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The Right Girl !


Just Not the Right Girl for you!

As I smoke & Drink sometimes , and you don’t,

Just not the Right Girl for you ,

As I Don’t Pray much,

Just not the Right Girl for you ,As I laugh Louder than any other girl,

Just Not the Right Girl , as I wear Some Clothes which are short and you don’t like such clothes,

Just Not the Right Girl , as I Care for others more than me, and you don’t ,

Just Not the Right Girl , as I Don’t share my problems and Pain , as you want it to be,

Just not the right Girl , as I Am a free Bird , and you want to have a puppet for you,

I can’t be that Girl with Limited Words as I speak a lot at times,

I can’t be your Miss Right all the time.

As I want to fly and you want someone without wings.

So Dude, You are free to have such Puppets more and more ,

I am not the Right choice for you.

Aside

Just Be My Side…


Be My Side,

Everytime when i need you..

Everytime i am right and also wrong,

Be my side,

when i misunderstand, also misunderstood by others.

Be my side when i am low,

dull,

and need you the most,

just be my side..

Be my side when i sing a song, also when i dance .

Be my side in my every win and loss, small and big moments.

Just see it in my eyes ,

Read, feel, observe and acknowledge, the need of you in my side.

Dont Ignore,

Dont Avoid ,

And

Dont Walkway.

just come to me with a smile…

Hug me , Hit me, Kiss me, Hold me or Just keep looking at me… but be my side ,

just be my side..

Love you even more…


 

Hey Girl ,

I love you even more,

and more,

When you are angry,

I just love that face,

That face with a Red tint all over,

Pointed nose, sharper then the normal

Still eyes, with questions more than a kid

Sometimes folded lips, (internally)

With the shrinks of eye brows, quite animated

Love you even more , When you are angry,

You look more cute to me, though I feel bad for making you angry ,

But love to watch that face again and again,

In love with that face of anger,

Love you even more , when you are angry…

Anger…!


Hello Folks,

Well before writing anything on this topic I think I have to be honest that I am very angry today. And I don’t know how to control it.

In fact I am against of controlling it is a very important emotion. I have my anger issues which has been the reason of my various fights, arguments, failures, etc. In fact I left few of my previous jobs for the same issue. And I think it is very much with me as I treat it as my body part or my important weapon from the armory.

Although I don’t want to use it but it is something which comes to me quite often then not.

May be I am short tempered. But what I have seen that my anger does not harm anyone as it only raises the modulation of my voices and even make it louder so that it can be audible to the person who is in the 2nd street. I feel bad about it . but yes I have to say that I am very much under control of not being violent. Yes I do get irritated and in between I may say something very harsh but the other side is that even at that level I don’t abuse or cross the line in a verbal spat.

But whatever I do I feel bad about it as I think it is very bad to be so bad on anyone. But I can’t help it at that time. As I am not that sense of thinking something to which I feel afterwards.

I may hit hard on something and hurt my self ,it could be a desks, wall or even a my head. Usually I use to punch with my right hand on the surfaces near by or at my forehead.

Sometimes I even damage the furniture stuffs like chairs, tables etc. It is very bad. But I can’t help it.

I have been like this from my childhood ,my mother told me that I used get very angry if didn’t get what I have been promised to get. My face used to get red and it is even now the same.

So the point is it is good to stay with your emotions even it is anger but the way it comes to us it should have some control. How can we control it? More of you is good as I believe in being original .

Tell me something to control it or to manage it in a better so that it could come and go with very ease. Anger issues are there but yes I don’t hurt anyone I have that notch of being watchful even at extreme level so that I don’t use a bad word and don’t get violent on anyone yes in between this I hurt myself.

My anger stays with me and it plays within until it is not burs-ted on anyone.

Your suggestions are very helpful …please do share it on the comment box. As it is not just a blogging post it is my serious problem with which I really want to overcome.

Thank You

You’re fake!


You are fake…!

Yes …

You are fake..

