,

Yes long sexy legs,

And I like short hair ,

Colored short hair more, As world is beyond monochrome,

What about you being in your favourite shorts,

With the sexy long legs,

And the colored short hair,

Around the shoulder height,

And the slightly soothing smooth breeze,

Adding the visual treat .

Visualizing the scene more and more

And Feeling good about it,

To see you in the colored hair with a Blue Rose,

Also wearing the shorts

And showing your sexy legs.

With a token in my hand to give you

With a note written

“You are Beautiful”

Virgin…


After 2 years of her marriage ,

Pia came back to India to stay with her family, so many of her friends came to meet her,

they asked her many random questions about her and husband,

like,

how is your marriage,?

You both are happy ?

How you have been these days etc.

she said yes I am happy as I look. And we are living with all possible happiness.

Her friend (Nisha) said , all good !that’s enough as you have been the most reserved girl from our group! And went to abroad all of a sudden .

Pia replied ‘ yes i have been very shy and reserved.,

Pia asked – What about you, are you still flirting with all?

Nisha replied- yes sometimes for fun and sometimes for seriously nothing.

But tell me about you how good is your life, you are looking different, he is nice to you right?

I mean why you came alone where is he?,

Pia replied ‘ of course he wanted to come but he had some commitments.

yes I can’t tell you about it in details but I feel so lucky to be his wife.

Her friend was not convinced as she can observe that her eyes were saying something else.

She again, asked her the same question in a different way,

” hey your husband is a rich guy , I saw his profile has some good money in the bank and also have a lot of property etc right?.”

She replied ‘ yes so.

Her friend puzzled pia ” are you not excited with that, like money ,property cars etc.

pia replied “yes if it excites you then I am also excited.”

Her friend could sense that pia is missing something, she asked her again and again by some promises and all.

Pia replied ” yes I am married I love him and he loves me, yes he is rich and talented that’s it,

but you know what I feel like i am still partially virgin,

Yes we travelled everywhere but not like a couple , he was there with some work and consignments.

And I was there to make him feel stress relieved whenever needed.

He has been there with me, but not there for me, more for status showoff. To show it to the world through social networking sites.

And you know how we love, it is more like robots following some of the mating commands.

Yes He is a proper straight man and i am also proper straight girl, nothing odd as it sounds.

but the fact is that, he only touched my body and not my soul, and never allowed me to get in his zone of privacy.

We are not connected to each other like we should have.

My body is not virgin my friend but yes my emotions are , my heart is not there when I am with him because he is not also there with me, its more like a task to him or an activity to loose stress for him, that’s it,

he is busy with his cigars and phone ,

he is there but he is not there with me actually ,

he loves his work more than himself. He love me but his style of love is not what I like may be he don’t even know how to love.

He has a time for everything like 10mins for breakfast , 5mins for getting ready etc,

he is a big time management insect.

It’s good professionally.

but not for the layers of love to get unfolded.

But I am happy as I can’t be sad.

***Love is beyond the materialistic happiness. Love them with everything you have,not just posting pictures and buying gifts.
Aside

Love Scoops… The Romantic Tale


They both were watching a movie and it was around 2am, everyone except them were sleeping, it was a good regional movie which they were watching, and suddenly she realized that no one is awake, she whispered with a touch on his feet, ” hey, all are sleeping except us” !

He turned every where around him at once, and said “yes it is quite late so obviously, they will sleep , and they may have watched the movie . so let them sleep, it’s a nice scene of the movie look at it .”

She again turned every where. And said “look it’s too dark everyone is sleeping.”

He replied with some irritation, “so what ? are you scared of ghosts or what, don’t bother about all that , ghosts don’t exists.”

She said “are you crazy I am thinking something else. You are such a fool.”

He was still unsure and continued watching the movie.

She took the remote in her hand and asked him to look towards her if he wants her to continue the movie, now he could understand what was there in her mind,

He looked towards her and she looked towards him with smiles and glitters .. She was shining like a star in the dark room,

He somehow managed to touch her feet, and they both were still looking to each other,

she kissed the palm of his hands with shivering all over her body.

As they both were sharing such physical touchdowns for the very first time in their life.

And they were just one day old confessed lovers, so it was there first love and also their first scoop of love.

They both were shaky at the night, as they were young and confused with desperation, and it was all happening to them at a place where they were invited as guest, by a common family friend.

