Not CREDIBLE !


Hello Friends,

Hope you all are doing good in your life , as i really want you all to be in the best of your health and mental state.

Guys today i have been thinking about the stature and the credible status of Bollywood , and i really feel sad for the circumstances it has been , the recent suicides of some of the most adorable and talented actors and the drama around their demise has been very strange and shameful, which is very sluggish with the best of my knowledge.

but when i see the last one and half years of entertainment world , i only feel cheated and betrayed by the so called actors and their closed ones, we have seen the involvement of Mr. Raj Kundra in the pornography case and also in the IPL Betting case.

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And then the never ending list of involvement of bollywood actors in drug peddling and consumption , we have seen the actors like Deepika Padukone , Sara Ali khan , Shraddha kappoor, Rakul Preet singh, Rhea chakraborthy along with her brother and yes Aryan Khan the son of famous bollywood actor shah Rukh Khan. Of course few of them have been are behind the bars but most of them are still in the process of investigation or may be the investigation agency could not have found any evidences or they were not enough to prove them guilty,

we also heard the noise of involvement form the televison industry with some big names from the business like Bharti singh and her husband. with due respect we have also some references of the south Indian film industry but they were are not as it has been form the bollywood,

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although with Aid of some of the most reputed lawyers they are safe and they are still working in the same field but as an audience we have to think do we still trust them ?

do we really feel them are someone who have been asked for investigation without a purpose.

do we really think that they have been targeted by some of the people for their political or ideological benefits ? which we usually get to listen who are supporting these actors or who defend the bollywood,

we do have our own brain we can sense that everything is not for an political agenda as some forces are there to destroy the youth of our country and by availing drugs in the streets by small kids or by some unconventional means they are trying to make our country weak and addictive to the drugs which could hamper us like never before,

it is sad that few still there political interests in the entire investigation and raids.

but i feel that the term called bollywood has lost its charm and attraction, people have slowly developed hatred which we usually hear in the general discussions in our local gardens, this hatred is also very reasonable not at all objectionable as they are the so called reel heroes they have extra responsibility for being what they are there many followers to them who follow them blindly, they are worshiped in some places, but if this is what the truth is then i think it is the common people who have been cheated the most for believing everything what there favorite stars said,

but the broader picture is that there are many families who are completely dependent on the film industry for their survival if this how we all are going to create a kind of rejection and question for all the valid reasons where and what they will do to survive. i can only feel bad for everyone who followed them and who is associated from the industry and have to face some hatred for things they have done wrong somewhere .

Thank you

The Right Girl !


Just Not the Right Girl for you!

As I smoke & Drink sometimes , and you don't,

Just not the Right Girl for you ,

As I Don't Pray much,

Just not the Right Girl for you,
As I laugh Louder than any other girl,

Just Not the Right Girl,
as I wear Some Clothes which are short and you don't like such clothes,

Just Not the Right Girl,
as I Care for others more than me, and you don't ,

Just Not the Right Girl , 
as I Don't share my problems and Pain , as you want it to be,

Just not the right Girl,
 as I Am a free Bird ,and you want to have a puppet for you,


I can't be that Girl with Limited Words as I speak a lot at times,

I can't be your Miss Right all the time.

As I want to fly and you want someone without wings.

So Dude,
You are free to have such Puppets more and more ,

I am not the Right choice for you.
Thank You

Some More Cigarettes Please. . .




Laying in pain, on the corners of Road,
Without any serious sense of shyness,

 

Also sitting sometimes near the balcony,

Thinking about You, And The Fate.




With this white smoke all around my face,
And  A Cigarette in my hand, And even many more packets of cigarettes,
with a lighter to put fire.
Closing my eyes , and taking the smoke inside my body,

Mixing it with my respiratory organs and destroying them ,

With my eyes filled with tears and all colored in red.




Smoking it like we breathe for living ,
Craving for it like kids do for food.

But Loosing Hopes of  Living a life.

Ignoring the Dangers involved in it, 
As every next choke of smoke gives some artificial goodness,
with lots and lots of worries. Everything seems disappearing slowly.

I know It's like a self destruction.
I know there is nothing like heroism in it.
I know it's not good for health,
Yes of course It's not magical.
It is not a healer not even a pain killer.
It's just that I am terribly addicted to it,
It will kill me someday,
May be with more pain than what I have now,
It may be unbearable for me then,
But still I want some more..
Some More Cigarettes Please.
,

**Fictional & And I Don’t Smoke.

 

**Smoking is Injurious to Health.

Lost’


Someone,

someday ,

somehow…

Just Disappeared .

