Not CREDIBLE !


Hello Friends,

Hope you all are doing good in your life , as i really want you all to be in the best of your health and mental state.

Guys today i have been thinking about the stature and the credible status of Bollywood , and i really feel sad for the circumstances it has been , the recent suicides of some of the most adorable and talented actors and the drama around their demise has been very strange and shameful, which is very sluggish with the best of my knowledge.

but when i see the last one and half years of entertainment world , i only feel cheated and betrayed by the so called actors and their closed ones, we have seen the involvement of Mr. Raj Kundra in the pornography case and also in the IPL Betting case.

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And then the never ending list of involvement of bollywood actors in drug peddling and consumption , we have seen the actors like Deepika Padukone , Sara Ali khan , Shraddha kappoor, Rakul Preet singh, Rhea chakraborthy along with her brother and yes Aryan Khan the son of famous bollywood actor shah Rukh Khan. Of course few of them have been are behind the bars but most of them are still in the process of investigation or may be the investigation agency could not have found any evidences or they were not enough to prove them guilty,

we also heard the noise of involvement form the televison industry with some big names from the business like Bharti singh and her husband. with due respect we have also some references of the south Indian film industry but they were are not as it has been form the bollywood,

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although with Aid of some of the most reputed lawyers they are safe and they are still working in the same field but as an audience we have to think do we still trust them ?

do we really feel them are someone who have been asked for investigation without a purpose.

do we really think that they have been targeted by some of the people for their political or ideological benefits ? which we usually get to listen who are supporting these actors or who defend the bollywood,

we do have our own brain we can sense that everything is not for an political agenda as some forces are there to destroy the youth of our country and by availing drugs in the streets by small kids or by some unconventional means they are trying to make our country weak and addictive to the drugs which could hamper us like never before,

it is sad that few still there political interests in the entire investigation and raids.

but i feel that the term called bollywood has lost its charm and attraction, people have slowly developed hatred which we usually hear in the general discussions in our local gardens, this hatred is also very reasonable not at all objectionable as they are the so called reel heroes they have extra responsibility for being what they are there many followers to them who follow them blindly, they are worshiped in some places, but if this is what the truth is then i think it is the common people who have been cheated the most for believing everything what there favorite stars said,

but the broader picture is that there are many families who are completely dependent on the film industry for their survival if this how we all are going to create a kind of rejection and question for all the valid reasons where and what they will do to survive. i can only feel bad for everyone who followed them and who is associated from the industry and have to face some hatred for things they have done wrong somewhere .

Thank you

Reading a wrong Book!


At the end, yes almost of the completion rather say the actual start of it, I came to know that I am a reading a wrong book,

Book with multiple reasons to get attracted,

May be like an illusion…

To fall for a read, like a mild love story with moderate title.

With soothing songs, and sentimental scenes.

Just like we want that one particular well structured cake with some serious decoration in a bakery.

I picked , purchased and started Reading…

And it took really time for me to realize that I am onto something very different from my expectations..

It is a negative book ,with a concept negatively compiled, heart draining with the every single aspect of it.

Don’t Fall for it, Don’t fall for it..

Don’t waste your energy and time, throw it before it destroys you,

It is poisonous..

It took sometime for me to realize but it is good that I am out of it now..

Someone said it right…

Don’t Judge a book by it’s cover

Don’t Go..


Listen,

Don’t go,

Don’t go to bed !

Let’s stay awake in love as I don’t want to sleep and loose you even in my dreams.

Let’s stay away from fights as I know I can’t win and also I don’t want you to loose.

Let’s stay in love to feel you in me and me in you regardless of our distance in between.

Let’s stay away from egos and angers, and stay happy.

Let’s stay in life with our dreams, so that you and me don’t need any other day to live .

Hey ,

how could you go for sleep. When I have so much to ask and many more to share.

Option / choice.


I wish I could have stopped her , a bit more,

I tried my best,

but she had priorities,…

And many more reasons to leave.

I wanted her to stay ,

Sit and talk more About she and me.

But she went as she felt going is a better option,.

Then talking to me.

Or she may have better things to do than talking to me.

I felt like ,

I am an option,

not a choice

Not a serious aspect,

Just a time pass Material!!

Who has been played,

And left after sometime.

You Betrayed yourself .


jennifer winget

I am Broken

Sad

Alone

And

Empty.

But still Don’t want to Be in love with you as you don’t need it, as you don’t deserve it, as you don’t respect it,

You want darkness and the sadness,

And of course the Pain .

You may have many things to live and like, but you still need that one thing which you will never get , because you betrayed yourself,

you cheated yourself more, than anyone, You Idiot.

May you find heart and heartbeats as a human being . As you sound Alien to me sometimes, who has more of nothingness than anything to cherish .

God Bless you,

May you find yourself better someday.

May you find better reasons to live love and laugh.

Get well soon.

More of you….


More of you …

More of you my love…

Yes bit more of you is what I like…

But what you have been doing..

What you have been doing by hiding your own shadows…??

And the more I want…

The more you are invisible…

Invisible smiles…

Invisible shadows..

Invisible Love..

But a sense of your existence is always there…

In which I can smell your fragrance..

More of you I want my love..

