RPR : I don’t do anything to look good , but whatever I prefer to do their is something good within it .
What a day it has been,
Oh sorry, Hello Everyone.
What you all do when you are very tired? Yes my energy has got drained due to the stretch of my ultimate limit / over dedication may be?
It has been a very long ,hectic and stressful working day, I Am very tired ,few of my body parts are are in severe pain.
I have been restless.
Doing Job of 3individuals is not a joke on a given day, as we are the Project fellows we have a lot to do and to do this we need our full team, but they were not available .
I have been doing their job along with mine from last week, as we are heading towards the end of our project and evey next officer is there to watch the work report along with the supremo, and it has been today which was scheduled to visit , and as no one was there it has to be me to take the entire responsibility and accountability of the job, I did it but by doing all that I am very tired. And in between these I have been somehow under some serious problem which is very likely to get resolved, it is not an easy thing to lead the team.
I don’t know how I will walk tomorrow as my lower body is in deep pain, my energy level is very low and i am blinking to type every word , but it is good that everyone has watched my hard work and I can say that yes I have done justice to my job, yes I stretched more than needed which led to this condition. I could have given some excuses to get away or to skip some work but I did everything which was asked to me.
It has been very busy day with a lot of mental and physical stress.
Need a very good sleep.
I hope you all are in very better position in comparison to me.
(And that pic is a very old , I wish I had some time to take a PIC.)
Well before writing anything on this topic I think I have to be honest that I am very angry today. And I don’t know how to control it.
In fact I am against of controlling it is a very important emotion. I have my anger issues which has been the reason of my various fights, arguments, failures, etc. In fact I left few of my previous jobs for the same issue. And I think it is very much with me as I treat it as my body part or my important weapon from the armory.
Although I don’t want to use it but it is something which comes to me quite often then not.
May be I am short tempered. But what I have seen that my anger does not harm anyone as it only raises the modulation of my voices and even make it louder so that it can be audible to the person who is in the 2nd street. I feel bad about it . but yes I have to say that I am very much under control of not being violent. Yes I do get irritated and in between I may say something very harsh but the other side is that even at that level I don’t abuse or cross the line in a verbal spat.
But whatever I do I feel bad about it as I think it is very bad to be so bad on anyone. But I can’t help it at that time. As I am not that sense of thinking something to which I feel afterwards.
I may hit hard on something and hurt my self ,it could be a desks, wall or even a my head. Usually I use to punch with my right hand on the surfaces near by or at my forehead.
Sometimes I even damage the furniture stuffs like chairs, tables etc. It is very bad. But I can’t help it.
I have been like this from my childhood ,my mother told me that I used get very angry if didn’t get what I have been promised to get. My face used to get red and it is even now the same.
So the point is it is good to stay with your emotions even it is anger but the way it comes to us it should have some control. How can we control it? More of you is good as I believe in being original .
Tell me something to control it or to manage it in a better so that it could come and go with very ease. Anger issues are there but yes I don’t hurt anyone I have that notch of being watchful even at extreme level so that I don’t use a bad word and don’t get violent on anyone yes in between this I hurt myself.
My anger stays with me and it plays within until it is not bursted on anyone.
Your suggestions are very helpful …please do share it on the comment box. As it is not just a blogging post it is my serious problem with which I really want to overcome.
You are fake…!
You are fake..
Everything about you is fake
Your actions ,
Your gestures ,
Your smiles ,
Your tears ,
Your love ,
Your emotions ,
Your empathy ,
Your sympathy ,
Your care and concerns ,
Your talks ,
Your romance ,
Your Giggles ,
Your Niggles ,
Your Pain ,
Your Gain ,
Your likes ,
Your Dislikes ,
Your truths and of course your lie ,
Everything was fake , there is nothing which is real about you…
You are fake….