I never loved you.

That day with some tears , she came to him and said, I feel sorry to you for being so helpless , I am sorry, I know you love me a lot and i really don’t need any evidence as I can feel it,

but I never loved you dear ,

yes this is what the truth is, I just wanted to be their with you till my parents search someone for me to get married,

yes I never loved you, I just acted to be in love with you, I loved your company and everything you did for me ,

yes I never thought About this day, but I should have thought about it,

I am very bad I know,

but this is what the truth is,

I just wanted to get along in a busy status of relationship till my marriage as my friends were teasing me for living a life without boyfriend,

so I did all that for which I am feeling sad.. I know I played with your emotions… But I am sorry..

As I know you have been serious for me and I was just doing it for fun and showoff. I am sorry ,it is really bad and embarrassing…

And the guy was listening without believing….

With some tears and confusion.


***Don’t Play with Emotions..

***How should the guy react to it ? And what would be your reaction if you find yourself at such situation?

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Even I accepted their lies.

They asked me few things about an issue, actually they wanted me to answer it either in a spicy way or they wanted to put me in some troublesome state,

I smilingly said why you people are asking me this.? Don’t you believe their stated truths, Or you feel that I need to say my version.

They said we want to know your side.

I replied, There is no my side or their side, there is truth and their false.

So you have to see what you take from their talks,

We don’t believe them, they said.

I answered I believe them, as I don’t care about anything now , I have nothing to loose. And they may be putting the right things forward, I don’t know what they are saying though, but even I accepted their lies, I can’t do much either.

As even don’t know the real truth. And I have nothing to do with the truth now, as they did what they wanted to, and the damage couldn’t be recovered ever, but yes they have been good in chopping and presenting things in their suited way.

But, I don’t have any interest in giving justification to anyone, or to put my side on the issue. As I am not here to prove Anything to anyone, I know my side I am right by best of thoughts, and deep down they also know what is right and what is not right, who is culprit and who is not, and above all there is someone who knows everything and he is looking at everything, to whom we call Almighty, The God,

Moreover I heard that, they are too good and the world is too bad ,and I am too bad and the world is too bad , as per the talks what I came to know from the people in between me and them.

Anyways We all are going to pay for the deeds we do , if not today then tomorrow for sure.

if you are good you will receive good things from god , if bad then you have to be ready for the outcome, you can’t get away from your punishments.

So , I don’t care what they are saying as I am only answerable to the god , but in my case it’s God who has to answer me, as he may don’t have any question and I have many to ask him. And it would start from Why me? ?

I hope i will get the answer,!!!

Anyways you are free to think and consider me anything you want as liberty is there for everyone.

But my identity is best known to me and god. Likewise truth is better known to God , culprit and victim.

But if they say I am culprit , then yes I am culprit . nothing to objectify or even feel bad. As they are not the decision makers . so why to think or care about it.

Then they smiled and said you said nothing in particular but said everything.

And I smiled back.

Thank you for reading.

Loving Ghost

Yes he kissed her as she sleeps next to him every night,

And in the morning he takes his breakfast with her.

As she loves to cook for him and watch him eating,

He make few cups of coffee which they enjoy with a kiss .

She comes and goes,

she is not scary but yes she is the ghost who thinks and treats him as her boyfriend,

though he told her that I am not the one but she says let it be I like you as i used to like my boy friend,

Also he asked about her that why she is ghost now, and what went wrong with her,

she said she murdered her boyfriend and committed suicide as she caught him with another girl,

And she had been brutally betrayed by her boyfriend.

She likes him because he looks like him ,

but he is single and lives just next to the room where they lived.

And more ever he also failed in love with same kind of situation though he preferred to let her live with him,

So there is a connection of being cheated by their loved ones but both had different approach to it.

Anyways,

She just wears the normal clothes like jeans T – shirts, etc like any other young girl not like the ghosts of the movies,

yes her voice is dual and of course she has some amplitude at it.

And She could smile and cry at the same time,

She likes romantic movies. And prefer playing carom.

She has the most beautiful eyes and even more beautiful smile.

