Once Upon a Time There was a Little kid Who wanted to remain Happy for life,
Life sometimes listened his voice , sometimes asked him tough questions, he remained smiling always , though he could not make anyone happy, but yes he choose to stay happy in every little and small happenings,
practically he was going through a lot but it never made him down, his self esteem and confidence was always there to think clear about his choices ,
he never compromised,
he never begged,
he never felt small ,
he has been asked many questions, few he prefered to answer many he ignored,
people were against him, situations were not favouring him, but he remained the way he wanted, tried again after every disappointment, the hustle was always in silence ,
He always believed in him and the supreme power .. who actually stood by him to cross the lines, rivers and mountains,
he fell , he stood he got tired,ignorant,negligent, rusty and dumb ,but still felt of thinking the way he used to think, which was not practically good but his choices were his prefered choices which he wanted to percieve with…
Life is a journey were we learn ,unlearn, relearn, and this is how the journey of that little boy is going on,
he is imperfect, he prefers to be a perfectionist,
he preaches ,he is lazy ,
he as a human is not sweet if you are bad to him, but he will help you his heartout if he feel to do that,
he could be me ,he could be you, we are the ones who are trying to find an arc of success , and the life filled with happiness….. 🙂
people are always there to judge you, question you as many as they can .
Just answer the ones you want, leave the remainings with a smile . Never Feel the need of Finding answers to answer people.
Around 1830s, In A Kingdom called Udhampur, There was a man, popularly known as Vikram was living in the sub-divided villages.
He was professionally a cobler, used to make and stitch the shoes of common men, and also of the bonafide persons of kingdom,
He always believed in helping others whether they are known to him or unknown to him,he never discriminated in lending the helping hand to the people in need.
He felt that real satisfaction of his life is to make people feel good about the presence of another human being around, it could be a moral support , emotional support, and also monetary support.
He was popular and also considered as someone who could comeup with solution to everyone who reaches out to him for seeking a help in any problem.
But by doing so he never looked at his own life.
He remained poor and absolutely unchanged in his daily life although he was working for the palace of king and paid good for the service he usually did ,but he opted for a selfess social service.
But As there is a Problem in everything what we do, Few around him were not happy with his popularity and reach among people, they felt it is tarnishing the image of king ,as poor people felt going to king for a help is very tough than going to Vikram,
so these jealous people started their unnecessory adaptations against him and presented him as a cheater to king infront of king.
The alegations like cheater and person with some hidden desires and tresures were applied on him. There were many theories came that he a tually wants to show the king that he is not a good king or even a man with better admistrational skills than king.
few even laughed at him for his life, as he was poor and living a very miserable life with poverty, but has the tendency of helping others with his earnings, few considered it as a show off and few even stated that he has alot of money hidden somewhere with which he is doing some amount of help to people to earn a good name and diminsh the importance of king.
After listening all the allegations, the king finally asks with some anger and confusion ,
what is this all upto ?
are you really looking for helping people or you have some hidden desires , ?
do you feel that i am not a good king,?
do you think i am not approachable?
Do you think yourself a king, do you have alot of money to feed them?
Do you have ang tresure somwhere?
Are you getting any advices from the kings of other kingdoms?
For which vikram remains silent for a while and then says ,
Firstly i am not trying to diminsh your importance not even have any such intentions,
i am not getting any advices or helps from any, i really dont have any money, or any tresure,
i dont have any hidden desires not even any agenda,
i am no one to feel or have any opinion about your admistrational skills, you are my king and i know that from my birth.
Also i know the fact that i am just a cobbler not a king,
but what i also know is that you really dont need alot of money, or tresure to help a person next to me ,
you really dont need to have any personal desire to help a person in need, and above all you dont need to be a king to look for the people around you,
i feel that a good heart and pure soul is enough to do good to people next to you, you dont need to have a kingdom, not even the need of adminstrational skills.
It has nothing to do with my loyality towards you and kingdom,
it is just my humantarian effort for making my surrounding happy,
i wont mind if people feel it a propaganda, or they feel i am idiot or actually laugh at me, i wont mind if they consider me as a king or a cobbler,
what i know better is that i am human being first without any other label of professional duties and its limitations.