Everything about you is fake

Your actions ,

Your gestures ,

Your smiles ,

Your tears ,

Your love ,

Your emotions ,

Your empathy ,

Your sympathy ,

Your care and concerns ,

Your talks ,

Your romance ,

Your Giggles ,

Your Niggles ,

Your Pain ,

Your Gain ,

Your likes ,

Your Dislikes ,

Your truths and of course your lie ,

Everything was fake , there is nothing which is real about you…

You are fake….

Fake you’re!

I am not Alcoholic…!


Hello People,

Today I am going to share some modern kind of allegations given to us . they are in the form of friends and Relatives in our life.

And this has became a serious issue now.

They have been asking me the same question in every possible way.

  • Hey your eyes are looking very Red what’s cooking bro?
  • Hey Have you started using liquor or what?
  • What’s wrong why your eyes are looking different like you drunk last night?
  • Are you alcoholic now?
  • you are using Liquor or Beers quite often or what?
  • You are so restless I can see the difference in your eyes why!

Etcetera etcetera…!

Let me clear to you all and them that I have not tasted a single spoon of liquor or beer or any kind of drug so far in my life and will not use it ever in my life as don’t feel that I have a need to do so infact I am against drug addiction..

It is very annoying and irritating for me to answer them the same question again and again whether its a social gathering or a friendly outings.

My eyes have some issue or their Vision is not that clear any more I don’t know but I know that I am not alcoholic .

Yes I am not Alcoholic…!

But if it seems different to them then I have to say that may be my eyes are quite different from their..

May be I am having an Intoxicated Eyes.

The Last Love Letter…


27.06.2017 Tuesday

Dear Love ,

This Letter is for the Unconditional Love we had for each other…

May you read it with the same spark in your eyes as you had in your eyes for my Messages.

May be I am not your love anymore but you will be my love forever as I can’t have a replacement for you ever in my life.

May be your priorities have changed but it is still enough that you gave me the first priority in your life which is undeniable.

May be I am not good enough to have you in my life but it is a fact that you have been in my life for years which will stay with me.

May be you will not look at me but I still love that look of yours which imbibed with flying notions.

You may have gone.

You may have moved on.

You may have separated ways.

You may have decided to leave me alone.

But you cannot take the memories of yours from my heart&soul.

You know that My Love is immortal .

You have been special and you will remain the same till the last breathe of my life though you think that
loving me was a mistake.

Yes it is not easy for me to live this life

but I am living to prove that

Leaving me was your Biggest Mistake.

When we will be at our old ages if somehow we meet somewhere I will be happy if you remember that first emotion of love which we had.

Once upon a time we both have stated that we are soul mates ..and we are made for each other and I still feel the same

We are Made for each other…

Remembering you is my source of Liveliness.

God Bless You My Sweetheart.

I Love You

Read Before You React.


Hello People,

Well I am writing about it today , but I actually wanted to write even before, I don’t know how many of you agree with me and what are your opinions about it,

but i really feel sad so sharing my views

Guys , Nowadays the WordPress readers are not readers any more, they are doing their formalities , why I am saying this because, I have observed it from a long time,

The readers are reading a full length 3500+ words story in just 4 seconds of being published,

I still don’t know what sort of talent it is and how they read it ,

if they actually read it in that particular duration of time , then it’s more than a miracle for me, and I would like to learn that special power what they have ,

but if they don’t read (Obviously they don’t Read) and like it without reading a single line with the reasons better known to them, is very disheartening to me,

I always want people to read it regardless of their choices of likes or feedback, but they should read it first.

It may be satisfactory to some, but not to me, I don’t have any fantasy for Number Of likes , comments etc

I want to make it clear please don’t like without reading it,

This is a cheat to yourself first, Then to the Writer.

And yes I want to add one more thing , this is not with everyone , but yes many of us are of such mindsets who have a knack of pleasing people for their choice, or revert . (like to get a like back.)

Which I hate the most, The process should be read then react if needed,

and we all know how much time it takes to read 500 words, 1000 words, and 4000 words for any human being, you can’t complete it in just seconds.

please avoid this practice if you are of such kind.

And enjoy this space for knowing perceptions, observations, opinions, thoughts, stories, and creations etc.