With some anxiety and plenty of Questions,

Pain,

And confusion.

Just Disappeared

And Lost ..

Lost to find someone..

Lost to find happiness..

Lost to find Life..

Rather

Lost to find the own individuality.

Lost to find the soul,

Success,

And smile.

Let’s find the Lost one

LOVE STAYS..


More than the world I have my views clear …

As I know it better than he , she and the one next to both,

I have my gut feel which is stronger than any evidence,

Evidence, 🙂 Do I need it?

I with my emotionally unbalanced state, confess that ,

Dear I still love you a lot, and it is literally impossible for me to look think and feel beyond you.

My Every single aspect of life is evolved about you, and it is still around you.

I may forget the biggest of things, or even the tiny little things at the same time,

But I am unable to forget you, with or without the forgiveness.

I am a kind of person who is still pertaining with your memories, in my real world even after years of detachment.

Yeah it is questionable, it is unacceptable.

But I have my set of answers and the questions.

I have my acceptance to the things. So I don’t need any other approval,

Feelings are stronger sometimes than the barriers,

Loving you as ever my love.

Can’t Help.

God Bless You.


*** I personally don’t prefer clean shaves.

Reading a wrong Book!


At the end, yes almost of the completion rather say the actual start of it, I came to know that I am a reading a wrong book,

Book with multiple reasons to get attracted,

May be like an illusion…

To fall for a read, like a mild love story with moderate title.

With soothing songs, and sentimental scenes.

Just like we want that one particular well structured cake with some serious decoration in a bakery.

I picked , purchased and started Reading…

And it took really time for me to realize that I am onto something very different from my expectations..

It is a negative book ,with a concept negatively compiled, heart draining with the every single aspect of it.

Don’t Fall for it, Don’t fall for it..

Don’t waste your energy and time, throw it before it destroys you,

It is poisonous..

It took sometime for me to realize but it is good that I am out of it now..

Someone said it right…

Don’t Judge a book by it’s cover

lovE & paiN


Love is pain and pain is love

Both are on the same page and both are with one another.

Both are not easy to handle,

both makes you strong,

Both needs more and more of you.

Both will either make you or break you,

Why we love to have love , and want pain with it,,?

Sometimes without our choice, Will and demand we taste both

Live with love and love with pain so that we could live and love and feel the pain as a part of it

Pain gets lesser when we have our best partners to cope up,

Love gets more and actually grows when we have best partners,

so both are same in terms of demand, love grows and pain diminishes with our best possible partners,

Love is medicine which cures from the disease called pain,

Love your love always, like you love your love like no one else can love ever.

And your love never feel any pain even in a pain.

Why always me and not you..!


Hey listen ,

Why I need to say hello to you every time after your bye..

Why?

Tell me why?

Why always me the first and not you..

Why you can’t say the same to me ..

Why you feel it different from me to Approach..

Why you don’t feel the same eagerness to talk..

Why you are so selective and reactive..

Why you can’t initiate the first step..

Why?

Tell me why?

Why always me and not you?

Don’t Go..


Listen,

Don’t go,

Don’t go to bed !

Let’s stay awake in love as I don’t want to sleep and loose you even in my dreams.

Let’s stay away from fights as I know I can’t win and also I don’t want you to loose.

Let’s stay in love to feel you in me and me in you regardless of our distance in between.

Let’s stay away from egos and angers, and stay happy.

Let’s stay in life with our dreams, so that you and me don’t need any other day to live .

Hey ,

how could you go for sleep. When I have so much to ask and many more to share.

Kisses and many more.


She with an image of introvert, more of a book worm,

A simple, And Shy looking girl,

with long black hair , always oiled and tied !!!

And with specs ,

Falls in love with a guy,

who was not so good in the good books of any father,

With some messy hair,And untamed Beard.

with An Ear Ring for a show off, and a street fighter with profession.

but nervous in talking to girls.

He finds it tough to approach for romance.

Because Loving an introvert girl is not that easy at least as per the perception.

As one can’t force any other.

So, the girl understands his side and breaks the shackles of her own created barriers ,

She calls him to her house, with a loose hair and dim light ,

she smiles and removes her specs, with some tempting dress and a naughty pull towards her through his neck ,

looks at him and asks ” you being a macho scared of what??? , don’t you think I am like any other girl who likes love.

And in between her talks she holds him tight and kiss him on his lips with her own eyes closed .