The king looks at him and smiles with sheer happiness, i am very happy to have a person like you in my kingdom, you really taught everyone that it is not a need of a position or profession to do your basic humanitarian responsibilites, everyone has their job to do for the happiness around themselves, for me you are king with all the qualites ,
so even if people laugh at your selfless approach and poverty , for me you are a true king, and from now on, i want you to be remembered as VIKRAM -THE ULTIMATE KING.
Moon Sun Stars And You, Should shine Forever, Because This is What Suits You.
Shine Forever like the Diamonds, Even More than The Diamonds, Yes More And More, Because This is What suits You…. This is what defines you.
You are The One who should never be Dim and Dark. The Charm Of Your Face should never get faded. The Aura of Your Persona should never get Diminish, The Beauty of your Eyes should never get Lesser, Should Never get lesser at all, Because This is What suits You….
Darling, Nothing Can Break You, Nothing can ever overshadow You, Nothing can ever Bother you my love, Just Smile and shine Always,
jennifer winget
Because This is What suits you, This is What Suits You The Most …..
Laying in pain, on the corners of Road,
Without any serious sense of shyness,
Also sitting sometimes near the balcony,
Thinking about You, And The Fate.
With this white smoke all around my face, And A Cigarette in my hand,
And even many more packets of cigarettes, with a lighter to put fire.
Closing my eyes , and taking the smoke inside my body,
Mixing it with my respiratory organs and destroying them ,
With my eyes filled with tears and all colored in red.
Smoking it like we breathe for living ,
Craving for it like kids do for food.
But Loosing Hopes of Living a life.
Ignoring the Dangers involved in it,
As every next choke of smoke gives some artificial goodness, with lots and lots of worries.
Everything seems disappearing slowly.
I know It's like a self destruction.
I know there is nothing like heroism in it.
I know it's not good for health,
Yes of course It's not magical.
It is not a healer not even a pain killer.
It's just that I am terribly addicted to it,
It will kill me someday,
May be with more pain than what I have now,
It may be unbearable for me then,
But still I want some more..
Some More Cigarettes Please.
Then what we felt that a power cut could be a good idea to have a little kiss near the godown, at the backyard of the office.
Actually it was her plan before the Long office tour of mine.
I really liked the idea and did the power cut through the help of electrician , and asked him to switch off his phone for a while and give some relatable excuse, things will be managed by me ,
He did the same without a question, and smiled back with a wink, I tapped over his shoulder and gave some bribe for the sake of love.
My girl has been informed the same, and she already reached the place with so many butterflies in her stomach, as this was our first time in the office premises,
Power cut …., and within 5 minutes everyone left the place with a joy of break from work , then slowly I reached the place ,
She was there , near the door of panel room,
I smiled at her she was blushing and it was dark all-around.
I just thought to look around me whether anyone is there or not, but in between that she dragged me towards her, and whispered “no one is here baby.., Don’t waste time” .
She kissed with some serious passion, and one could see the shine in her eyes, she quickly gone opposite to her shy nature which itself is a remarkable change.
Her thin lips were craving for a long lock with my lips, and my hands were around her neck and hair to hold her head tight.
We both started kissing in the dark messy room,
We both were kissing…
Kissing with the breathe choking smooches.
And with a passion full of love..
We lost each other in the moment there,
we were inseparable,
and we wanted to have so much more in between than just kissing, but we were still kissing,
and we hardly noticed that the office fellows are there who may come at any time,
Thanks to the electrician who reminded that he has to come back and switch the power ON.
We realized the same, and left the place with many more unfulfilled desires.
I am staying at some distance without my honest will,
But this is quite cautionary,
I am hiding my emotions and the reactive notions.
I am hiding the cute little love.
I want loneliness not love,
May be I am avoiding it with the restricted barriers.
I don’t think I should love,
or i need a love story now,
I am good with the tears,
don’t want someone to wipe out,
I am loving this love but I think I can’t love,
I should not love.
I hope my emotions are not evident to the world,
I hope I can hide it well.
Yes I would prefer to hide my Happiness,
My Feelings,
My Emotions,
And
My love.
*Don’t Hide your Emotions . Love , Hate , Anger, or Happiness just show it , feel it . it is good to speak and sort it out, no restricted barriers should come in between of your feelings and confrontations.