Don’t contaminate it like any other social networking platform. The uniqueness of this platform makes it what it is.

And If they think they haven’t been noticed than they are making mistake.

We all know who is genuinely reading and reaching towards our posts, and who is not.

Please this is my sincere request to read my posts, with your interest of reading, not for anything else,

and react after reading even if you haven’t liked it just put your words in the comment section and help Me to learn more and write even better.

I hope my words are making sense to all. As I feel my concern is not wrong.

Thank You ,

You all are beautiful. But Be a Good Reader 🙂

Take care.

To You With Love…


To You With Love,

Thank you for being there as someone who looked like a family more, being a stranger from day one,

Thank You for the lovely moments with which I could smile back again. Even if i see them as a mistaken excitement or as an unreal expectation,

I still like the answers you gave and the questions which were inherent, the answers were more easier to understand than self raised questions,

Looking something for some purpose is not good, but looking something as source of satisfaction is not bad,

Yes you have been a source,

A source to do good, and aspire good things in life,

You have been the source of fun , anger, worries, happiness and of course inspiration.

Rather say a source of liveliness

Sometimes it is not that easy to accept the outcome if it is not favouring your life ,

It’s painful and disheartening to withstand with what we Haven’t expected.

But we can’t have everything what we want in life .

Living it and Leaving it.

SHAME!


Seriously this is shameful to be around such coward people.

Stunned, Saddened , and Disturbed with the offense.

why we are in the society were we are so helpless .

Why we can’t stop the constant injustice, and crime happening to the women around us.

Another day another girl, another rape another murder and another life of an individual has been buried.

What we are doing , !

Shame.

Just too tiny I am to say but yes we are helpless and we are actually careless, no remedies , no rule and no control over the crimes in India so far.

A girl named Dr. Priyanka Reddy (Age 26) has been Gang raped , Murdered, and buried brutally by wrapping her in a blanket with kerosene oil near the toll post outside area,

she was seeking help as her scooty was out of order.

They punctured her scooter , they trapped her by offering help, they did everything bad what they should not have done.

She called her sister and told about the vehicle’s status, the parents reached the same area from where she called but they already took her to somewhere else .

It’s not about Delhi, Mumbai or Hyderabad.

It’s not about short dress or love affairs,

it is about the bloody criminal mentality,

It is so sick to be around such cowards.

SHAME.

#RIPDr.PriyankaReddy

At a coffee shop…


After a long day,

Me at a coffee shop with a coffee on my table.. and literally no one to accompany me.. Looking everyone with a story in mind about their conversations..

In between this, just swallowed the unbearable coffee sips..

And my vulnerable eyes started looking at everyone and everywhere..

Then I saw a table where three girls were sitting and gossiping about something with shouts, giggles and laughter..

I just changed my seat.. And sat next to their table so that I could listen what they were talking about..

Ok so now they were audible..

As I raised my listening skills by few more decibels..

So the coffee was quite entertaining now, and I asked one more to look engaged to the waiters.

These girls were clapping and doing high fives in between them.

The three girls were talking about their respected boyfriends, and how they have been pampered ..

actually they were saying that , they literally play as per their will with the boys.. Be it a movie going or some expensive purchasing.

They compared who is better among the three and how they are planning more expenditure from their boyfriends. As Diwali is on the cards now,

I was actually liking this, as it is something new to know..that everything is as per planning and plotting.

In between this they have realized that I am listening their talks..or observing them.. They may have thought that I am interested in one of them..

So they actually started looking at me with a smile..which was even more hilarious.

One of them has loosened her hair and started swinging her hair with a confident swag ..

And looked at me with even more nuances .. With fixing her messy Red t-shirt near her waist.

And looked at me for while trying to say Hey or Hello, with a smile filled with fakeness,

I just turned my eyes and shakedown my head.

She along with her friends left the place

Reasons better know to them.

But yes she had her flair.. 🙂

And I turned off the signals and shifted focus on the right hind side of the table,

Where I saw An lady around 85years was there with a kid may be her grand daughter..