She is friendly to him but he don’t know how to tell her that she is a different spirit now,

he can’t love her like she wants,

Ghost and human can’t be the lovers,

she says one day when the god would be kind enough on her she would happily leave the world but by then he has to be her love interest,

He thinks he don’t have any other option as he can’t find a way to escape also he has generated some kind of sympathy for her.

May be because of her love failure And the betrayal.


That’s it.!!!

Partially Virgin…

After 2 years of her marriage ,

Pia came back to India to stay with her family, so many of her friends came to meet her,

they asked her many random questions about her and husband,

like,

how is your marriage,?

You both are happy ?

How you have been these days etc.

she said yes I am happy as I look. And we are living with all possible happiness.

Her friend (Nisha) said , all good !that’s enough as you have been the most reserved girl from our group! And went to abroad all of a sudden .

Pia replied ‘ yes i have been very shy and reserved.,

Pia asked – What about you, are you still flirting with all?

Nisha replied- yes sometimes for fun and sometimes for seriously nothing.

But tell me about you how good is your life, you are looking different, he is nice to you right?

I mean why you came alone where is he?,

Pia replied ‘ of course he wanted to come but he had some commitments.

yes I can’t tell you about it in details but I feel so lucky to be his wife.

Her friend was not convinced as she can observe that her eyes were saying something else.

She again, asked her the same question in a different way,

” hey your husband is a rich guy , I saw his profile has some good money in the bank and also have a lot of property etc right?.”

She replied ‘ yes so.

Her friend puzzled pia ” are you not excited with that, like money ,property cars etc.

pia replied “yes if it excites you then I am also excited.”

Her friend could sense that pia is missing something, she asked her again and again by some promises and all.

Pia replied ” yes I am married I love him and he loves me, yes he is rich and talented that’s it,

but you know what I feel like i am still partially virgin,

Yes we travelled everywhere but not like a couple , he was there with some work and consignments.

And I was there to make him feel stress relieved whenever needed.

He has been there with me, but not there for me, more for status showoff. To show it to the world through social networking sites.

And you know how we love, it is more like robots following some of the mating commands.

Yes He is a proper straight man and i am also proper straight girl, nothing odd as it sounds.

but the fact is that, he only touched my body and not my soul, and never allowed me to get in his zone of privacy.

We are not connected to each other like we should have.

My body is not virgin my friend but yes my emotions are , my heart is not there when I am with him because he is not also there with me, its more like a task to him or an activity to loose stress for him, that’s it,

he is busy with his cigars and phone ,

he is there but he is not there with me actually ,

he loves his work more than himself. He love me but his style of love is not what I like may be he don’t even know how to love.

He has a time for everything like 10mins for breakfast , 5mins for getting ready etc,

he is a big time management insect.

It’s good professionally.

but not for the layers of love to get unfolded.

But I am happy as I can’t be sad.


***Love is beyond the materialistic happiness. Love them with everything you have,not just posting pictures and buying gifts.

Stumped!

The Man with some temper issues, did enough to make a mark , but still unaware of buttering to the officials, not a person with a reputation of striking like others , but reasonably good to be in the position for which we are still finding someone , he is not that flamboyant , not that outspoken, like these modern day cricketers are.


Yes I am talking about Mr. Ambati Tirupati Rayudu,

A person who has been good in studies in the early days also did graduation, and always considered as shy and reserved. Someone who never danced,

But always a freaky guy as he did things in style. Be it the the tweet he did against the statement of chief selector of Indian team , for which he may paid the price of his life.

Yes he was quite impulsive in nature , a short tempered guy, with some previous history of anger.

Started his career with a big hype, and suddenly acclaimed as the next big thing in Indian Cricket,

Missed the track in between as did all the wrong things at the right time, he opted to play for the ICL , the league which came before IPL , and considered as The Non BCCI league, for which many players have been penalized and left, somehow they all came back with the courtesy call of the BCCI,

And then the fortune turned for him again, he performed for MI then for CSK, and did enough to play for India and scored decently with an average of 47+.

But then , what went wrong how he has been left from the probables , is still a question mark which haven’t been answered!