When she was asked to write about me by looking at me,
she left it blank and said
“I can’t write about him , as I feel I shouldn’t waste my time to write about him, when he is in front of me, I would rather prefer to watch him, and just keep on watch him…
Like my eyes got stuck at him,
Like my world has paused at him,
Like I don’t care for being watched by the world when I am looking at him.
Like he is the only one in the world to look and I am the only lucky one with the eyes to look at him.
Yes of course I watch him daily but that’s just not Enough for me,
I can spend my life watching him.
He is so much of love,
I can’t take my eyes away of him when he is there around me,
I prefer to watch him in anything and everything i do.
I kiss his photographs when no one is watching without a mark of my lips at his photos “
And Guess What,
I being her competition at other End , smiling , Blushing , and filled with love and happiness applauded for her .
And said ” I feel the same for you my love but yes I couldn’t have said this in front of everyone.
And yes please give her the Prize she won it without any doubts like she won my heart.”
Blink ! may be with an unnoticed wink
a wave without an eye contact
a smile with some penetrating stares at here and there
of course everywhere,
blowing kisses for the air if not for me, as per the pretending
some day in red
some day in black
blue also but not necessarily for the mondays
with layers of makeup coated and jewels placed near the neck
some heavy touch ups of eye shadows and mascara
with your printed embroidery clothes
and the multi colored shawls.
yes i noticed every time,
when you reaped your lips to make it even more red and pinkish,
also when you purposely lifted your feet to show the design of alta{Dye}.
you really looked like a women with a heart that beats faster than normal,
when looked at me.
you really made me feel special with your constant searching eyes,
and unanswered and puzzling hints,
the beauty of you is so beautiful that i never felt the need of knowing you,
or talking to you
as you speak and tell a lot with your eyes,
which i could sense but could not reciprocate
you came to my dreams quite a few times as i can`t wish to have you in my reality
you will be there in my mind as a beautiful woman
with some unsaid plans for me , and also some hidden fantasies.
i feel for you for being unresponsive
but yes i have the valid reasons.
and yes you made me feel good about myself.
Most of the time she looked at him, without even murmuring a single word,
He was talking a lot, being unaware of being noticed, he explained everything what was needed regarding it.
She was looking at him like a poser poses ,with a smile and still eyes with some glittering effect in eyes.
Like a serious listener
And he was just speaking with all the professionalism without any hesitation or confusion,
as he was a sincere and dedicated sales officer came to demonstrate about the product for which he was assigned.
She liked his speaking skills more than anyone as she was not listening him, and she never cared that he speaks fast and non stop.
For her it was more like seeing someone very pure at eyes and innocent with looks.
it was like something special in front of her which she really liked and loved looking at.
And for him, talking to her was just making sure that he could convince her for the purchase of the product.
He explained everything, and asked whether she is impressed with product or not ? She has any doubts or what? She would purchase it or not?
She replied I am very happy with the product but would like to understand about it more deeply, so she asked him to explain the entire product again,(purposely she said)
He explained her for three times, (without any anger)
And finally she bought it with a smile and took the word to help her if needed regarding the usage, by the visit or via phone.
He smiled and said sure Mam.
And then they never had any doubts and explanations between them,
as the usage of phone was quite more better than explanations and doubts of the products.
I am Adding more colors to your painting, as I added more flairs to my personality,
yes I like smiling now as you do, not much like you but yes I can smile my love.
Somehow I managed to look good by wearing the best clothes from my wardrobe as you have the tendency of making every presence picture perfect.
Yes I started using the same shade of lipstick which you said you like at the movie theatre last week.
Also i added a habit of you , looking more towards the camera and posing ,
I think I am looking you in me.
I am not the same individual who sits alone in the dark room with specs on my eyes and searching something exciting on my laptop.
I find my life happening with you and it is exciting as well I don’t need any other entertainment to pursue.
I love to look good now,
I want to be like you,
Always smiling always charming like a happy child.
***when we are in love we just love to do everything like our partner not to impress but actually to feel good about it, which makes love more beautiful.
*** Love can change your tastes, outlooks and choices.
Me , Love And Problems, we three have been always with each other, love always came to me with many more problems, I accepted love with both the hands and problems with some tears, it’s more like a triangular love story of Bollywood , we three always fall for each one of us.
I still remember that I have chosen the path of love almost like riding the bike against the flow of wind, always risky and challenging.
But somehow I liked the drama around love with little bit of sweetness sometimes ,but most of the time it was bitterness which I tasted more. But still preferred to choose love and the problem later.
