Lap…
I love to sleep over your lap,
I feel so calm,
Also sleepy..
My worries don’t haunt me anymore..
And I am not the same insomniac ..
Also, I don’t have headaches..
I feel so good…
Chilled and relaxed..
I feel free to breathe,
All my tensions get vanished..
Yes your Lap,
similar to my mother’s lap,
the warm and soothing Lap..
Lap ,
just love to sleep over your lap.
Let me sleep over your lap.
That day with some tears , she came to him and said, I feel sorry to you for being so helpless , I am sorry, I know you love me a lot and i really don’t need any evidence as I can feel it,
but I never loved you dear ,
yes this is what the truth is, I just wanted to be their with you till my parents search someone for me to get married,
yes I never loved you, I just acted to be in love with you, I loved your company and everything you did for me ,
yes I never thought About this day, but I should have thought about it,
I am very bad I know,
but this is what the truth is,
I just wanted to get along in a busy status of relationship till my marriage as my friends were teasing me for living a life without boyfriend,
so I did all that for which I am feeling sad.. I know I played with your emotions… But I am sorry..
As I know you have been serious for me and I was just doing it for fun and showoff. I am sorry ,it is really bad and embarrassing…
And the guy was listening without believing….
With some tears and confusion.
They asked me few things about an issue, actually they wanted me to answer it either in a spicy way or they wanted to put me in some troublesome state,
I smilingly said why you people are asking me this.? Don’t you believe their stated truths, Or you feel that I need to say my version.
They said we want to know your side.
I replied, There is no my side or their side, there is truth and their false.
So you have to see what you take from their talks,
We don’t believe them, they said.
I answered I believe them, as I don’t care about anything now , I have nothing to loose. And they may be putting the right things forward, I don’t know what they are saying though, but even I accepted their lies, I can’t do much either.
As even don’t know the real truth. And I have nothing to do with the truth now, as they did what they wanted to, and the damage couldn’t be recovered ever, but yes they have been good in chopping and presenting things in their suited way.
But, I don’t have any interest in giving justification to anyone, or to put my side on the issue. As I am not here to prove Anything to anyone, I know my side I am right by best of thoughts, and deep down they also know what is right and what is not right, who is culprit and who is not, and above all there is someone who knows everything and he is looking at everything, to whom we call Almighty, The God,
Moreover I heard that, they are too good and the world is too bad ,and I am too bad and the world is too bad , as per the talks what I came to know from the people in between me and them.
Anyways We all are going to pay for the deeds we do , if not today then tomorrow for sure.
if you are good you will receive good things from god , if bad then you have to be ready for the outcome, you can’t get away from your punishments.
So , I don’t care what they are saying as I am only answerable to the god , but in my case it’s God who has to answer me, as he may don’t have any question and I have many to ask him. And it would start from Why me? ?
I hope i will get the answer,!!!
Anyways you are free to think and consider me anything you want as liberty is there for everyone.
But my identity is best known to me and god. Likewise truth is better known to God , culprit and victim.
But if they say I am culprit , then yes I am culprit . nothing to objectify or even feel bad. As they are not the decision makers . so why to think or care about it.
Then they smiled and said you said nothing in particular but said everything.
And I smiled back.
Thank you for reading.
Good Morning Friends,
Wishing luck and love to all of you, And appealing all to believe in the integrity of our nation and celebrate our Independence,
Yes a Very Happy Independence Day all my friends and fellow Bloggers across the globe.
We all are one, we all believe in Unity .
We all know our history, and the fight against slavery and struggle for freedom.
So, We need to understand the value of the freedom, we have some issues still to fight like Terrorism, Unemployment,crime, communalism, etc etc we need to eradicate all these and the solutions against it,
we have to strengthen our women and should focus on women empowerment,
we need to have a parallel education system, no changes as per the state, one nation one syllabus and one medium, .
we need to fight against the misconception of our so called social reformers and put the right things forward.
Yes we have been doing some good things in the recent times which has brought some more expectations, it’s good the evils like triple talaq and article 370 has been removed, also the reservation have been offered to the people who are economically weaker, irrespect of the their caste.
We have to accept that somewhere we needed these transformations,
But we need more and more to bring back the title of The Golden Bird for our country. And I believe we can do that.
Let’s fight against the poor mindsets, and stay united for the Harmony and peace.
We all make India, The India world knows.
Let’s stay Independent for ever and take our independence for more generations to come.
Let’s Stay Independently United.
Yes I Am a Proud Indian like Any other Indian. And I believe we all should be.
Happy Independence Day!!!
Mera Bharat Mahaan!!
Jai Hind!!