The girl is not the same book worm and introvert at the kissing,

And she kissed him with all the hidden desires and passion.

And then the Guy kiss her with a more manly approach, he also feels good about it as they both have crossed their barrier.

and so, they both shared a passionate romance ,

And loving each other like they are carefree in love…

with some noisy kisses and many other things.

Return if you find it.


A Part of Mine is Missing,

I have been seeking and searching it’s Existence,

But I think I lost it,

Yeah,

I lost my heart and so my smile.

Check if it is there with you,

Please Return if you find it.

It has been there with me,

But I lost it,

Lost it from the last hug of yours ,

Just Check it,

you may find it somewhere,

Around your heart,

May be around your perfume,

Even around your Mirror,

Return it, if you find it.





Option / choice.


I wish I could have stopped her , a bit more,

I tried my best,

but she had priorities,…

And many more reasons to leave.

I wanted her to stay ,

Sit and talk more About she and me.

But she went as she felt going is a better option,.

Then talking to me.

Or she may have better things to do than talking to me.

I felt like ,

I am an option,

not a choice

Not a serious aspect,

Just a time pass Material!!

Who has been played,

And left after sometime.

You Betrayed yourself .


jennifer winget

I am Broken

Sad

Alone

And

Empty.

But still Don’t want to Be in love with you as you don’t need it, as you don’t deserve it, as you don’t respect it,

You want darkness and the sadness,

And of course the Pain .

You may have many things to live and like, but you still need that one thing which you will never get , because you betrayed yourself,

you cheated yourself more, than anyone, You Idiot.

May you find heart and heartbeats as a human being . As you sound Alien to me sometimes, who has more of nothingness than anything to cherish .

God Bless you,

May you find yourself better someday.

May you find better reasons to live love and laugh.

Get well soon.

What They Never said!


They said you may burn, you’re using fire as your Darling,

They said you may get poisonous, you’re cuddling with a snake,

They said you may get shock, you’re are hanging out with current,

They said you may fall, you’re are buzzing around a rock.

They said you may you may drowned, you’re swimming across the river in rain.

They said This,

And They said That,

Actually They said Everything

Like Snake, Rock,River, Fire and current !

But ,

They never said Directly That you shouldn’t love her !

Which was needed the most,

Come on Guys,

How could I Believe in such Hints , Being Obsessed to Her, ?


*We should be clear with our words and Actions always.

Reading The Same Book


Reading the same book

Based on Love,

and Romance,

Reading the same book,

We liked the most,

Based on Affections,

and Emotions,

Reading the same book,

We thought to Adapt & Recompile,

Based on Me,

and You.

Reading the same book,

But,

Adding the chapters of hate and cheat,

Also, Pain and Redemption to the ending of it,

And Named it

” The Roasted Chicken.”

Raising My Eye Brow…


just saw your picture the other night,

felt like I saw something really unpleasing to my heart , more than my eyes.

As I could easily recollect my moments with you,

Which I actually avoided over the years. As I hate to recollect it.

wait,

you may think I watched it purposely, but this is not what the case was,

I was scrolling my social site and I found you there with him as youprofile picture.

I actually tried to avoid watching your pic by closing my eyes & scrolling down,

but one of my eye, may be the right eye still saw your pic as it never closed.

Though It looked like I was winking at you,

but not actually,

I Just watched you and him, with a raised eyebrow .

That’s it.

But it has been a really painful experience,

as I never wanted to watch you and your pic again ,

But accidentally I watched you through your pic,

That too with the one for whom you left me.

Sad but yes I saw your pic. !

Hate you dear!!

It Happens….


Just too hard it is to miss someone who has been not nice to you,

I think we don’t miss them, we actually still don’t digest the fact of they being wrong and harsh to us.

We don’t sleep in the nights .

And we sleep sometimes with the open eyes.

You can’t walk in the best available roads,

But you prefer to walk blindly near the sea shore.

It is tough to actually define it , as you don’t know is that the extended love !

Or the extreme hate it is.

Whatever it is , it makes life very tough.

Hate you the most…


I hate you,

yes I hate you even in your photographs,

I can’t take that fake smile even for few seconds,

just too harsh for my heart to watch you even in my dreams,

you don’t deserve an eye contact for the rest of my life,

yes I hate you the most ,

I don’t want to meet you forever,

Also,

I can’t even watch your sick photographs , I repeat!

Don’t know when I developed this hatred for you,

As only I know how much I loved you, You Bloody coward!