Yes a bit more of you…

Hell is the Better place to live…


Hell is the better to place to live the rest of my life,

As it won’t give me these breathe taking pains on instalment basis,

As it won’t give me the sadness of being cheated again and again,
As it won’t insult me for loving you blindly every now and then,
Yes Hell is the better to live my life.

You are the reason for all these conversations,

You are the reason for all the instigations,

You are the reason for my helplessness,

You are the reason for every time i cry,
You made my life irresistible,
Hell is better place to live,

I can’t live with this shame,

I can’t live with this humiliation,

I do have words,
I don’t want to stay with it,
Yes I am frustrated,

As Hell is the better to place to LIVE.

Hell is the better to place to live the rest of my life,

As it won’t give me these breathe taking pains on instalment basis,

As it won’t give me the sadness of being cheated again and again,
As it won’t insult me for loving you blindly every now and then,
Yes Hell is the better to live my life.

You are the reason for all these conversations,

You are the reason for all the instigations,

You are the reason for my helplessness,

You are the reason for every time i cry,
You made my life irresistible,
Hell is better place to live,

I can’t live with this shame,

I can’t live with this humiliation,

I do have words,
I don’t want to stay with it,
Yes I am frustrated,

As Hell is the better to place to LIVE.


Leave me with a smile on your face..


And then she said…

I Love you …

But my family does not want me to live with you as they have other dreams for me and you don’t fit over there according to them…

And i can’t leave my family for you….. As they came earlier in my life then you……

So i have decided to live without you for them as they cannot understand my situation as you can do.

I am sorry for this

but I am helpless

I just want to say that you deserve a better person than me …

I know its tough and painful but this the last thing I am asking you for this life if you really love me please leave me with a smile on your face and don’t meet me again..

I can’t face you

But don’t hate me I can’t see that for me.

I am sorry I know its a kind of cheat with you but I know you will understand my situation better then anyone else.

Please forgive me..

Please Go …

Let Me Find.


 

In the search of satisfaction I think I lost my happiness,
and the essence of purity
committing more mistakes than corrections,
Losing a day Now,
And Lost a Day yesterday,
And Also lost many more days before yesterday.
These are preciously important Days of my life.
What’s Wrong?
Where I am?
What I am doing?
Why I am doing?
Don’t know
Don’t have any clue.
I am Lost,
I have more flaws now,
Yes  Not Appropriate,
And also weirdly imperfect
But
How to stop ,
How to fightback
Tell me
I need your help
I really need your help.
To fix things back,
To Swipe out the dirt,
To Find the same space,

 

And Vibe
Let me find,

The same Person Again

Always smiling and always shinning.

 

There After a Decade..


Okay ,Good Evening Guys !

so I visited the same place. Same temple and clicked the photograph with the same pose. Which and where I was exactly 10 long years ago,
this time to celebrate the 5th birthday of my niece, Janvi.

But now, it has been me and only my family not the one who was with us 10 years ago with unofficial permission.

Like everyone says time flies.
I accept it. Time flies and the situations do change.
Smile remains there but question is about the genuineness of it.

It was not easy to do but did to show to the world and the people around that everything is fine to me now. And I am above such sentiments.

Deep down, silently my heart being the usual human heart was pumping at a speed more than the usual sprint of a horse.

I  Asked to click images randomly so that I could have the best one in the gallery.
But not even a single PIC was good to have. As the smile was fake and my eyes where not ready to face camera, may be heart was not liking it and the face was not supporting my forced Instincts.

Everything there was same to same and I recalled every single moment of mine there a decade ago.
Be it roaming everywhere around there with wheels on my legs, playing stupid pass time games or even captivating energy for some useful work and some how bringing out that WE moments in between.

The roads,The people, the ambiance, the staying rooms, the Temple and of course the God.

Yes I have been a teenager by then and very very care free monk.,with some good etiquettes which I still have,by being real and raw sometimes at heart.

But this time. I have been quite silent  matured rather say changed version of mine,
silently observing everything what was there then and now, also my little eyes went for some tearful ride as well when was alone as I have been mostly by being with many with a reason and with a purpose more personal.
10years ago, never thought about this visit nor the circumstances I am around with, never felt that I have to face such realities in love with hate and cheat.

Forget about it.

I really feel that it has been heavy on my heart at that moment but when I rethink about the same I feel good about it. That overcame my very own created barrier. And surpassed this hurdle.


Anyways ,
Happy Birthday Janvi(Niece).


Thank you

I never loved you.


That day with some tears , she came to him and said, I feel sorry to you for being so helpless , I am sorry, I know you love me a lot and i really don’t need any evidence as I can feel it,

but I never loved you dear ,

yes this is what the truth is, I just wanted to be their with you till my parents search someone for me to get married,

yes I never loved you, I just acted to be in love with you, I loved your company and everything you did for me ,

yes I never thought About this day, but I should have thought about it,

I am very bad I know,

but this is what the truth is,

I just wanted to get along in a busy status of relationship till my marriage as my friends were teasing me for living a life without boyfriend,

so I did all that for which I am feeling sad.. I know I played with your emotions… But I am sorry..

As I know you have been serious for me and I was just doing it for fun and showoff. I am sorry ,it is really bad and embarrassing…

And the guy was listening without believing….

With some tears and confusion.


***Don’t Play with Emotions..

***How should the guy react to it ? And what would be your reaction if you find yourself at such situation?