Good Morning friends,
We all are quite aware of the issues Kerala is facing now, with heavy rains and flood kind of situations ,in fact many portions of southern India is dealing with it,
Kerala is in deep trouble, they face it every next time and I read this on s portal that it happens because of unplanned development, landslides and floods occurs mainly because of poor decisions taken for having developments, they discard the demands of nature, they opt for deforestation,rock cuttings, poor water harvesting etc
Anyways, we need to stand by them in their tough situations, let’s stick together and help them , we could help them in any possible manner like offerings charity, donating essentials like food and basics.
If you are good enough then I would request you to share your bit for them. And it could be anything they need food ,clothes, water, raincoats ,medicines etc you may Google it to do it.
I have been following news about it 8 districts have been declared as red alerted. 150+ individuals are missing ,20+ people are died, (Numbers may vary)
Imagine abundance of water everywhere you see and its still raining, you desiring for life to live with your family, but don’t how to survive. Being unsheltered,sick ,and hungry.
It is horrible and tragic.
Same is with Karnataka and Maharashtra, the people who are there are facing trouble as well, in fact the States residing next to the Western Ghats have been declared to have heavy rainfall and may face severe landslides .
Our Govt. is trying their best but don’t why they do it after the occurrence, as I believe “preventions is better than cure”. Anyways hoping for the best.
But Kerala has been the most affected state so far by being the most green and beautiful. And of course my favourite.
Lets do it as a human being. let’s pray for them, let’s pray for Kerala, and urge god in our prayers about all the Kerala people, as praying for the person next to you is also a kind of concern.
Thank you.
They say I am too good for this,
And they say I am too bad to be here,
they say you may think that way or even this way,
they say you can’t do this,
And they say only you can do this ,
they say you may have think so, And they say you may have thought that,
they say you have mood swings,
Also, they say you have overconfidence,and rash attitude,
they say you can’t do much,
As you are sick with your actions,
Also you are carefree,Negligent and over rated.
Wait,
How do they say so, ?
Do they have any clue about me?
how could be they saying so,
how they can be presuming about my mind, and heart, ?
how they are so judgemental!
And why?
Who are they to think that I may think or may have thought so,
Why they consider me so...?
What gives them that courage to be so considerable about me.
Literally What ???
Look & Listen
I am not like what you presume or consider ,
I am just way beyond your imaginations.
I love being Me,
I won’t mind if you think I have attitude or I am carefree.
I have something about which you can only dream to have.
And that’s my originality I am not fake,
I am Rude ,or care free.
I have my head high for everything I do.
And I don’t need a certificate for being selfless from you.
I am not this or that,
I don’t think this way or that way,
I am Too Good for your mind to pick or presume.
And it’s only me who know it better that what I can do and what I can’t, Got it .
Take care!
It is nervousness or anxiety , I don’t know….
but it is something which is hitting my heart and mind,
I think my heart is not willing to accept myself as a failure and somehow my mind has came to a conclusion of compensatory happiness.
Being amongst the losers with some reasons, explanations , and of course few excuses has been the story so far,
Loosing without a trial with lot of distractions and few strong barriers are something with which I am dealing from years,
LOSER, is a big tag.
And I think I am accepting it somewhere in my heart with sadness, its not that I never had the ingredients to conquer, but it has been somehow my negligence with some hard lucks, obligations and poor decisions.
Yes it has affected me, my dreams, my aspirations, my happiness and my searching satisfaction.
I am good at this and that but not enough stabilized to put it for some productive outcome ,
Outcome in context of success, And successful satisfaction.
I hate the confusion, hate that a lot as it ruined me, still I feel a compensatory choice I preferred for sustainment.
As sustainment is an important thing I dared to avoid it once and paid the price for that dare,
so may be I am not good at dreaming or my dreams are just dreams I should not try to feel and live it, I figured out.
Yes it is saddens you at your heart , and you start questioning your own life,
like may be god has made me for this and not that and I am trying to hard to go beyond god’s decision.
Anyways I Still feel sad when people come and say you have been so good ,
you could have done this and that with ease, you should have been there we always felt that you are something different and thought you to be at some high to look,
we still have high expectations,
you can still start and deliver with ease, you have the spark , you just have to focus and focus at like everything, we still have high expectations from you.
And listening all that makes me feel so bad for being so unjustified to their expectations,
it feels good to have high expectations but it breaks you into pieces when they themselves say you spoiled it man with your own, and failed and you are a loser!
And then our mind and heart have some serious sadness with which we may not cope up.
As it takes us to negativeness, when you start comparing yourself with your expectations and with your contemporaries. And you find yourself now where.
You actually fail when you question your self or start thinking more than you should.
But having being said that,
I think life gives you chances to bounce back and roll it like a boss,
I am still seeking and trying to find out that one chance to make it appropriate with my life and the people around it.
I hope god has left one more good thing to share and hopefully I would accept it without any blunders this time.
Pray for me.
Thank you