Love has been my actual girl friend and with whom I wanted to spend my life time, but problem has been the one whose secret crush has been me, with whom I never actually moved apart though always tried. As she has been a strong follower of mine.
I have been given option, to stay away from love to stay away from problem but i opted for love and so then problem persisted ,which in turn it has ruined my life,
my life completely demolished for the sake of love. It has broken my heart into pieces of chicken, which the problem enjoyed with some roasting,
so how I say I am like the roasted chicken, which you like the most with salt and pepper.
It is very painful to be the one with such reality where you find yourself alone and alone, every next time.
Deep down I feel , I shouldn’t have fallen for love it took everything from me, but I actually fall for it again and again, I am always someone who believes in doing the same mistake again and again irrespective of the outcome.
Yes maybe I am kid at heart, or fool in other words.
So, In return I end up being a showpiece to the world, they feel for me, the learn from my mistake ,they talk about me and some even likes to offer charity and some just do the gossips,
Even after all this if someone ask me would you prefer love to have with you ,but you have to accept problem as well,
I will say yes I want to have love regardless of problem and consequences.
You can’t love anyone without problem and in other way if you see you always need love to tackle with pains & problems.
You may loose sometime and sometime you may win, but it has to be the love for which you live regardless of it complementary gifts.
Love always !
Don’t worry about problems or it’s side effects.
Just try to have love in your side more and more with a smile and shine.
We all can say this after sometime of our love failure without any hesitation,
but do we ever think about it when we actually in love with that individual,
I think we don’t and we can’t actually,
so how and why we say it after the things has gone other way?
Hypocrisy it is..
Instead of saying that we should try to be honest and accept that we were not good enough to stand by our love for which we are responsible, not the compatibility!
One day you will sit and remember that you actually liked the moments you lived with your first love, whether we loved or argue there is something cute within it, which is inevitable.
you may find more love and more happiness in life but you will remember the one always as you shared the most purest form of love with him/her
yes they say it right first love is always the love which stays in our heart even at the ages of deaths,
First love remains there in your heart no matter how much you try to eradicate it from your heart, you can’t do it, you may find the valid reasons, but emotions don’t understand any such reason,
First love is an illusion,
you smile by the anger of your partner, and you get angry on the most silly things,
The more deep you love the more you live with the innocence of first love…
first love is the best love, it is something which makes you grow more as person sometimes and sometimes it makes you a stubborn and even a kid.
But trust me the most beautiful emotion is love, and when it comes to first love I think the beauty of love is enhanced more and more.
Those eye contacts, the hints, the little cuddles, makes it even more beautiful,
Confusions, jealousness, doubts and possessiveness makes it even more exciting,
And the impatience adds the exact salt to the taste,
The first love is the beautiful garden with all the colors of flowers, which stays in the heart even after years and years.
Just a thought of looking back came in my mind , but it is good to move forward.. I realized then.
Though the life is very empty and I am very much alone.
Yes I don’t smile as i used to do. Yes I don’t live the life as I have been.
Yes I put my head down when I have been asked to answer as I don’t want any confrontations as it illogical now.
Yes I think daily about how it happened? And why to me? I could have done better or what?
But yes it feels good to know that I am not with those fake people , I am not around with the so called well wishers of mine.
As even I came to know that it’s good to be alone rather than the fake people.
So I don’t need to look back as it only gives me pain for being so idiot and blind in love. How I could be so fool? How they could be so cruel and selfish? Why I believed them in that way?
Many questions within me comes and make feel bad about it as I can’t get the answers. As they are unavailable to me in fact don’t exist for me anymore either.
So this life has taught me that yes it is very painful to deal with your emotional setbacks , as it may drag you again and again to the life where you have been but one should never look back . we should smile and move forward in life.
Don’t Look Back to the People and to the history which Hurts you even more than the pain your dealing in the present.
Just Don’t Look Back and Move forward.
As it will give you sadness only.
Life is cycle of happiness and sadness wait for the other side and live your life with a smiLe.
Hell is the better to place to live the rest of my life,
As it won’t give me these breathe taking pains on instalment basis,
As it won’t give me the sadness of being cheated again and again, As it won’t insult me for loving you blindly every now and then, Yes Hell is the better to live my life.