They both decided to turn off the TV. As they were not watching it also it was giving more than lightning needed to them.

They came close to each other now,without any light, and soundtrack.

They were not sure how much loving is ethically good, and how to stop love at such point.

She asked him that are you feeling something different, like me. I am feeling like something is there in my stomach may be huge amount of butterflies are flying.

He replied “yes, I am excited yet nervous, I can’t tell that what I am feeling but yes, you brought this idea in mind. I was watching movie like a fool. ”

She looked at him, smiled and kissed on his hand again,for 3-5 minutes. Like she has been paused.

He also kissed her on her hands, forehands, shoulder ,cheeks, neck and forehead. Without any hesitation.

She was stunned with such reaction, as it was beyond her expectations.

Though she liked his passionate love.

They lost themselves in that moment, their nervousness and shyness has gone somewhere.

And there kisses were audible now,

Can you come to the washroom he asked , she said I was about to ask you this. But what would you do there.? She asked with a smile.

He replied everything. What we are doing now, we would be doing better than this.

She said that’s it?

Nothing else.

He said I don’t know, may be a bit more.

She smiled and kissed him on her cheeks and said okay. I am going you join me there.

But be cautious while you will be coming.

So that we may not be caught,

In reply he said ‘yes yes go first’ !

She goes..

He was about to go..

And suddenly he came to know that grandmother of one of them has just woke up, and slowly searching her glasses and drinking water, and sat on her bed .

She came outside of the washroom and asks the grandmother to sleep, but she declines to sleep as she just saw a bad dream.

That means they neither continue their love at hall nor at the washroom.

They both go to their respective places as they both were aware that movie is also not there to sit together, they passed the flying kisses and sleep apart, and thanking god for such a lovely night.

love her!


I want that Tight Hug from you..

Just a Gentle Push towards the wall,

And Hold me Hard,

Yes, Harder than an air lock,

I have been waiting for you with all my heavy breathes..

Yes I am sick , & Uncomfortable,

the doctor advised to sleep and sleep for at least a week,

Look I painted my nails with Red colour…

And coloured my hair as well,

Similar to your favorite Hollywood Girl,

You may like it, and love me more.

Please Love me .. I want your love.

Show some care ..

I haven’t ate from yesterday,

I want to eat from your hands,

I don’t like those pills..

I need you, and your love..

Not those pills..

They can’t cure me..

Love me with all the passion ,

You may like the body temperature,

Yes my eyes look a bit sleepless,

But I will sleep tonight ,

I swear, just love me please…

Show some care….!!

Stay with them more , they need you in their tough times more than anything else.

Queen by heart…


She came with so many Dreams,

She explored all the Horizons,

She created magic everywhere she looked,

She is kind,

And also beautiful,

She is not a queen by birth,

Not even a magician with her tricks,

She is an ordinary girl with all the ingredients of Queen,

Who creates illusion with her charm,

Truly she is Queen By heart!

That one friend!


we all need that one friend for life,

who laughs at our lame jokes,

who cry with us at our tough times

who stands with you when the world is apart,

we all need that one friend for life,

who fights for us without a care

who is happy with our happiness

And sad with our sadness,

we all need that one friend for life,

who finds you in the biggest of crowds.

we do search for such one friend,

but sometimes we never find anyone of such kind!

Who selflessly stays with you in the thick and thin of your life.

They are lucky who have such friends. Hope they live long together with smiles.

Sleep Again ! – An Erotic Poem


I want to sleep again, as you disturbed me in between,

yes you rang ,

you stupid alarm,

we were at the peak of our love, yes you rang , you stupid alarm.

let me tell you what the dream was,

I can remember that it was very dark and he hugged me tight,

we were tumbling this and that way of the bed,

Yes he kissed me with some lusty passion ,

sometimes at my lips & sometimes at my hips,

I really love that noisy smooches,

like I swallow my long sized noodles,

Love that chocolate coated over my lips, which he tasted with some bites.

yes I wanted it again and again ,

Of course I love that sheer passion, as i was about to die with pleasure and pain.

Yes I want to sleep again to watch the same dream again,

And this time I don’t want you to disturb,

As i want to finish the remainings.