But you never deserved that love.

I hate you !! Yes HATE you the most.

Wrong or Right ?


Wrong or Right, I don’t know

If loving someone is a crime ,

then take me to the jail,

but you can’t take the feelings from my heart , as I live with it ,

if I am died, you may take it from my body but not from my soul,

Harder & heavier it is to justify you all as you people hardly understand my language,

as i speak clear and lucid and you only understand manipulations,

yes it is not that legitimate to love her,

but my heart is quite untamed,

it don’t have an active brain,

to think and tell that you are now Mrs. And not the same Miss,

by the way it beats faster than an ordinary heart,

whenever i remember you and me and the good happy days,

Can’t help!!!

And actually I don’t care.

Don’t lOok bAck !


Just a thought of looking back came in my mind , but it is good to move forward.. I realized then.

Though the life is very empty and I am very much alone.

Yes I don’t smile as i used to do. Yes I don’t live the life as I have been.

Yes I put my head down when I have been asked to answer as I don’t want any confrontations as it illogical now.

Yes I think daily about  how it happened? And why to me? I could have done better or what?

But yes it feels good to know that I am not with those fake people , I am not around with the so called well wishers of mine.

As even I came to know that it’s good to be alone rather than the fake people.

So I don’t need to look back as it only gives me pain for being so idiot and blind in love. How I could be so fool? How they could be so cruel and selfish? Why I believed them in that way?

Many questions within me comes and make feel bad about it as I can’t get the answers. As they are unavailable to me in fact don’t exist for me anymore either.

So this life has taught me that yes it is very painful to deal with your emotional setbacks , as it may drag you again and again to the life where you have been but one should never look back . we should smile and move forward in life.

Don’t Look Back to the People and to the history which Hurts you even more than the pain your dealing in the present.

Just Don’t Look Back and Move forward.

As it will give you sadness only.

Life is cycle of happiness and sadness wait for the other side and live your life with a smiLe.

GoodNighT.

Hell is the Better place to live…


Hell is the better to place to live the rest of my life,

As it won’t give me these breathe taking pains on instalment basis,

As it won’t give me the sadness of being cheated again and again,
As it won’t insult me for loving you blindly every now and then,
Yes Hell is the better to live my life.

You are the reason for all these conversations,

You are the reason for all the instigations,

You are the reason for my helplessness,

You are the reason for every time i cry,
You made my life irresistible,
Hell is better place to live,

I can’t live with this shame,

I can’t live with this humiliation,

I do have words,
I don’t want to stay with it,
Yes I am frustrated,

As Hell is the better to place to LIVE.

Hell is the better to place to live the rest of my life,

As it won’t give me these breathe taking pains on instalment basis,

As it won’t give me the sadness of being cheated again and again,
As it won’t insult me for loving you blindly every now and then,
Yes Hell is the better to live my life.

You are the reason for all these conversations,

You are the reason for all the instigations,

You are the reason for my helplessness,

You are the reason for every time i cry,
You made my life irresistible,
Hell is better place to live,

I can’t live with this shame,

I can’t live with this humiliation,

I do have words,
I don’t want to stay with it,
Yes I am frustrated,

As Hell is the better to place to LIVE.


Clearly Yours…


Let me tell her that he likes her…

But what about you, ah not much.

I will be happy if she is happy with him.

But you like her. No I love her

Then why do you want to do this..

As I don’t want loose her friendship if she doesn’t likes me..

And moreover he is richer and best suited to her…

So your love…?

Happy with her happiness..

My love is tiny then her shopping wallet..

Even if she accepts me..

I know my life and her demands…

We would be the perfect mismatch…

Patchy Lines.


Yes I have to say that I love you and hate you, yes it is very tough to do both at the same time but yes I have been doing it daily from few years, I don’t know how but I hate you like hell and yes I still love you dear somewhere …I don’t know why.! You have been a puzzle you are still the same.

It is hard to have the love and hate relationship with the same individual but yes I have something like that and I am enjoying it. Yes I never wanted to hate you but your deeds are very bad, I know it is unbelievable but yes I do love and hate to you a lot.

I hope someday I can come to a conclusion of loving you or hating you only, rather than having both emotions on you. Don’t ask me which is more.

Love.

You’re the difference


the dark loneliness is lovable when it has your thoughts.

the charmless smile is sparkling when it has your memories..

the rough hair is shiny when it has your touch..

the awkward moment is memorable when it has your appearance..

the tough time is smooth when it has your support…

the confusing path is clear when it has your guidance..

the irritation is enjoyable when it has your flair..

the boringness is entertaining when it has your magic..
the sour is sweet when it has your existence..


the sick nights are electrifying when it has your swag.
So, you’re the difference..