You are the reason for all these conversations,
You are the reason for all the instigations,
You are the reason for my helplessness,
You are the reason for every time i cry, You made my life irresistible, Hell is better place to live,
I can’t live with this shame,
I can’t live with this humiliation,
I do have words, I don’t want to stay with it, Yes I am frustrated,
As Hell is the better to place to LIVE.
Hell is the better to place to live the rest of my life,
As it won’t give me these breathe taking pains on instalment basis,
As it won’t give me the sadness of being cheated again and again, As it won’t insult me for loving you blindly every now and then, Yes Hell is the better to live my life.
You are the reason for all these conversations,
You are the reason for all the instigations,
You are the reason for my helplessness,
You are the reason for every time i cry, You made my life irresistible, Hell is better place to live,
I can’t live with this shame,
I can’t live with this humiliation,
I do have words, I don’t want to stay with it, Yes I am frustrated,
Yes I have to say that I love you and hate you, yes it is very tough to do both at the same time but yes I have been doing it daily from few years, I don’t know how but I hate you like hell and yes I still love you dear somewhere …I don’t know why.! You have been a puzzle you are still the same.
It is hard to have the love and hate relationship with the same individual but yes I have something like that and I am enjoying it. Yes I never wanted to hate you but your deeds are very bad, I know it is unbelievable but yes I do love and hate to you a lot.
I hope someday I can come to a conclusion of loving you or hating you only, rather than having both emotions on you. Don’t ask me which is more.
But my family does not want me to live with you as they have other dreams for me and you don’t fit over there according to them…
And i can’t leave my family for you….. As they came earlier in my life then you……
So i have decided to live without you for them as they cannot understand my situation as you can do.
I am sorry for this
but I am helpless
I just want to say that you deserve a better person than me …
I know its tough and painful but this the last thing I am asking you for this life if you really love me please leave me with a smile on your face and don’t meet me again..
I can’t face you
But don’t hate me I can’t see that for me.
I am sorry I know its a kind of cheat with you but I know you will understand my situation better then anyone else.
A Daughter Who really Earned Respect for being So Loving And Reliable to Her Parents ,
she could be in the 40s who lives along with her parents , she earns for the livelihood , as there is no other source of income , she could be working from last 16years , just never felt the need of a partner for herself as her priority has been always her parents.
She is someone who merely talks with anyone in her locality, as she is a working women with just a day off in a week, also she finds her self different in the area as most of them are conservative.
Few considers her as an egoistic, few find her modern girl as they prefer to stay at home.
But At the age of 39 she gets married to a guy after few years of dating who basically works at the same place of work,
He could be a bit younger to her as per the appearance but the most interesting thing is that Even though she got married to him, she has convinced him and her in-laws to stay at her own home with her parents as she can’t leave them at this old age alone, as she can’t walk away from her responsibilities which has been doing over the years both her parents have some disease.
And they do need regular diagnosis and timely medication.
Also they need someone for all the basic requirements and daily needs which she evenly realizes so she has put forward everything in front of her beloved husband and in laws which they without a second opinion agreed and the guy also took the appropriate stand to stay with his parents likewise.
They do come and go on weekly basis at each other’s residences. I think they both are very good in their understanding each other.
So every time I stand at my balcony I see a 40year old daughter go to her office and her 68years old mother and 72years old father comes and share their escorts by a bye or see you evening and also with a Ta Ta is so overwhelming.
And the daughter replies the Ta Ta with do take medicines in time is absolutely cute.
The parents stares the daughter Till she takes the last turn of the road which is so pleasing to my eyes.
I feel she is an inspiration to every guy who at leaves his very own parents to the old age homes, or even makes their life miserable by treating them with taunts for every is single need of them.
I have been watching this lovely visual of daughter and her parents. From quite a few days and she makes me feel good about life every time I see her .
she is a tight slap on the faces of people who used to prefer boys over girls , or even have a negative mindset for girls.
Laying in pain, on the corners of Road,
Without any serious sense of shyness,
I know It's like a self destruction.
I know there is nothing like heroism in it.
I know it's not good for health,
Yes of course It's not magical.
It is not a healer not even a pain killer.
It's just that I am terribly addicted to it,
It will kill me someday,
May be with more pain than what I have now,
It may be unbearable for me then,
But still I want some more..
Some More Cigarettes Please.
R Prakash Rao 
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