***And then she switched off her alarm and slept again.

S H A D E S


It was around 2 am , he reached his home, which was at 4th floor of the famous apartment in that city.

He was extremely tired with the stress and strain of the day, as finding job is more tougher than doing the job,

some how he managed to change the formal wears with shorts and took his sleep.

he was an aspiring actor who was searching opportunities.

But yet to get a call for acting,It has been 3months of joblessness.

So he was frustrated in a way, but he was there to prove the people wrong who discarded him and his talent in the auditions he gave so far.

So, the next morning he woke up with the same fighting spirit and gone for many more offices for auditions,

And again no one even looked at his portfolio and rejected him,

Now , it was around 3pm, he was about to feel sad and hungry at the same time, he received a call from a reputed ad agency, he ran and reached the agency with some nervousness ,he was asked to sit, then he was about to face the owner,

But she lefts the place.

He was stated by the manager that he has to do AD of some detergent, he was ready with the incoming and accepted it,

Next Day, he reached the place and he saw the other side of acting world,

he saw that there are many guys and girls are being asked for audience for the same AD in which he was already part, he was confused that why this audition is going on,

before he could now he came to know that they are doing it as preventive method, as they may replace him if he does not do good

Some how he managed to impress and did a good job, now in the same set he met the owner,

she is beautiful with some temper issues he observed, she cleared his amount for the ad and asked him to meet again in the evening by sharing her card.

He agreed and left.

In the evening he called the no. Printed on the card,

She didn’t lift and dropped a message in which she shared her address of farm house .

He manages to go there. It is 7pm now

He again calls. This time her phone is in a silent mode. Some how he enter the house.

He could hardly find the purpose of calling him there.

Then he enters , he is still not sure what’s going on.

And suddenly he finds a weird thing of being locked from outside. He is scared now, who is there ? He shouts.

She smiles and says relax , and in between this she offers him some drink and it was not tea or coffee .

he says madam I am OK may I know what’s the reason to call me here. Is there any big project,

she says yeah. It is bigger than you thought,

As You have to impress me, or Should i say satisfy me! By sitting over a couch in a navy blue dress with some alcoholic eyes and unconditioned hair falling over her shoulder she says..

He is shocked now. And says excuse me! What?

She smiles again and asks him to come closer,

And says look, I am searching fun and you are searching success,

so should I say that you are the next star of the country. But for becoming the star you have to go with what I prefer for you.

Look I know that you are from a small town and these things are new , but you may have seen the amount of aspirants near my office and you may be in a confusion that how and why you have been selected. And I hope you are by now quite clear with your doubts.

And Pulls him towards her with showing some of her visible body parts,

I saw your photographs in the portfolio and I decided that you will be in the ad, now I want you to be in the next project but for that you have to impress me in every prospect.

I know you are good at work as you are very hardworking as told by the director ,

Let me check whether you are equally good at other works or not she whispered.

He replied I am good enough to earn money I think I don’t need to do this or that to become a star so thank you I am happy with it. I would like to go now, let the doors get open. He removes her hand over his neck.

She smiled and says ,

you know what the small town people are so poor they can’t take life smoothly, I am beautiful rich and also successful and u need opportunity which only I can provide but you are saying no to me. Do you know how fool you are ! Again she snatches few buttons of his shirt and pulls him towards her.

He says yes I am fool , and happy with it and I don’t want to become star as well.. You are beautiful and also i need opportunity but it does not mean that I would do something which is not good ,

I am not here for sale. Let me go! He slaps her and firmly looks her with anger,

He Breaks the door and left the place. But she was not happy with what happened. As she had other ideas for him, and felt like rejected.

Next Day,

He was saddened now with the side effects of his dream and decides to leave the city. But in between the rush he has been called from another production house , they were seeking some one who is new and talented and found him as the perfect choice through his previous audience.

Six Months Later,

He is the star by his own merit without any comprises.

And finds the same lady in every other business parties and looks her like he saw nothing.

And one bad day he came to know that the lady has been killed at her own farm house from one of her longtime victim.

Good Day!

Happy Diwali !!!


Happy Diwali……to all my dear lovely bloggers and Readers…

May all the happiness, Harmony and success comes your way…

May every Light of love and peace falls at your place..

May you enlighten the brightest of vision to design the world to its best..

May you bring out the best Version of yours as a human being..