She was in a state of confusion as she don’t know what to order and how,

Then a suspicious man with a very suspicious look came , could be her servant or a known fellow..

Even he was unsure about the things so , I helped them to make their order

He came and asked me to click a picture of him showing his Rudraksh and also asked my name,by saying I will be helpful to you sir, I am the one to whom you pray daily.

I said, look I am helping just for the sake of kid and the lady ,not for being asked for clicking your PIC.

He said ok sir, and obliged for the help in placing order,

He was a bit different from normal, like mentally instable and heavy in voice, his actions were strange, though they enjoyed their coffee.

but I still don’t why he asked me to click his picture though I deleted it.

Then i recived a call from my home,left the place.

Thank you

***P.S – I wrote this post by being at the coffee place.

I can’t be a writer….


So, Then I have realized that I can’t be a writer as it needs lot more than just writing good and real,

As It requires a lot of materialistic things, and many more fabricated insights, one can’t be a writer if he/she is willing to write with the pure emotions and substance which makes him feel to write,

They may put words and also may compile it , but it would not be enough to get attention and readers, you need more spices,

And by having such spice you may tend to loose your original idea of the article or plot,

You may write but you will never get satisfied with your work as you have opted for the additives of the trend.

You may even find your self in a state where you are doing your work but for the choice of others,

The tears , pains , emotions, happiness, sacrifice, selfishness, tragedy etc etc of your work will only get attention if it has some layering of everything in trend be it a title of the article or the visualization of it,

sometimes you may need to promote it like a salesman, the original description of pain and happiness with the words came from heart may not by liked by the readers, they have their choice of interest and it has nothing to do with the effort you kept for writing,

You and your writeup will be discarded within sometime. As you may not had the ingredients they were looking for..

You can’t be what they want , as you can’t diminish your creativity..

But you can’t survive with what you feel and write ,as everyone has options more than the choice..

Think About it.

I never loved you.


That day with some tears , she came to him and said, I feel sorry to you for being so helpless , I am sorry, I know you love me a lot and i really don’t need any evidence as I can feel it,

but I never loved you dear ,

yes this is what the truth is, I just wanted to be their with you till my parents search someone for me to get married,

yes I never loved you, I just acted to be in love with you, I loved your company and everything you did for me ,

yes I never thought About this day, but I should have thought about it,

I am very bad I know,

but this is what the truth is,

I just wanted to get along in a busy status of relationship till my marriage as my friends were teasing me for living a life without boyfriend,

so I did all that for which I am feeling sad.. I know I played with your emotions… But I am sorry..

As I know you have been serious for me and I was just doing it for fun and showoff. I am sorry ,it is really bad and embarrassing…

And the guy was listening without believing….

With some tears and confusion.

***Don’t Play with Emotions..

***How should the guy react to it ? And what would be your reaction if you find yourself at such situation?

Even I accepted their lies.


They asked me few things about an issue, actually they wanted me to answer it either in a spicy way or they wanted to put me in some troublesome state,

I smilingly said why you people are asking me this.? Don’t you believe their stated truths, Or you feel that I need to say my version.

They said we want to know your side.

I replied, There is no my side or their side, there is truth and their false.

So you have to see what you take from their talks,

We don’t believe them, they said.

I answered I believe them, as I don’t care about anything now , I have nothing to loose. And they may be putting the right things forward, I don’t know what they are saying though, but even I accepted their lies, I can’t do much either.

As even don’t know the real truth. And I have nothing to do with the truth now, as they did what they wanted to, and the damage couldn’t be recovered ever, but yes they have been good in chopping and presenting things in their suited way.

But, I don’t have any interest in giving justification to anyone, or to put my side on the issue. As I am not here to prove Anything to anyone, I know my side I am right by best of thoughts, and deep down they also know what is right and what is not right, who is culprit and who is not, and above all there is someone who knows everything and he is looking at everything, to whom we call Almighty, The God,

Moreover I heard that, they are too good and the world is too bad ,and I am too bad and the world is too bad , as per the talks what I came to know from the people in between me and them.