Leave me with a smile on your face..


And then she said…

I Love you …

But my family does not want me to live with you as they have other dreams for me and you don’t fit over there according to them…

And i can’t leave my family for you….. As they came earlier in my life then you……

So i have decided to live without you for them as they cannot understand my situation as you can do.

I am sorry for this

but I am helpless

I just want to say that you deserve a better person than me …

I know its tough and painful but this the last thing I am asking you for this life if you really love me please leave me with a smile on your face and don’t meet me again..

I can’t face you

But don’t hate me I can’t see that for me.

I am sorry I know its a kind of cheat with you but I know you will understand my situation better then anyone else.

Please forgive me..

Please Go …

“I love your daughter… “


Fish (Guy) : hello uncle… I am… I think …I Want to say something to you, uncle I know it’s quite odd to say this but I have to say this that I love your daughter… would be happy to get married to her.

Fisher ( Her Father) : excuse me!

Fish : yes it is quite awkward to speak about it to you directly , but I heard that you are going to look a guy for her marriage, so I thought I have to say this so that it don’t get too late.. (With some sparks and nervousness he said)

Fisher : look it is not right for you and me to speak about it.. As neither my daughter knows this nor your family people, it is ridiculous to discuss all this now , when I am heading towards a match set..

Fish : well your daughter loves me and you don’t need to think much about my family .. They will get involved when they will be informed about it, leave that part to me.. They all love love me a lot they would do what I want them to do 🙂 .

Fisher : what you what me to do with it now ?

Fish : just don’t look any guy for her ,

Fisher : but we all are going tomorrow to the groom’s house, how I could help you then, you should have came earlier..

Fish : I tried but I am facing to many things in my life and dealing with some heavy hardships, so I request you to cancel it by any possible way, you may go tomorrow and reject the match with any possible reason, you have to do this for the sake of love..

Fisher: look , this is not my decision only ,, their will be other people involved in it, I like you as a person and happy that my daughter also loves you ,, you are a very talented guy, but I need reasons I am not the only decision maker.

Fish : ‘ I love her, she loves me, you like me , i know my parents will like her. Tell me a reason to select another guy …? You are the father of her I approached you with a hope but you being the supreme of the house saying I am not the decision maker.. Sounds weird.. Don’t you think the two individuals should get married who share love.

Fisher: you don’t have a job how to accept it for my girl I am her father..

Fish: I don’t have now, I will have for sure.. I will marry her after sometime not today.. Don’t feel that you are talking to a useless fellow.. I am also an educated engineer… Not a peanuts seller… My time will come.. And I want her with me by then. I didn’t spoke to you regarding this till today because I am jobless ,I thought it won’t sound good to ask someone’s daughter for marriage without a job, but I heard that you are going to a match set, so I came to speak about it ,so that I don’t loose her..

Fisher: okay I will try my best… I like the way you speak quite convinced with your side, but as I said I am not the decision maker,

Fish : you love your daughter , you gave the best to her so far and I think i am the best for her, not because of the fact I think so, but because she loves me… And love can bring happiness.. Even if you don’t have materialistic happiness.. Like car and jewels.

Fisher : very right. But they are also important as a father I would be happy to see me daughter in luxurious attire. We all are here for society and society wants all this materialistic happiness.

Fish : society does not bring the eternal happiness.. They are with you when you are at good high they leave when you fall.. uncle.. (He explained with some example)

Fisher : yes right but… OK I will think about it .. I am here as a friend to you and will tell you that marriages are made in heaven.. You have to feel sorry if god has made some harsh decisions for you..

Fish : I don’t know god.. Though I pray.. So it is just a belief.. I don’t how we loved.. I think god wanted this to happen.. I am genuine and she also loves me with genuine heart.. She can’t love any other and I can’t even imagine of it.. I think god won’t separate the loved ones.. That’s why i am having this conversation with you so that I could stop her match set.. Hard work conquers I heard.. I did my hard work.. By speaking it to you directly about it.. Now it is up to you .. You can make it or break it.. Not the god.

Fisher : I can do only what comes to my way.. I don’t know what to say.. I will do the best of what I can do.

Fish : I can’t see your daughter in sadness.. I know you can’t see her in sadness.. I can’t see her crying for her whole life.. I am sure you can’t as well. Her happiness is with me.. So you have the decision to think what you want for her ,sadness or happiness..