Enjoy this Diwali with lights.. And Bring the smile on our next needy near your surrounding…

Say No to Crackers..

Say no to Pollution..

Say no to Danger…

Happy Diwali…Have Fun.. enriched with All the culture and Tradition.

LoVeAndOnlyLove.


The Story of my love started with your smiles…

Strengthened with my anger..

Grown with your promises..

Nurtured with my beliefs..

Affected with the people around us…

Spoiled with the insecurities….

Ruptured with the traps of your loved ones..

Finished with your decision..

Separated by the society..

Not ended with my loneliness..

And

ReLiving Love with WordPress..

An Interview !


Hey Guys, I gave an interview today, which has been good but not as an engineer as a content writer. They asked me to write on a topic called cyber security on last week or so, which I completed and mailed them and then they called me for the face to face interview today,

so I took a leave from my work for today, as I entered the office I saw three girls were having their work on their computers, I have been asked to sit and wait, then the fellow came may be the boss may not be I am not sure as he was not looking like a boss almost same age,

he asked few questions to me in which the first one was that why I am switching my career from an engineer to content writer?

Is it just for following your passion? Or you have any other ideas?

What you have been doing over their ?

What is your job role and how much you are earning ?

How the idea of writing came to you ? will you leave your job ?

I am still not sure you changed 3 companies in the span of 4 years ,how I could be sure that you won’t leave this job?

What kind of content you write ?Etc etc

And I was like oh my god…. So much at once..

Then gradually started answering him that,

I am not going to leave my job I would rather provide the contents through mail,

I have been in a project based company so I have to change the companies if it does not have the project, as I can’t be jobless.

Yes it is passion but I would be happy if I could convert it as my profession.

Also I explained the job role and about my remuneration .

So by now, he was quite clear about me and I think quite impressed also, then he told me to write something in front of him, which should about 600+words,

I was not happy with it as I was getting late and I had different work to do, but he told me to do it as it also the part of the interview ,

the topic was ‘Branding on social media’ as he was Branding Head over their.

Then I was running short of options ,so accepted the task and completed it in just 20mins+ . Google was there to have an overview but plagiarism was strictly not allowed and I even don’t believe in doing such cheaper trics.

then I mailed the same to the individual and to the HR deptt. And they asked me to wait for the review and interview result . I said sure thanks.

Let’s see what happens. Luckily I have both my tasks in the sent mail of my email I’d. So that I can check and see what I did good and bad. If any of want to have a look can ask me it is very much for you all.

Thank you for the time.

Trying to make it bigger…


Hello friends…

Just thought to share what I have been Thinking..

Yes its high time now. And I want to convert my interest into some serious profession.

As I really want to make it count and stretch my limit through which I could attain the maximum reach and some remuneration also.

So, Looking forward to get into the job of a content writer / online blogger on part/full time basis , so that I could say that my hobby and profession is not different any more.

I don’t think that it is a shame to let others know what I have in my mind at least not from the people who proclaim to follow me and like my work.

Please let me know your suggestions and do share your support in the context of my post.

It would be worthy if I will get true responses from the people to whom I say my fellows.

Please let me know it it is replicating your demands of search.

Thank you

15.04.2017…the day to remember


Thank you…

Thank you so much god

Thank you all who have supported me in most the toughest phase of my life so far..

I will remember this day forever….

I must say that this date has came very late in my life …this late has taken a lot from me my love …my pride… my passion …my believe …my quench.. my respect… my goal… my path .. My style …my hunger..my rest …my faith…my emotions… My tears and my desired life…

Today when I have achieved this it’s just pity that the person with whom I wanted to share it with priority is not with me…she has her own priorities.. And when I was willing to achieve this..when she was willing from to Achieve I was just unable to do ..god I don’t know much about your games but yes it’s very painful for me…I am very nostalgic today I hope I can share this with her before I die…I hope I can realize her that leaving me was never the right call…sorry bit I want to prove her decision wrong…I love her and will love her for the rest of my life but I cannot forgive her for the cheat and betrayal ….this life is enough I still believe for me to prove your decision wrong….and I will prove it for sure… I wish u and me can come together again and will celebrate our small happy moments..life give my happiness back plz….
Thank you god for at least thinking about me after a long delay….I hope from now I on u will be kind on your most admired child…..thank you again to u and all from my best wishers including my family…