Anyways We all are going to pay for the deeds we do , if not today then tomorrow for sure.

if you are good you will receive good things from god , if bad then you have to be ready for the outcome, you can’t get away from your punishments.

So , I don’t care what they are saying as I am only answerable to the god , but in my case it’s God who has to answer me, as he may don’t have any question and I have many to ask him. And it would start from Why me? ?

I hope i will get the answer,!!!

Anyways you are free to think and consider me anything you want as liberty is there for everyone.

But my identity is best known to me and god. Likewise truth is better known to God , culprit and victim.

But if they say I am culprit , then yes I am culprit . nothing to objectify or even feel bad. As they are not the decision makers . so why to think or care about it.

Then they smiled and said you said nothing in particular but said everything.

And I smiled back.

Thank you for reading.

Bad at Response.


Good Afternoon Guys,

Today I am here with something to discuss which you may like , or may not but let’s discuss it.

Guys, we often see such people in our daily life who have the tendency of speaking more and also speaking less, and it actually varies from individual to individual as per their own choices,

But there is one other kind of people who speak relevantly good but have the tendency of showing disinterest to your talks, they will be available to you but with half of their heart, even if they are not half hearted but there traits will make you think so,

they will give smiles, as reply, they may give you one liners sometimes even one words, they make reaction with expressions, they may listen but pretends to not listen, or they will change the topic at their will, which is actually disheartening to the individual who is eagerly waiting for a respected response,

It actually makes you think that this man/woman don’t want to talk or may be not interested to talk or may have some attitude issues. Which is very much okay by their observations, as they are receiving such vibes from the other end so they may presume that,

Even I don’t want to be in a conversation where the individual is finding words on instalments, I speak with my heart and also with a reason, and want the partner to speak well, and react whenever needed, not sure how you people think about it,

But my opinion is this , and to have a healthy conversation, the two individual should have enough interest to speak and listen, one should not speak alone and vice versa.

And it has nothing to do with the choice of context or with the subject of talks, they have the tendency of speaking in that way as they prefer it, regardless of the subject of talks.

Of course I am not saying that everyone is blessed with good speaking skills or talkativeness, but it is not about the limited skills or the other, the individuals who act unavailable or who react late or selective with responses are actually Bad at listening skills and of course with the speaking skills, even with the reactive skills ,

they should learn and improve, as it is actually a graveyard for themselves, as they are actually creating barriers between their loved ones with bits and pieces of words.

Like they sound RUDE,FAKE,And ANNOYING!

And someone with really bad Etiquettes,

And no one prefers to talk with a person who has 3-4 words for every single thing you say, or may prefer to talk when it is needed the most with some sadness.

This is what I feel , Don’t know Right or wrong,

Do share your opinions if you feel so.

Thank you

Both are important.


Well most of my friends are unhappy with me,

They find me Annoying,

They call me everything what they hate,

They say I am unavailable being available to them,

They say you can’t be like this to us,

I try to convince them,but they don’t listen,

They are Right in their ways, I have to be with them if I am with them,

But I am with my love interest,

If not being next to her always then through my phone,

I feel good for the fact that she feels good when I am connected to her either next to her with holding a hand or through calls or even chats,

My friends don’t like my life style and priority,

But I don’t want to see her sad, as she feels sad and bad when I don’t message or call her and don’t lift her call,

I lie her sometimes that yes you wished me the first birthday wish, though sometimes she is second as my mother wishes before than her may be a fraction of second earlier,

Even if its a lake or I am at some public place I text her, as she wants to feel the ambiance with me and my words. I like it, its not that I am not enjoying it.

But its a cheat with my friends.

She enjoys everything of my talks ,

Even my sick poor cheap jokes, at which no one can laugh.

And of course my way of care,

She just love talking to me,

She says ” I will be fine I don’t need a doctor, you are the doctor and the medicine is our conversation.” When she gets sick.

I Remember that ,

I talked to her through calls and texts for around 20hrs continuously with a charger plugged in, whenever needed.

She loved the gesture, and even felt good to be with her when she needed me.

I have to talk as she my love and I can’t see her sad,

After knowing that her sadness is my unavailability and lesser communication.