I would repeat that happiness is not available in the biggest of super market ,no matter how much money you have … You can’t purchase it.. You have to feel the happiness in every small and big things you have ..happiness is only with the persons you loved.. Not with those you don’t even know..

Mark my words your daughter will be very happy with me… She will be the most beautiful girl when she would stand next to me in our marriage reception uncle!

I saw her happiest when she talks to me about everything everyone.. Just ask her she will tell you.. About me and her and our relationship . trust me give me love give her love don’t separate us..

Give me some time..to get a job I will come along with my family and make it official among everyone..

Fisher : okay. I hope you do as you mentioned… I am sure I am going to do the right thing for her. Though you look a gentleman to me as you are so vocal about your love to the father of your loved girl.. It needs honesty to say all this..

Fish : i love her the most in this world. And she loves me more than anyone and the right thing is giving her happiness which is with me..

Fisher : alright I am convinced I will speak to her about her views towards you and would know more about it..as she is the other important person.

Fish : yes you right … She loves me madly.. She said she will commit suicide if I won’t speak to you about us..

Fisher : stupid girl (whispered)

Fish : that’s love.. Even I can do the same for her..

Fisher : this is more like movie. Life is big, one can’t be everything for anyone..

Fish : but for us this is what practicality is… We can’t live without each other..

Fisher: fine …we will meet once we get back from the groom’s house.

Fish : yes.. Thank you uncle I am happy that I spoke about my love to a third person. That third person is he father of girl ..and happy with your acceptance.

………After three days………

Fisher : hello … I have to say this to you that I am sorry.. everything went wrong , they all forced me. My daughter and I cried as we were unable I am sorry again forgive me. She said I would do what you people think better for me. And then they all from my wife’s family proceeded with the match.. It is now in society that my daughter is getting married to that guy…

Fish : but I spoke to you for not this reply ,you are the father how could they do this…i cant believe this (he said this with tears in eyes) how could she say yes…she loved me she proposed me. we are in love from years.. How one can put her head down and accept someone else with ease.. This is so unreal.. I can’t think my life without her..

Fisher : but she said to me that she is happy with it.. She may wants a safe and secured life.. Which you may not give her on today’s date.. She may have considered various other facts apart from love..

Fish : then why she loved me..? She could love me for years and i was not a rich man then either.. ! but for now she wants marriage and wants security…or she wants his money… How could she play with my life.. I loved her with dignity i can’t accept this …this is completely in injustice to me.. She has no right to play with my life.. I have invested a lot of my years on this love and her… She can’t cheat me like this .. Just ask her to give me back my years of life which I have invested on her.. I feel like a toy which has been used by her for her own god and left aside after it becomes old..( he said this with plenty of tears falling down)

Fisher : I don’t know.. I am done with you I feel sad for you young boy.. You are a nice person I would have loved to have you as my daughter’s husband but I am not everything… They did it and we could not avoid their decision.. And moreover she also never looked uncomfortable.. I think she got fed up with your hardships.. And wanted to move on.

Fish : no I think you all played with me and and may be with her also..

Fisher : she said me to tell you to move on…and live life with acceptance and attain some success and marry a pretty girl..

Fish: shut !! tell her that “this life is enough to prove her decision wrong”! we have to pay for every single deed what we do in our life Because someone is watching us and above all to whom we call Almighty….

Well I will pray to God to be not so harsh on her….. (he replied with the broken heart and confusion that how and where it went wrong.. whether he has been cheated by her or her father played with him a sharp cheap game .. Or this what the destiny decided for him..)

Aside

Please Don’t Read !


Please Don’t Read,

Don’t Read it Please,

It’s Not Good,

Not Good for Anyone.

You may feel bad.

You may curse love.

You may hate god,

You may start crying,

Because It’s filled with Pain.

And Decorated with cheat.

It is layered with Greed,

And poured with selfishness.

You may find Questions ,

But You can’t find The Answers.

And You may need some Fresh Air to breathe,

it’s really very Toxic.

It’s terrible for your heart and also for mind.

You may Not love .

You may never trust .

You may hate the Emotions .

Yes it is Negative.

Please Don’t Read,

Yes Please,

I Request You My Friend,

Don’t Read My Story,

Please Don’t Read My Story.

I never loved you.