Later he was added in the standbys , but never preferred when the team needed, which may have hurt him more, as he was there in the reserved players list like Rishabh Pant, but Mayank Agarwal has been asked to join ahead of Ambati, which may have enforced him to quit the game forever at just 33years.

Seriously not the way one should be treated. It shows the other side of our Indian cricket, He may have decided in an anger, but his anger has reasons and I feel that he has all the rights to feel bad and angry with the outcome,

After all every cricketer wants to represent India in the world cup arena.

He has been a good ambassador of cricket but has been treated in the most bad way,

He deserved a better farewell.

I hope we all could react in the best way, they ruined his career in the best possible way, I am sure they will sit someday in their life and feel bad about their decision, as he could have played for 5 – 6 years.

Politics And Politicians are everywhere, proved again. As cricket fan I am completely saddened with it.

If Ego was the reason to his debacle ,then I think this is the most worst thing happened in Indian cricket.

Thank you.

“I love your daughter… “

Fish (Guy) : hello uncle… I am… I think …I Want to say something to you, uncle I know it’s quite odd to say this but I have to say this that I love your daughter… would be happy to get married to her.

Fisher ( Her Father) : excuse me!

Fish : yes it is quite awkward to speak about it to you directly , but I heard that you are going to look a guy for her marriage, so I thought I have to say this so that it don’t get too late.. (With some sparks and nervousness he said)

Fisher : look it is not right for you and me to speak about it.. As neither my daughter knows this nor your family people, it is ridiculous to discuss all this now , when I am heading towards a match set..

Fish : well your daughter loves me and you don’t need to think much about my family .. They will get involved when they will be informed about it, leave that part to me.. They all love love me a lot they would do what I want them to do 🙂 .

Fisher : what you what me to do with it now ?

Fish : just don’t look any guy for her ,

Fisher : but we all are going tomorrow to the groom’s house, how I could help you then, you should have came earlier..

Fish : I tried but I am facing to many things in my life and dealing with some heavy hardships, so I request you to cancel it by any possible way, you may go tomorrow and reject the match with any possible reason, you have to do this for the sake of love..

Fisher: look , this is not my decision only ,, their will be other people involved in it, I like you as a person and happy that my daughter also loves you ,, you are a very talented guy,but I need reasons I am not the only decision maker.

Fish : ‘ I love her, she loves me, you like me , i know my parents will like her..tell me a reason to select another guy …? You are the father of her I approached you with a hope but you being the supremo of the house saying I am not the decision maker.. Sounds weird.. Don’t you think the two individuals should get married who share love.

Fisher: you don’t have a job how to accept it for my girl I am her father..

Fish: I don’t have now, I will have for sure.. I will marry her after sometime not today.. Don’t feel that you are talking to a useless fellow.. I am also an educated engineer… Not a peanuts seller… My time will come.. And I want her with me by then..I didn’t spoke to you regarding this till today because I am jobless ,I thought it won’t sound good to ask someone’s daughter for marriage without a job, but I heard that you are going to a match set, so I came to speak about it ,so that I don’t loose her..

Fisher: okay I will try my best… I like the way you speak quite convinced with your side, but as I said I am not the decision maker,

Fish : you love your daughter , you gave the best to her so far and I think i am the best for her, not because of the fact I think so, but because she loves me… And love can bring happiness.. Even if you don’t have materialistic happiness.. Like car and jewels.

Fisher : very right. But they are also important as a father I would be happy to see me daughter in luxurious attire. We all are here for society and society wants all this materialistic happiness.

Fish : society does not bring the eternal happiness.. They are with you when you are at good high they leave when you fall.. uncle.. (He explained with some example)

Fisher : yes right but… OK I will think about it .. I am here as a friend to you and will tell you that marriages are made in heaven.. You have to feel sorry if god has made some harsh decisions for you..

Fish : I don’t know god.. Though I pray.. So it is just a belief.. I don’t how we loved.. I think god wanted this to happen.. I am genuine and she also loves me with genuine heart.. She can’t love any other and I can’t even imagine of it.. I think god won’t separate the loved ones.. That’s why i am having this conversation with you so that I could stop her match set.. Hardwork conquers I heard.. I did my hardwork.. By speaking it to you directly about it.. Now it is up to you .. You can make it or break it.. Not the god.