But what to do with my friends ,they are not wrong either.

They want me as their friend as I have been,

She asks me to pick one sometimes,

somehow I skip the question with an ice cream or some deep discussion about my career, but i am worried with the picking of one.

I may pick her over them by being a selfish lover but I wouldn’t be Happy with that, I know as my friends are also important .!

Love them and Love her also. Both have their importance but yes one priority is not happy when I am with the another priority.

***We can’t decide who comes first and who is second, of course it’s both which make us what we want to be, so its important to make them understand their importance in our life, one can’t be another and vice versa. Both are differently important in life. It’s harsh and unfair to pick and choose.

Original Ones – People


Few Learn with age,

Few Learn with Experience,

Few learn with Mistakes,

Few Learn with Education,

Few don’t Learn with any.

Anyways this world is imbibed with mean and manipulative people. They may use the best of you before you realize and leave you without your choice.

BEWARE

The more I think about it ,the more I feel like biting some Red Chillies.

Yes it is painful , yes it haunts

and yes it hurts.

They may learn with what they do with their life.

They may grow ,

They may become wiser,

They may become HumanBeings

Om Namah Shivaya…

Har Har Mahadev …

Jai Gauri Shankar.

I Love You My Enemy.


Yes I love my enemy.

As they make me think twice. So that I could make less mistakes.

He/she is the reason for my continues cautiousness.

I can feel the pressure of being questioned every time I Sit/ stand.

I have to match up with all the demands they do.

Sometimes I answer them even before they ask.

Sometimes they Win.

Sometimes they have to loose.

But yes they are the reason for my every dedicated work.

Yes it is annoying but I like the counterparts.

As it is not healthy to run without a competitor in a race.

I love you my enemy as you have been so keen to put all efforts to watch my work,Sometimes even my well wishers fail to do this..

I love that focus and intensity.

Yes it encourages me to do good and even better , and to learn.

Thank you my enemy for being my biggest strength and motivation.

Yes I do get strengthened by every cheap and silly things you do to make me fall.

I don’t fall, I just smile and continue the process..

I love you my enemy. As you teach me a lot without any investment.

Thank you.

LEAVE THEM!


Don’t need to think much about them..

As you can’t do anything about it.

Yes they will be like this only..

They will do what they want to do..

They are not going to think anything about you..

Its fun for them..

Just Focus on the Proceedings..

Don’t need to think much ..

Don’t need to feel bad..

Just Look with a smile towards them..

And Leave Them!

Just Leave them..

#society

#negativity

#perceptions

This is not acceptable!


Hello People , An eight year old girl has been raped , drugged , and murdered in the temple. And this so painful by being the part of same society.

How could be they so brutal?
What they got by doing so?
What was her mistake?
Why they did?
How could we stop?
What is the actual solution?
How could we provide justice to her ?

They were humans?

What is the role of law and order? It exists or not?

How could we answer that girl?

What these coward Politicians are doing after her brutality?
When we could that our girls are safe?
Rape is always a crime whether the culprit is Hindu or Muslim . and we stand by the victims without any communal discrimination and no one can stop us for doing so…

And I Urge everyone to come forward to support them in every possible way .

We need a crimeless society . we want women empowerment. We want their utmost security . we want them to excel and embrace in the way they want.

We stand by for peace and Harmony.

We want justice. We want to stop this brutality at any cost. Please use the virtual and real world to open the eyes of our so called leaders so that they would do some thing to strengthen the women safety and punish the culprits.
it is more in the mind. They are mentally sick.

They are not humans. They don’t deserve to live in the same society .

And the darker part is that people are using their dirty games in the context of the issue just for the sake of their power game and to spread communal rights .

Please don’t make it a part of your dirty politics.

We stand for you kid.

#Justice #RIP #NomoreRapes.

Don’t make fun of me.


You are someone

I loved the most …

You are someone

I trusted the most…

You are someone

I wanted the most…

You are someone

I needed the most…

You are someone

I Believed the most…

You are someone

I Looked the most…

You are someone

I cared the most…

You are someone

I Remember the most…