That day with some tears , she came to him and said, I feel sorry to you for being so helpless , I am sorry, I know you love me a lot and i really don’t need any evidence as I can feel it,

but I never loved you dear ,

yes this is what the truth is, I just wanted to be their with you till my parents search someone for me to get married,

yes I never loved you, I just acted to be in love with you, I loved your company and everything you did for me ,

yes I never thought About this day, but I should have thought about it,

I am very bad I know,

but this is what the truth is,

I just wanted to get along in a busy status of relationship till my marriage as my friends were teasing me for living a life without boyfriend,

so I did all that for which I am feeling sad.. I know I played with your emotions… But I am sorry..

As I know you have been serious for me and I was just doing it for fun and showoff. I am sorry ,it is really bad and embarrassing…

And the guy was listening without believing….

With some tears and confusion.


***Don’t Play with Emotions..

***How should the guy react to it ? And what would be your reaction if you find yourself at such situation?

Even I accepted their lies.


They asked me few things about an issue, actually they wanted me to answer it either in a spicy way or they wanted to put me in some troublesome state,

I smilingly said why you people are asking me this.? Don’t you believe their stated truths, Or you feel that I need to say my version.

They said we want to know your side.

I replied, There is no my side or their side, there is truth and their false.

So you have to see what you take from their talks,

We don’t believe them, they said.

I answered I believe them, as I don’t care about anything now , I have nothing to loose. And they may be putting the right things forward, I don’t know what they are saying though, but even I accepted their lies, I can’t do much either.

As even don’t know the real truth. And I have nothing to do with the truth now, as they did what they wanted to, and the damage couldn’t be recovered ever, but yes they have been good in chopping and presenting things in their suited way.

But, I don’t have any interest in giving justification to anyone, or to put my side on the issue. As I am not here to prove Anything to anyone, I know my side I am right by best of thoughts, and deep down they also know what is right and what is not right, who is culprit and who is not, and above all there is someone who knows everything and he is looking at everything, to whom we call Almighty, The God,

Moreover I heard that, they are too good and the world is too bad ,and I am too bad and the world is too bad , as per the talks what I came to know from the people in between me and them.

Anyways We all are going to pay for the deeds we do , if not today then tomorrow for sure.

if you are good you will receive good things from god , if bad then you have to be ready for the outcome, you can’t get away from your punishments.

So , I don’t care what they are saying as I am only answerable to the god , but in my case it’s God who has to answer me, as he may don’t have any question and I have many to ask him. And it would start from Why me? ?

I hope i will get the answer,!!!

Anyways you are free to think and consider me anything you want as liberty is there for everyone.

But my identity is best known to me and god. Likewise truth is better known to God , culprit and victim.

But if they say I am culprit , then yes I am culprit . nothing to objectify or even feel bad. As they are not the decision makers . so why to think or care about it.

Then they smiled and said you said nothing in particular but said everything.

And I smiled back.

Thank you for reading.

Loving Ghost


Yes he kissed her as she sleeps next to him every night,

And in the morning he takes his breakfast with her.

As she loves to cook for him and watch him eating,

He make few cups of coffee which they enjoy with a kiss .

She comes and goes,

she is not scary but yes she is the ghost who thinks and treats him as her boyfriend,

though he told her that I am not the one but she says let it be I like you as i used to like my boy friend,

Also he asked about her that why she is ghost now, and what went wrong with her,

she said she murdered her boyfriend and committed suicide as she caught him with another girl,

And she had been brutally betrayed by her boyfriend.

She likes him because he looks like him ,

but he is single and lives just next to the room where they lived.

And more ever he also failed in love with same kind of situation though he preferred to let her live with him,

So there is a connection of being cheated by their loved ones but both had different approach to it.

Anyways,

She just wears the normal clothes like jeans T – shirts, etc like any other young girl not like the ghosts of the movies,

yes her voice is dual and of course she has some amplitude at it.

And She could smile and cry at the same time,

She likes romantic movies. And prefer playing carom.

She has the most beautiful eyes and even more beautiful smile.

She is friendly to him but he don’t know how to tell her that she is a different spirit now,

he can’t love her like she wants,

Ghost and human can’t be the lovers,

she says one day when the god would be kind enough on her she would happily leave the world but by then he has to be her love interest,

He thinks he don’t have any other option as he can’t find a way to escape also he has generated some kind of sympathy for her.

May be because of her love failure And the betrayal.


That’s it.!!!

Virgin…


After 2 years of her marriage ,

Pia came back to India to stay with her family, so many of her friends came to meet her,

they asked her many random questions about her and husband,

like,

how is your marriage,?