Fisher : I can do only what comes to my way.. I don’t know what to say.. I will do the best of what I can do.

Fish : I can’t see your daughter in sadness.. I know you can’t see her in sadness.. I can’t see her crying for her whole life.. I am sure you can’t as well. Her happiness is with me.. So you have the decision to think what you want for her ,sadness or happiness..

I would repeat that happiness is not available in the biggest of super market ,no matter how much money you have … You can’t purchase it.. You have to feel the happiness in every small and big things you have ..happiness is only with the persons you loved.. Not with those you don’t even know..

Mark my words your daughter will be very happy with me… She will be the most beautiful girl when she would stand next to me in our marriage reception uncle!

I saw her happiest when she talks to me about everything everyone.. Just ask her she will tell you.. About me and her and our relationship . trust me give me love give her love don’t separate us..

Give me some time..to get a job I will come along with my family and make it official among everyone..

Fisher : okay. I hope you do as you mentioned… I am sure I am going to do the right thing for her. Though you look a gentleman to me as you are so vocal about your love to the father of your loved girl.. It needs honesty to say all this..

Fish : i love her the most in this world..and she loves me more than anyone and the right thing is giving her happiness which is with me..

Fisher : alright I am convinced I will speak to her about her views towards you and would know more about it..as she is the other important person.

Fish : yes you right … She loves me madly.. She said she will commit suicide if I won’t speak to you about us..

Fisher : stupid girl (whispered)

Fish : that’s love.. Even I can do the same for her..

Fisher : this is more like movie..life is big, one can’t be everything for anyone..

Fish : but for us this is what practicality is… We can’t live without eachother..

Fisher: fine …we will meet once we get back from the groom’s house.

Fish : yes.. Thank you uncle I am happy that I spoke about my love to a third person..that third person is he father of girl ..and happy with your acceptance.

………After three days………

Fisher : hello … I have to say this to you that I am sorry.. everything went wrong , they all forced me. My daughter and I cried as we were unable I am sorry again forgive me. She said I would do what you people think better for me. And then they all from my wife’s family proceeded with the match.. It is now in society that my daughter is getting married to that guy…

Fish : but I spoke to you for not this reply ,you are the father how could they do this…i cant believe this (he said this with tears in eyes) how could she say yes…she loved me she proposed me..we are in love from years.. How one can put her head down and accept someone else with ease.. This is so unreal.. I can’t think my life without her..

Fisher : but she said to me that she is happy with it.. She may wants a safe and secured life.. Which you may not give her on today’s date.. She may have considered various other facts apart from love..

Fish : then why she loved me..? She could love me for years and i was not a rich man then either.. ! but for now she wants marriage and wants security…or she wants his money… How could she play with my life.. I loved her with dignity i can’t accept this …this is completely in injustice to me.. She has no right to play with my life.. I have invested a lot of my years on this love and her… She can’t cheat me like this .. Just ask her to give me back my years of life which I have invested on her.. I feel like a toy which has been used by her for her own god and left aside after it becomes old..( he said this with plenty of tears falling down)

Fisher : I don’t know.. I am done with you I feel sad for you young boy.. You are a nice person I would have loved to have you as my daughter’s husband but I am not everything… They did it and we could not avoid their decision.. And moreover she also never looked uncomfortable.. I think she got fed up with your hardships.. And wanted to move on.

Fish : no I think you all played with me and and may be with her also..

Fisher : she said me to tell you to move on…and live life with acceptance and attain some success and marry a pretty girl..

Fish: shut !! tell her that “this life is enough to prove her decision wrong”! we have to pay for every single deed what we do in our life Because someone is watching us and above all to whom we call Almighty….

Well I will pray to God to be not so harsh on her….. (he replied with the broken heart and confusion that how and where it went wrong..whether he has been cheated by her or her father played with him a sharp cheap game .. Or this what the destiny decided for him..)