You both are happy ?

How you have been these days etc.

she said yes I am happy as I look. And we are living with all possible happiness.

Her friend (Nisha) said , all good !that’s enough as you have been the most reserved girl from our group! And went to abroad all of a sudden .

Pia replied ‘ yes i have been very shy and reserved.,

Pia asked – What about you, are you still flirting with all?

Nisha replied- yes sometimes for fun and sometimes for seriously nothing.

But tell me about you how good is your life, you are looking different, he is nice to you right?

I mean why you came alone where is he?,

Pia replied ‘ of course he wanted to come but he had some commitments.

yes I can’t tell you about it in details but I feel so lucky to be his wife.

Her friend was not convinced as she can observe that her eyes were saying something else.

She again, asked her the same question in a different way,

” hey your husband is a rich guy , I saw his profile has some good money in the bank and also have a lot of property etc right?.”

She replied ‘ yes so.

Her friend puzzled pia ” are you not excited with that, like money ,property cars etc.

pia replied “yes if it excites you then I am also excited.”

Her friend could sense that pia is missing something, she asked her again and again by some promises and all.

Pia replied ” yes I am married I love him and he loves me, yes he is rich and talented that’s it,

but you know what I feel like i am still partially virgin,

Yes we travelled everywhere but not like a couple , he was there with some work and consignments.

And I was there to make him feel stress relieved whenever needed.

He has been there with me, but not there for me, more for status showoff. To show it to the world through social networking sites.

And you know how we love, it is more like robots following some of the mating commands.

Yes He is a proper straight man and i am also proper straight girl, nothing odd as it sounds.

but the fact is that, he only touched my body and not my soul, and never allowed me to get in his zone of privacy.

We are not connected to each other like we should have.

My body is not virgin my friend but yes my emotions are , my heart is not there when I am with him because he is not also there with me, its more like a task to him or an activity to loose stress for him, that’s it,

he is busy with his cigars and phone ,

he is there but he is not there with me actually ,

he loves his work more than himself. He love me but his style of love is not what I like may be he don’t even know how to love.

He has a time for everything like 10mins for breakfast , 5mins for getting ready etc,

he is a big time management insect.

It’s good professionally.

but not for the layers of love to get unfolded.

But I am happy as I can’t be sad.


***Love is beyond the materialistic happiness. Love them with everything you have,not just posting pictures and buying gifts.

Stumped!


The Man with some temper issues, did enough to make a mark , but still unaware of buttering to the officials, not a person with a reputation of striking like others , but reasonably good to be in the position for which we are still finding someone , he is not that flamboyant , not that outspoken, like these modern day cricketers are.


Yes I am talking about Mr. Ambati Tirupati Rayudu,

A person who has been good in studies in the early days also did graduation, and always considered as shy and reserved. Someone who never danced,

But always a freaky guy as he did things in style. Be it the the tweet he did against the statement of chief selector of Indian team , for which he may paid the price of his life.

Yes he was quite impulsive in nature , a short tempered guy, with some previous history of anger.

Started his career with a big hype, and suddenly acclaimed as the next big thing in Indian Cricket,

Missed the track in between as did all the wrong things at the right time, he opted to play for the ICL , the league which came before IPL , and considered as The Non BCCI league, for which many players have been penalized and left, somehow they all came back with the courtesy call of the BCCI,

And then the fortune turned for him again, he performed for MI then for CSK, and did enough to play for India and scored decently with an average of 47+.

But then , what went wrong how he has been left from the probables , is still a question mark which haven’t been answered!

Later he was added in the standbys , but never preferred when the team needed, which may have hurt him more, as he was there in the reserved players list like Rishabh Pant, but Mayank Agarwal has been asked to join ahead of Ambati, which may have enforced him to quit the game forever at just 33years.

Seriously not the way one should be treated. It shows the other side of our Indian cricket, He may have decided in an anger, but his anger has reasons and I feel that he has all the rights to feel bad and angry with the outcome,

After all every cricketer wants to represent India in the world cup arena.

He has been a good ambassador of cricket but has been treated in the most bad way,

He deserved a better farewell.

I hope we all could react in the best way, they ruined his career in the best possible way, I am sure they will sit someday in their life and feel bad about their decision, as he could have played for 5 – 6 years.

Politics And Politicians are everywhere, proved again. As cricket fan I am completely saddened with it.

If Ego was the reason to his debacle ,then I think this is the most worst thing happened in Indian cricket.

Thank you.